Monday, June 28, 2010

Sick again...

Ever since flu season started, I got sick na.

Friday shift, I started sneezing. I knew I was going down with something. True enough, by the end of the shift I was teary eyed and with a runny nose.

By the time I got home I was having a splitting headache and my nose is already clogged. Was not able to get a decent sleep and plus the fact that Love and I was having a slight tampuhan because of me being cold lately over him and he felt I was not taking the relationship seriously and he ignored me for a couple of days. The nerve! Hahaha! Actually, I was. I was a bit cold intentionally. But that's another story.

Anyways, I was not able to report to work for Saturday shift. I was dead tired.

Sunday, Love surprised me by coming over. Maski ang lakas lakas ng ulan, sugod ang gago. He wants to take care of me daw.

Hhmm.. Ano kayang take care iyon??? HAhaha!!! Nagdala ng kung ano-anong food na hindi ko naman malasahan dahil sa barado kong ilong. He ended up eating all the junkfoods, cake and chicken. Did nothing but watched TV and DVD until I fell asleep.

Woke up, tulog na rin ang gago sa tabi ko. Pero syempre.. May konting QT narin! Nabitin ata ako este!! Nabinat ata ako! Hahaha!!!

Hay nako! He can be sweet really, at times. Pero pag dating sa work. Work lang talaga. He's very strict. Palibhasa POC kasi. Madalas mainit ang ulo. Walang love love sa floor. Pero nauutusan ko naman! Hahaha!

Thanks Love for looking after me this weekend. Making an effort to spend time with me and to clear things out. It meant a lot.

Mwah! Mwah! Mwah!

Basta steady lang...

Monday, June 21, 2010

Tatay

I dreamt of my dearest Tatay last night. We were celebrating his birthday. A lot of relatives came and from my own family, aside from my Tatay, me and my two older sisters were the only ones there.

Funny thing is, Ate Cindy played the organ while Tatay and I danced and my Ate Jean sung.

In reality, when I was a little girl, whenever Ate Jean plays the organ, Tatay would grab me and spun me around and around. We would dance until I was dizzy. Those were some of my fondest memory of my dear Tatay.

He loves to dance and sing. He would laugh his heart out and enjoy every moment.

I still miss him. I would tell stories of him to my closest friends and would still shed some tears whenever I remember all the happy moments we had.

It's been 11 years now since he died and still it feels like it was only yesterday when he left us.

He's not a perfect father but he tried his best to provide and give us the life he never had when he was young. He's pretty proud of what he's become and what he had achieved and by God, he deserves everything he had accomplished. He may be not the kind of father that would make lambing or would say I love you, but I know he loved us. He gave all he had for our family.

Wherever you are my Tatay, you are always in heart and in my prayers. Thank you for everything.

I LOVE YOU!

I still miss you so much...

...

I used to wish for the same thing - - -
someone to love and who'll love me back.

But today,

I think I'm going to wish for something else - - -
the wisdom and maturity to realize that I won't find
what I want by looking for it...

That I shouldn't expect someone else to give me
what I never gave to myself.

That I'm NOT a half,
waiting to be made whole.

And even if that special person never comes along,
I'll be just fine... :)

...

Live life fully while you're here.
Experience everything.
Take care of yourself and your friends.
Have fun, be crazy, be weird.
Go out and screw up!
You're going to anyway,
so you might as well enjoy the process.

Take the opportunity to learn from your mistakes:
find the cause of your problem and eliminate it.

Don't try to be perfect;
just be an EXCELLENT example of being human...

Appointments

Went to my ob-gyne last Friday, had my scheduled Pap-smear. Will get the result by next Saturday. Crossing my fingers everything is all well down there. Hhmm...

The next six days would be something to look forward to. Bring all the pain now! Doc said take it easy with the pain killers, if I can handle it, don't drink anymore. So I'll be a masochist even for a week. Hahaha! Embrace the pain!

Seriously, I hope everything will be okay. I'm having some cramps and back pains. But I know it will be all worth it. Preparing for something special in the near future. But I'm really having second thoughts. Kung pwede naman ipagpaliban pa, why not. It will all depend on the circumstances. Pero as much as possible, ayoko pa sana. I know someone who is so eager to volunteer! Hahaha! Ganun lang ba yun!? At hanggnag dun lang ba yun? Coz' if you're going to ask me, gusto ko hanggang dun lang yun. Kaso it doesn't look like you'll be contented na maging hanggang dun lang yun. No strings attach please. :p

Hay! Decisions decisions decisions!

My back is killing me! I need a rub! Whaaaa!!!!

Love It!

I'm loving the new Template Designer by Blogspot... Inspiring me to post more... Hehehe!!!

Saturday, June 05, 2010

...

Still feeling a little bit down. Didn't go to work yesterday and tonight. Need to rest and sleep a little bit longer. Will need a lot of energy to survive this illness. Good thing it is my rest day tomorrow til Monday. Plenty of time to rest.

I miss working. It gets a little bit boring staying here at home almost half of the day doing nothing but sleep. Been to my doctor twice now and still waiting for the results, hope its going to be good news by the end of my medication. And then more test, test and test.

I hate hospitals. I don't want to stay there any longer than having a check-up. But there's nothing I can do.

Buti nalang may nangungulit every now and then... :)

4:00am

H: "u awake?"

S: "yup!"

H: "bakit?"

S: "eh nagtext ka eh! istorbo! joke! I slept almost half of the day na eh... woke up early tuloy"

H: "ano sabi ng doctor, how was ur check-up?"

S: "ayun! more test pa daw. u on break?"

H: "yeah... pasok na ko. miss you! mwah!"

S: "okies... "

H: "love you... "

S: "......"

H: "cge na nga.... basta love you!"

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6:45pm

H: "Gising kana Love? Musta check-up?"

S: "Yeah... Okay naman. More medications lang then be back for more test."

H: "Are you going to work na tonight?"

S: "Not yet... Total rest daw eh... Be back Tuesday night."

H: "Miss you na..."

S: "Pano mo naman ako namimiss? One day palang tayo di nagkikita..."

H: "Basta, di kita nakikita at nakakasama..."

S: "Cheesy!!! Hahaha!"

H: "Eh di wag! Wag kang maniwala."

S: "Asus! Tampo ang baby ko.... Hehehe!"

H: "Wag nalang nga...."


Hahahaha!!!! :p

Do you two have chemistry?

Sweaty palms? Sort of. A pounding heart? A bit. Even so, you’re still not completely sure there are sparks between you. Understandable: While it’d be nice to think that the earth moves and the angels sing when you’ve found The One, sometimes the signals that you two are truly meant for each other are much more subtle than that. Here are seven dead giveaways that singles often miss — know that if you spot one or more of them on your next date, that’s good news.

Subtle sign #1: You turn into a total klutz
So far, you’ve dropped your fork and knocked over your water glass…and that’s before the entrĂ©es have arrived. While embarrassing, these gaffes are actually a good sign. “When you have serious chemistry, your body produces elevated levels of the neurotransmitter norepinephrine,” says Helen Fisher, Ph.D., research professor of anthropology at Rutgers University. This, in turn, can make you jittery, uncoordinated, and a little accident-prone. And if you’re embarrassed by your klutziness, that’s a good sign too! Because if you don’t care what your date thinks of you, you probably don’t think much of your date.

Subtle sign #2: You notice a tiny dent in your date’s pinkie nail
Or that your date’s hair flips up on the left but under on the right. You’ve never noticed something like that about a person before, so why now? Because when there’s true chemistry, the body’s levels of the chemical dopamine rise and lead to “imprinting,” a theory of attachment discovered by German ethologist and Nobel Prize winner Niko Tinbergen. This imprinting makes you focus on this one person more clearly and notice the tiniest, most insignificant details about a person — including possessions. Says Dr. Fisher, “Your date’s car in the parking lot looks different. His or her backpack looks different. That person’s coat on the coat rack stands out. Everything is special, novel, unique.” CHECK!!!

Subtle sign #3: You agree to split the spinach dip appetizer — and you don’t even like spinach dip!
True chemistry makes us more mellow than usual — so don’t be surprised if you find yourself being agreeable with your date in ways you might not with anyone else: You don’t mind walking 10 blocks with your date from your parking spot. You’re suddenly up for seeing a Rob Schneider movie. And even though you’re not a fan of Indian food, what the heck, you’ll give it another shot. “When you’re falling in love, you more easily surrender your boundaries because of a strong desire to merge with that person,” explains Harville Hendrix, Ph.D., author of Keeping the Love You Find. CHECK!!!

Subtle sign #4: The room you’re in seems brighter than usual
Did someone nudge up the dimmer switch? Perhaps. But it could also mean you’re smitten, thanks to a physiological reaction discovered by University of Chicago biopsychologist Eckhard Hess, a pioneer in the area of “pupillometrics.” In short, Hess found that when people look at something or someone that causes positive feelings or sparks interest, their pupils dilate in an attempt to take in more of it, also letting in more light as well. CHECK!!!

Subtle sign #5: You’re more fidgety during the date
If you find yourself stroking your own arm, tapping your leg, or otherwise fidgeting during the date, rest assured: Whether you fully know it or not, you like this person. “These are ‘displacement gestures’ — what you do when you’re trying to decide what to do with yourself,” explains Dr. Fisher. “If someone is smiling at you and you can’t decide if you should smile back or look away, you play with your hair. Or you run your tongue along your teeth.” This happens because your brain is over-stimulated, leading you to vent the extra energy with a little self-grooming. Some experts even argue that stroking your own arm or leg indicates a subconscious desire to reach out and touch the person you’re with.

Subtle sign #6: You keep forgetting there’s food on the table
When you’re out with someone who doesn’t float your boat, boy, do those garlic mashed potatoes taste good. But if you’re feeling a chemical attraction to someone, the food being served is the last thing on your mind — and not just because you’re nervous. Blame this on elevated levels of the neurotransmitter dopamine, which fuels feelings of desire. Higher levels of dopamine, according to Dr. Fisher, “give you a feeling of lightness, increased energy and a feeling of minor ecstasy. And you’re definitely not hungry!” So if your date seems disappointed that you only ate four bites of your steak, you can clear it up later by explaining what a five-star sign it really is.

Subtle sign #7: You feel more “familiar” with your date than “lusty”
Sure, most people think it’s a good sign when they want to jump over the table and rip their date’s clothes off. But let’s be honest—there are plenty of acquaintances you’ve wanted to do that to, and there was no deeper, underlying chemistry there. A stronger sign is that instead of feeling lust for your date, you’re overwhelmed by a feeling of familiarity — a sense of, “Gosh, I feel like I’ve known you before.” The chemistry at work, says Dr. Hendrix, “is due to the emotional center in your brain’s limbic system recognizing qualities in the person that resemble qualities about the caretakers we had during childhood.” For example, a man might recognize a feeling of being at ease and nurtured the way his mother made him feel. A woman might feel comfortable with the dry humor of her date, similar to the way her father interacted with her. “This intense familiarity triggers the release of dopamine, which can lead to that ‘Wow’ feeling,” explains Dr. Hendrix. Oh, and by this point, it’s also definitely OK to want to jump over the table and rip your date’s clothes off! CHECK!!!

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4 out of 7... Hmm... not bad... HAHAHA!!!