Jet's 4th Tattoo

"DiDoMa"

DI - vina / DO - lores / MA - gdalena

This Hannya mask represents the women in his life. Mga selosa daw kasi kami. Loko! Pero like the water around the tattoo, we are his life. Sweet! :p

Hannya Mask Tattoo - The hannya mask is just one example of the many different types of masks used by the traditional Japanese actors of Noh theater. Noh performances are very stylized representations of traditional and well known stories, developed in Japan during the 14th century. The masks are used to convey the identity and mood of the various characters, who number nearly eighty in the different tales. The hannya mask is specifically used to represent a vengeful and jealous woman. Her anger and envy have so consumed her that she has turned into a demon, but with some important traces of humanity left. The pointed horns, gleaming eyes, fang-like teeth, combined with a look of pure resentment and hate are tempered by the expression of suffering around the eyes and the artfully disarrayed strands of hair, which indicate passionate emotion thrown into disorder. The deeper and more extreme the coloring of the face, the deeper and more violent run the emotions of the character. Tattooing takes full advantage of these fanciful and engaging images, often using them in larger pieces of Japanese work or sometimes juxtaposing masks of good and evil characters. Often a Noh mask will also appear in isolation, as a work of art unto itself, not unlike the actual masks which are highly prized and very collectible.

PostSecret

I saw this in Fully Booked, Gateway and remembered the site (with the same name) I saw in the internet sometime ago. I decided to buy it and read it in one sitting... Hehehe! It's very interesting. Some stuff was naughty and some were shocking and disgusting. Nevertheless, it was a fascinating read.

PostSecret started with the idea (as a community project) of Frank Warren who began handing out Postcards to strangers and asking them to write down their secret and to mail it to him anonymously. The response according to him was overwhelming. Then he decided to post them on his website. Ever since then, postcards kept coming from all over the world. Soon enough PostSecret “took on a life of its own” and the rest, as we say, is history...

Visit the site and be hooked. :p

3 years...

Last night, Jet and I celebrated our anniversary with a nice dinner at Manong’s in Alabang. Although it’s been three days since the exact date, Sunday was our (his) only available day because of work (during his transition period). Nonetheless, things went well.

He brought me to this nice resto in Alabang. Sabi nga nya amidst the high buildings meron palang ganung resto within the area. Nice daw and I’ll like the food. Pinagyayabang nya talaga. He was right. I liked the ambiance, place and very inexpensive foods. Wala masyadong tao and traffic. Tahimik. We had an early dinner. Konting reminiscing of our three years together at isang blooper… Kasi I ordered Shrimp Tempura, si Jet being so makulit, maski he knows allergic sya sa shrimp, ayun, pasaway… Kumain parin! After a few seconds namamaga na ang ear nya.. Hahaha!!! Buti nalang I’m always ready with my medicines. Ever since he had an episode when we went to Puerto Galera, I always see to it that I have them in my bag incase he’ll need it. A few minutes later he was okay.

After our dinner we went to ATC… Lakad lakad lang… He was asking me if I like to have our night cap… Sabi ko sobrang busog pa ako. Around 8pm we went home nalang. I would rather spend time with him at home. Just the two of us…

We spent the rest of the evening watching stuff from Youtube (and doing other stuff…Hhmmm…) We had a blast watching Shaider, New Kids On The Block, Menudo and all those things that reminded us of our childhood. Hehehe!

By 2am I was convincing him to sleep over… But because of a clip we saw from Hurricane Katrina Animal Rescue, he suddenly felt an urge to see his pet. I understood him. Maski ako eh… I wanted to cry and embrace all my babies. So sabi ko “sige you go home nalang, we’ll see each other naman on Thursday before I leave for Baguio”…

That’s how we celebrated our anniversary. Nothing extra ordinary really, even so, I love spending the whole day with him maski wala kaming ginagawa at nakatunganga lang dito sa house…

I'm A Snake!

Born under the year of the Snake...

Ancient Chinese wisdom says a Snake in the house is a good omen because it means your family will not starve. This could be taken metaphorically to mean that a Snake could never have a problem with his family starving because he is such a great mediator, making him good at business. Or it could mean that a Snake would be willing to sacrifice his possessions, something the Snake has a lot of, in order to pay for his family’s food. Any way it is interpreted is representative of the Snake’s character and is a measure of the value he puts on his material wealth. The Snake is keen and cunning, quite intelligent and wise.

THE SIGN OF THE SNAKE:

The Snake is the intuitive, introspective, refined and collected of the Animal Signs. They are attractive people who take cries with ease and do not become flustered easily. They are graceful people, exciting and dark at the same time. Contemplative and private, the Snake is not outwardly emotional. He can appear cunning and reticent and works very modestly in the business environment. The Snake will plot and scheme to make certain things turn out exactly as they want them to. They are not great communicators and can become quite possessive when they set their minds on achieving the interest of a partner.

IN YOUR ELEMENT:

THE FIRE SNAKE 1917 AND 1977

Fire Snakes can be a bit loud, speaking their minds and smothering you with their opinions. This does add a twist to his dynamic and vibrant character, as he is quite the extrovert. These Snakes have a great wisdom. They are intriguing communicators who leave you breathless after a conversation. Fire Snakes can change even the most obstinate mind with their powers of persuasion, convincing you their opinions or ideas are better than yours. This does make them a little self-centered, but you can’t say they aren’t driven for success.

THE SNAKE LOVER:

Snakes are beautiful people who exhibit quite a sexual appeal. They are sleek and seductive and if they want you, will out a spell on you that won’t let you stop thinking about them. However, Snakes are quite prejudiced when choosing a partner and don’t just choose based on physical qualities. The Snake needs a partner who can appreciate his quirky sense of humor and his wacky way of handling situations, so generally, although quite beautiful and tempting to approach, the Snake does all the pursuing.

MARRIAGE:

Because the Snake is so choosy, he can become jealous and obsessive about his partner. They can be a bit stand-offish with their mates, choosing to push away emotions rather than confront their feelings and insecurities. Once betrayed, you can bank on not ever being trusted by the Snake again as much as you can bet he will get even. (kaya takot si Jet eh! hehehe!)

THE SNAKE LOVE PARTNER:

Not everyone can live and be happy with a Snake. It takes a patient soul, someone ready for the long haul, who can calm his nerves and deal with his obsessions with skill. Chinese horoscopes are very specific about which partnerships have the potential to be successful in love and in business. Yet, though destiny can point us in the right direction, we must still make all efforts to maintain loving relationships. Following is a brief description of how a Snake will affect a relationship with other Animal Signs.

PARTNERS IN LOVE:

Snake*Rat = You stand to learn a lot from each other.

Snake*Ox = You have a stable, loving relationship.

Snake*Tiger = Various differences will lead you apart down the road.

Snake*Rabbit = Intense and sensual, you have a lot to look forward to.

Snake*Dragon = You fit well together…you share flirtatious natures and zesty outlooks.

Snake*Snake = You are both intelligent, but too envious for a partnership.

Snake* Horse = Outlook is doubtful…there is to much to fight about.

Snake*Sheep = You two make great friends and even better lovers.

Snake*Monkey = You can’t really trust each other, can you?

Snake*Rooster = Dynamic duo!

Snake*Dog = Love at first sight. Go for it!

Snake*Pig = Not enough in common to pursue. (not!)

LOVE PARTNERS AT A GLANCE:

Snakes with Tips on Togetherness Compatibility

Rat mutually fascinated with each other ***

Ox wonderful connection ****

Tiger doubtful outlook *

Rabbit great sexual attraction ***

Dragon pretty similar paths ***

Snake must stay independent of each other **

Horse remember to communicate **

Sheep quite blissful ****

Monkey have to cooperate with each other **

Rooster stable and caring ****

Dog good combination of mental and physical ***

Pig too divided * (not!)

*dispute **keep working at it ***intense sexual attraction ****angelic

EAST MEETS WEST:

SCORPIO SNAKE

These individuals have hidden emotions and feelings that rarely ever surface. They are quite guarded with their thoughts and opinions and do not upset easily.

Celebration

Today is my Anniversary with Jet.

Wow! Another year for us! I can’t believe that we’re still going strong and many things have changed since the first day we met at Shangri-La Mall for coffee three years ago. Who would have thought we’ll last this long…

My close friends tell me that they haven’t seen me this happy.

Yes, I am happy.

Contented.

Happy.

This is not “just” a relationship but THE relationship for me. I couldn’t ask for more.

Thank you Jeriel Tristan Cabico Pasion. Thank you for all the love. Thank you for the most wonderful three years of my life.

Love you.

My Boyfriend Is A Pig!

Born under the Year of the Pig that is... :p

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The Pig is a fun and enlightening personality blessed with patience and understanding. People born under the sign of the Pig enjoy life and all it has to offer, including family and friends. They are honest and thoughtful and expect the same of other people. Pigs can be perceived as oblivious or gullible because they do care about others so much that they will do just about anything for a friend in need.

THE SIGN OF THE PIG:

"Its better to give than to receive" would probably be the Pig’s motto. Pigs are more comfortable giving of their own time or attention than they are to ask others for it. They do not find asking for help an easy task and would rather carry the burden themselves. Pigs will do anything they can to maintain a sense of peace amongst family or friends. This can lead to a tendency to be taken advantage of, but Pigs basically forgive and forget everything. They are compassionate souls who simply want to keep the peace.

IN YOUR ELEMENT:

THE WATER PIG 1923 AND 1983

Water Pigs go with the flow and usually trust people before they truly know them. This, of course, can get them into trouble because they are often to trusting for their own good. Water Pigs are quite easily influenced; yet, can be very persuasive when it comes to getting what they want. These people love parties and social situations and enjoy giving of themselves to help others.

THE PIG LOVER:

Pigs are great partners to have because they are so supportive and giving of themselves. They are happiest at home, so arguments about late nights out with friends are few and far between for the Pig and his mate. Pigs are sexual creatures who love to be affectionate. (TRUE!)

MARRIAGE:

Pigs are wonderful companions, appreciative and caring. They are grateful for the things they have, especially a loving and healthy family. Once they choose a partner, they are in it for the long haul. Pigs do not like discord and will do whatever it takes to maintain a peaceful homestead. (awwww!)

THE PIG IN LOVE:

Pigs make good partners and most people would consider themselves lucky to be involved with one. Still, some people are not suited for a Pig’s easygoing nature. (i'm really lucky!)

PARTNERS IN LOVE:

Pig & Rat = You’ll have a tendency to spend a lot of money, but you’ll have a lot of fun doing it!

Pig & Ox = You are two sexually charged individuals…work on a mental relationship as well.

Pig & Tiger = You share trust and friendship.

Pig & Rabbit = Affectionate and caring, you’re headed for a wonderful companionship.

Pig & Dragon = A loving and warm relationship.

Pig & Snake = Not enough in common to commit to a stable union. (duh! i'm a Snake, but we DO have LOTS of things in common... that's why we lasted this long)

Pig & Horse = Easygoing but maybe too much so for your own good.

Pig & Sheep = Trust and honesty make this a winning combination.

Pig & Monkey = Sexual tension is heightened by a constant need to disagree.

Pig & Rooster = Even though you disagree on a few things, if you try to make it work it will be great.

Pig & Dog = Stable and supportive, but not much passion or fire.

Pig & Pig = You are off to a good start, but eventually it fades.

LOVE PARTNERS AT A GLANCE:

Pig with Tips on Togetherness Compatibility

Rat happiness prevails ***

Ox be persistent **

Tiger humorous ***

Rabbit very enjoyable ****

Dragon quite stable! ***

Snake differing opinions * (we do have different opinions about a lot of things which leads to long conversations when we're together. no dull moment so far. but we seldom fight about it. we respect each other's thoughts and feelings towards certain issues. it's more exciting and fun that way)

Horse unrealistic **

Sheep heavenly! ****

Monkey vivid and vivacious ***

Rooster infinitely successful ***

Dog genuine and true ***

Pig a bit unnerving **

*dispute **keep working at it ***intense sexual attraction ****angelic

EAST MEETS WEST:

ARIES PIG

Full of energy and vive, these are affectionate lovers. They hunger for responsibility both mentally and physically. (very true...)

Surprise! Surprise! Surprise!

What a day! I never saw it coming... :p

I woke up a little bit late. Had my brunch and was planning to just go online for the rest of the day (after being down for four days! Fucking ISP!) When Jet called and asked if I was busy. I told him not so… then he said if I don’t mind meeting him for coffee at Megamall. Huwat! Its 12:30 and I haven’t showered yet and this guy wants me to be in Megamall within an hour. Hhhm… I could smell something fishy here. He’s crazy or he’s up to something really big. Nevertheless, I’ve been missing the guy for days now and I couldn’t wait till tomorrow to see him. So I said yes. And would you believe, within an hour I was in Megamall… Express shower, express bihis, express taxi driver. Hahaha!!!

Coffee he said, but when I got there he was inside Hap Chan (a Chinese restaurant) beside Starbucks. He said it was too noisy to talk in Starbucks, too many people. Ok. I scanned the table and saw an Air21 plastic envelope containing six original CD’s he bought from an eBay guy he met earlier. Six CD’s for eight hundred bucks. No scratch, very much new. Hhmm… okay he just wants coffee after all AND to see me. But why is there a sudden “twinkle” in his eyes. He seems agitated. I could feel something is about to happen yet clueless of what it is. Then all of a sudden he gave me this calling card size paper containing a message I hardly understood, because when he put the damn thing in front of me, I froze and my heart beat stopped for a few seconds and I was thinking.. OH MY GAWD! WHAT IS THIS!!!??? He was grinning and was getting something out of his pocket… Still mesmerized and shocked by the piece of paper, he put this little black velvet box in front of me. OH MY! OH MY! Is all I could think. He was turning red. REALLY RED. He was squirming. He was stammering something that I couldn’t understand. I was paralyzed. Then I started to laugh silly. Laugh in a way that, I felt so “kilig” and I couldn’t believe Jet was trying all his best to be romantic about it but was failing really bad, but he was soooo damn cute. I wanted to hug him there and kiss him all over. Then we were both giggling like highschool kids. It took me a few minutes before I opened the box and saw the ring…

A ring that means a lot to him...

A ring that symbolizes a lot of things in our relationship...

A ring that binds me to him, until that day…

A ring...

(sorry for the awful camera shot... hehehe)

Haayy…. I can’t explain the feeling. I’m like and still am floating. It’s like you want to preserve that moment and replay it over and over and over again. Everything was priceless.

So what if he proposed to me inside a Chinese restaurant... So what if there are no roses… No sweet music… So what if he didn’t go down on one knee… So what if he stammered saying the words… Still it was the most romantic thing that ever happened to me and the most wonderful feeling I ever felt…

God… He was happy. You could see it. He is happy.

After that… We went straight to one of our favorite resto to celebrate. An event like that deserves one good meal…

We said goodbye by 3:30 He still has work tonight at 9 till 6 the next day. From work he’ll be going straight here and I’ll be cooking lunch. Can’t wait to hug and kiss him…

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Thank you. Thank you for all the love. Thank you for coming into my life and staying. Thank you for believing in us, for making this relationship work, for being strong, for being who you are. Thank you for being my best friend, for being there when I needed someone. Thank you.

Looking forward for more years together…

Books

I’ve decided to read again.

A few days ago I bought a couple of books by Paulo Coelho, The Devil & Miss Prym and Warrior of the Light at Sketch Books Greenbelt 3. I was thinking of ways to kill my idle time, mostly at night. Then going back to my first passion came into mind. Reading. It is also a great way of not missing Jet, who is already working from Tuesday to Saturday, 3pm to 11pm… And I wanted to rekindle my relationship with Paulo Coelho. The last book I read written by him was Eleven Minutes and that was ages ago…

I’ve already started Warrior of the Light…

Last night, while lounging at Fez with Jet (at Serendra) I remember there is “A Different Bookstore” located at the same vicinity. So I told him I’ll just check the place while he waits for our orders. There, I bought another couple of books, one by Paulo - The Zahir and the other a paperback copy of The Eldest (I’ve been waiting for it) by Christopher Paolini.

Hay… I hope I’ll be able to read all of them. To think that I still have two books by Coelho that I haven’t touch yet, The Pilgrimage and The Fifth Mountain and one that I’ve started to read months ago but wasn’t able to finish, The Valkyries. They’re all gathering dust on my table… Hehehe!!! So guilty!

But I’m making a resolution (for the Chinese New Year)… I’m going to read all of them within the year.

Good luck to me… But then… If Harry Potter Book 7 comes out… Well… I will make an exemption…. Hope that it’ll have a GOOD ending though…

Happy reading!

Vanity

with Ate Marly my ever loyal nail technician

A day in Tips 'N Toes (Megamall) with Jetong. Nahawa narin sa akin. Hehehe!!! Minsan ayoko lang isama si Jetong doon dahil gumugulo ang Salon. Ang kulit kulit kasi. Pasaway! Pero gustong gusto namang magpalinis ng kuko lalo na ang masahe ni Ate Marly. :p (1.28.07)

Enero 2007

Isang buwan na pala...

Ang tagal na...

Ano bang nangyari sa akin...

Madami rin...

Pagbabago...

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Bago matapos ang taong 2006, nagkasakit si Lisa. Hindi ko akalaing mag-iisa sya sa pagsalubong sa taong 2007. Kailangan ko kasing iwan sya sa doktor nya nung december 31 ng umaga. Bigla nalang nanamlay at hindi kumakain. Natakot ako. Sabi ni Doc Romy, iwan ko daw at oobserbahan nya. Ayun, kahit masakit sa aking loob dahil unang beses sana kaming magkakasama sa bagong taon, naiwan sya. Sa gitna ng putukan, alak at bbq, iniisip ko kung natatakot ba sya sa mga putok o maigi na ba sya. Hay, ganun talaga.

Kinabukasan, hindi ako nakatiis at kinuha ko na sya. Akalang talaga magaling na. Yun pala hindi parin. Nararamdaman kong may masakit parin sa kanya. Dinala ko sya ulit sa isa pa nyang doktor kay Doc Martinez at doon nakita namin na may sugat pala sya na hindi gumagaling. Buti nalang at naagapan naman. Ngayon, balik na sya sa dating makulit at pasaway na ugali nya.

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Enero, nagsimula narin kaming magkita-kita ng barkada hindi dahil may okasyon, dahil gusto lang namin magkita-kita. Mag-usap tungkol sa aming buhay-buhay. Halos tuwing sabado ay magkasama kami ni Mariel. Maganda. Dahil isang pagkakataong magkaroon ulit ng isang "bonding" na matagal-tagal narin naming hindi nagagawa dahil sa abala na sa trabaho at sari-sariling buhay. Bakit nga naman hindi, ngayong lima nalang kaming natitira dito sa Pinas eh, hindi pa ba kami magkikita-kita. Nakakamiss din naman ang barkada. Di tulad nung highschool. Halos araw-araw magkakasama... Ngayon maswerte na kung makumpleto kaming siyam (ang ika sampu namin ay hindi na namin nakita simula nung kolehiyo). Lalo na ngayong ang isa ay nasa Australia, ang iba'y nasa Singapore, Malaysia at ang isa nama'y matagal nang nasa Amerika. Nakakalungkot... Nakakamiss...

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Enero rin ng magsimula sya sa kanya trabaho. Isang malaking adjustment sa aming dalawa. Lalo na sa akin.

Nung nalaman ko na nag-aapply sya sa call center, okay lang. Lahat ng suporta na gusto nya ibinigay ko sa kanya. Naiintindihan ko ng kaunti ang buhay call center. Dahil halos lahat ng barkada ko yun ang trabaho. Pero iba parin pala kung karelasyon mo na ang biglang nasabak sa ganung industriya. Malaking "adjustment" talaga.

Masaya ako para sa kanya. Masaya. Pero hindi ko magawang tumawa o ipakita sa kanya na masaya ako. Tinanong nya nga ako kung bakit mukhang hindi ako masaya dahil iba ang boses ko sa telepono. Hindi ko sya masagot. Masaya ako sa totoo lang pero hindi ko mawari kung bakit hindi ako matawa o makaramdam na parang gusto kong lumundag o gumulong-gulo sa tuwa. Isang malaking "achievement" para sa kanya yun, kung mahal ko sya at hanggad ko rin ang mabuti para sa kanya (pagkatapos lahat ng paghihirap at mali ng nakaraan) dapat tumambling ako sa tuwa ngayon. Pero hindi. Isa akong malamig na yelo na kausap nya sa telepono. Pero masaya ako para sa kanya.

Kagabi. Dahil sa isang mababaw na pangyayari ay nalaman ko ang kasagutan kung bakit hindi ako tumatambling.

Nung nakaraang biyernes ay nagsimula na sya sa training nya sa Alabang. Kasama parin ang mga kaibigan simula't sapul syang nag sanay sa Future Perfect palang. Sabihin na nating may nabuong barkadahan. At syempre sa isang barkadahan, pag nagkakatuwaan hindi mo maiaalis na maginuman para ipagdiwang ang ilang bagay. Noong una, nung nakapasa silang lahat sa CCT nila sa Makati (isang dalawang linggong pagsasanay). Tumawag sya, pauwi palang, galing Las Pinas, at ayun! Lasing na lasing. Nakuha pang magmaneho at maghatid ng mga kaibigan. Nag alala lang ako dahil hindi naman ganun yun. Bulol na eh. Nainis ako. Tapos nasundan pa. Unang gabi ng sahod nila. Uminom ulit. Okay fine. Ipagdiwang ang unang gabi ng sahod. Naintindihan ko. Masaya sya. At ang sabi ay hindi naman daw gabi-gabi yun at hindi na mauulit. Aba! Kagabi lang... Naginuman nanaman. Teka lang, ang sabi hindi gabi-gabi. Pero ayan nakainom nanaman. Ang gulo rin kausap. Nainis ako. Umiyak ako sa inis. Pero hindi ko sya inaway o hindi ako nagtext ng kung ano-ano.

Nanahimik ako at dun ko naisip kung bakit ba ako hindi natutuwa sa lahat ng pangyayari. Dahil natatakot akong mawala sya. Natatakot akong mapunta sa puntong sasabihin kong "I've lost him." Na tuluyang nagbago sya dala ng trabaho. Hindi naman sa wala akong tiwala sa kanya. Natatakot ako sa mga impluwensya ng mga tao sa paligid nya at dagdagan pa ng "pressure" sa trabaho. Hindi sa wala akong tiwala eh... Natatakot ako sa mga bagay na pwedeng mangyari sa kanya at sa aming dalawa... O sadyang mapaglaro lamang ang aking isipan. Hindi ko alam. Isa na siguro yung nalulungkot ako dahil masaya sya pero hindi nya ako kasama. Kailangan ko pang maghintay ng Linggo bago ko sya makita. O ayaw ko lang maulit ang nakaraan... Ewan. Ang gulo ko.

Sana tumambling nalang ako.

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Noong kaarawan ni Mariel (January 20), nagkita-kita kami sa Makati. Nag meryenda kami nila Tet at Mariel sa Bizu. Masarap. Nakakatuwa. Maganda. Nagustuhan ko ang Afternoon Tea. Sumunod naman si Jet mula sa CCT nya at dumaan saglit (kelangan nyang umalis din at dadaan ba sa Bangkal, sa lola at lolo nya). Kwentuhan. Maagang umalis si Tet dahil may trabaho pa kinabukasan. Kami ni Mariel nagpunta sa Salcedo Park at nagkwentuhan ulit. Hanggang sa mag 7:30 pm na yata iyon o 8pm at kami'y muling bumalik sa Greenbelt 3 para kitain sila Jai at Jordan (ang kanyang boyfriend) para naman sa dinner. Kaso dahil sa madami kaming nakain sa Bizu, dessert nalang daw sa Max Brenner. Nakauwi na ako ng 12 ng gabi. Ewan ko ba kung anong naisip ko at ako'y omorder ng dark chocolate shake at chocolate souffle. Pag uwi ko sa bahay, feeling ko mamamatay na ako. Tumaas ata presyon ko at madaling araw na ay dilat na dilat parin ang mata ko. Okay! High sa chocolate. Hindi ko na uulitin yun. Promise.

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Kahapon naman ay nagkita kami ulit ni Mariel para mag meryenda sa Bizu at kunin ko ang aking pinabiling tsinelas. Salamat mare!

Noon ayaw na ayaw kong pumunta sa Makati. Dahil mahirap sumakay ng taxi, trapik at pakiramdam ko ay malayo. Pero ngayon, unti-unti na akong nasasanay. Hhhmm... hindi kaya'y ito ay isang senyales???

Nang ano naman? Ewan!

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Sa lahat ng buwan sa loob ng isang taon, Enero ang pinaka nakakadepress at nakakastress para sa akin. Tested na yan maski noong nakaraang taon. Siguro dahil nagsisimula palang ang taon. May hang-over ka pa nung nakaraang taon at nastrestress ka kung anong mangyayari sa bagong taon. Para masarap dahil malamig ngayon ang panahon... Hehehe!

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Enero 26, Umuwi si Kuya Peter (asawa ni Ate Cindy), naiyak ako nung nakita ko sya. Niyakap ko. Dahil namimiss ko Ate ko at mga pamankin ko. Kasi parang sya ang koneksyon ko sa kanya. Wala lang. Kung nandito lang si Ate... maraming hindi sana nangyari. Sana... Kaso nangyari na. Wala nang balikan pa.

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Enero rin naglabasan ang mga Slim version ng Havaianas... Balik naman sa kaadikan. Butas nanaman ang bulsa. Taghirap nanaman... tsk tsk tsk! Hehehe!

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Hay.. Pebrero na... Sana magbago na ang ikot ng mundo. Sana bigyan pa ako ng katinuan. Sana hindi mabaliw si Jet sa akin. Sana malamig parin ang panahon para masarap matulog...

WTF!!!

I've soooo neglected this blog...

I'm soooo sorry blog...

Too many events....

So little time...

Such a shitty internet....

HaPpY NeW YeAr!!!

Christmas Dinner with P10

P10 celebrated Christmas last night at Hazel’s place. Hazel and Flo came home for the holidays.

Menu:
Bbq and Isaw – by me
Cake – Tet
Fruit Salad – Flo
KFC Bucket – Mariel
Pasta, Chips ‘N Dips, Rice, Drinks – Hazel

(some friends of Hazel brought Sisig and Palabok)

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Jet and I picked-up Mariel, Tet and Flo from Katipunan with our official “School Bus”. Then off we go to Hazel’s place which became our home during special occasions.

Jai wasn’t able to come because of work and Ariesyl is already in Australia. So there were only six of us left (Kim came after an hour or so with Rency). Too bad that Mojo, Mariel’s boyfriend was still asleep because he has work at 4am, he’ll just fetch her after the dinner.

Anyways, all in all the party/dinner was okay. We had fun laughing at Rency’s antics, taking pictures and talking about our work, life and family. I can’t believe that until now I am celebrating with these wonderful people. I hope it is a tradition that would continue until we aged.

After dinner, Mariel, Kim, Rency, Jet and I went to Starbucks Katipunan to wait for Mojo. We talked some more about Kim’s baby shower and our dogs. At 1am we called it a night.

Pictures! Pictures! Pictures!

Basketball Fanatics!

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Beautiful Lisa

Updates! Updates! Updates!

It’s been a long time since I’ve updated my blog. Tinamaan nanaman ako ng katamara… Hehehe!

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December 21

Our last day in the office, we prepared lunch for our workers. Kahit papaano eh makapag pasalamat sa taon na dumaan. It was not exactly a Christmas party dahil wala namang activities. Konting salo-salo lang. Nakakapagod dahil nagbigay narin ako ng mga 13th month nila and sweldo. Then we gave goodie bags sa mga children nila sa Tumana. Nakakastress. All that na witness ni Jet how toxic it was. I was in the verge of crying but even that, I was too tired to even do. Super stress na stress talaga.

After all the hassle, inaya nalang ako ni Jet na magcoffee and yosi sa Coffee Bean. On our way to Cubao bigla namang nagbago plano at napasama ako sa kanya sa Alabang to have dinner with his father together with Fritz, Tin (Fritz’ girlfriend) and Fatima. Unfortunately, Shang (the bunso) was not able to join us. Okay naman. Had dinner at Old Spaghetti House. Nakakatense dahil it was my second time to meet his father. Medyo nakakaintimidate kasi. Hehehe! Kwentuhan with Tin about Havaianas. Tapos ang aliw dun yung about sa Borat movie.. Tawa kami ng tawa. Si Fatima di nga lang maka-relate sa amin dahil di pa nya napapanood, dapat mapanood na nya. Nakakalokah! Tapos si Jetong mukhang tanga dun sa Pasta Negra nya. Bagay ang kulay sa kanya lalo na nung kinain na nya at nagkulay itim lalo ang maitim na nyang labi. Hahaha! It was a good laugh! After dinner Tito Ramon bought us cakes. Yummy!

Then nung nagkahiwalay-hiwalay na, nagcoffee nalang kami ni Jet sa Alabang Town Center at Seattle’s Best. Tapos nagtext si Rizal (friend ni Jet) at nagaayang mag-inuman daw. Eh di ako naman gustong-gusto eh si Jet being a SUPER KILL JOY eh ayaw pa nung una eh sabi ko ang aga-aga pa para umuwi at matrapik. Pumayag din ang mokong! Go kami sa house ni Rizal at bumili nga sya ng isang case ng beer. Mega kwentuhan . Umabot kami ng 2am ata dun… Masaya kasi minsan lang naman ako makipagbonding sa mga kabarkada ni Jet. 3:30am na ako nakauwi!

Nakakapagod itong araw na ito pero all was worth it. Simula na ang bakasyon! Yepey!

December 22

Last Tuesday nag apply ako for Globelines Broadband (dahil sa kuya kong nag encouraged sa akin, si Kuya Tony!), ang sabi by Friday daw may pupuntang magkakabit ng line. But kahapon may nagpunta na at kinabitan nako ng line sabi nalang wait ko nalang daw yung technician nilang magconfigure sa laptop ko. Then today, dumating sya at inaayos na. Yahoo!!! Goodbye to dial-up and 10 years of waiting for one site to load! Yahoo!!!!! Hehehe! Hello fast connection. Hello unlimited usage! Because I am unlimited, kinulit ako ni Jet na i-download ang Gunbound. It’s been almost a year since I last played that game… So ayun! Hello addiction! Hello sleepless nights! Hello eyebugs! :p

Great way to start my vacation!

December 24

Jet came over as early as 8am ata yun. Naghihilik pa ako. We were betting kung maaga nga syang makakapunta. Ang loko, maaga ngang nagpunta – nagising sya ng maaga huh! Hindi kasi kami makakapagspend ng Christmas together kasi may family reunion sila and ako naman – wala naman talaga dito lang sa house.

So ayun… ginising ako with his gift at yung adorable gift ni Fatima. Baliw talaga yun! Pero aliw na aliw ako ha! Hehehe! Si Jetong naman nagulat dahil hindi nya alam kung ano yung gift ni Fatima kaya when I opened it, sya ang nagulat at lumaki ang mata. Hehehe!!!

Guess what it is? Hihihi!

We just spent the day together, he went home around 4pm. Si Nanay naman umalis at nagpunta sa Alabang to celebrate with her brother and a few relatives. Di na ako sumama dahil…. Hehehe! Wag nalang!

I spent the night playing Gunbound then dumating sila around 10pm… Konting pahinga tapos 11:45 bumaba ako to celebrate with our angels. Ako, Ate Lita, Lorrie, Manang, Jenelyn, Mercy at si Nanay din nagising at nakisalo sa amin. Kami lang sumalubong sa pasko. Masaya narin… We had, chicken macaroni salad, fried chicken, fried fish lumpia, and cake. Ayos!

December 25

Stayed at home. Stayed in bed the whole day. Trabaho ng tamad! Hehehe! Ate Jean called from Colorado. It was nice hearing from her. I miss her.

December 27/28

Due to the Taiwan earthquake – Ayun! Akala ko may virus na ang laptop! Yun pala dahil sa telephone cable na nasira sa earthquake kaya affected ang internet ko… Hay! Galing ni Mother Nature… Na realize ko how much I am so dependent sa technology. Some people I know also suffered from that event. Maski pagtanggap ng text message nila affected. Bad trip! Parang kakastart ko palang mafeel ang broadband eh eto na ang kamalasan… Hay! Sana Maayos na….

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The year is almost over… Ano bang nangyari sa 2006 ko… Hhmm…

HaPpY HoLiDaYs!!!

pEaCe.LoVe.HaPpInEsS

A Slipper, A Guava Dinner and A Box of Heaven

Went to Glorietta, Jet got his first pair of Havaianas... He was hesitant because according to him, his feet are ugly... He's right! Bwahahaha! Nevertheless, I told him to keep it para kahit isa meron sya - he shares my addiction in a way! Hehehe!

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For dinner we went to Serendra - again! Can't get enough of that place... This is another food post. Whaaa!!! Puro food nalang! Hehehe!!!

This time we tried Guava. A Filipino inspired resto...

Kesong Puti Quiche - YUMMY!

Inihaw na Pig's Ear - very SINFUL!

Monggonisa

The picture is not that enticing but it was a good Monggo top with Longganisa. Kakaiba sya ha!

Spiced Itik

The Itik's meat was a little tough to chew. It was not that spicy. But it was ok... I guess.. Hehehe! With my previous experience with "Itik" meat, for it to be soft and chewable, you have to serve it hot, straight out of the fire. But this one was served a little cold. :(

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On the way to the car, we passed by Cupcakes by Sonja and saw they have lot's of variants to choose from. 8 new flavors for me to try and share! I just had to buy SOME! Hehehe!!!

Top Row: Lemon Drop, Bunny Huggers, Red Velvet Vixen (my favorite!!!), Hazelnut Tart. Middle Row: Choco Cream Pie, Vanilla Sunshine , Chocolate Surprise, Peppermint Patty. Bottom Row: Valhrona Flourless, Strawberries & Cream, Mocha Motion.

(Feel free to correct me if I mistakenly labeled the cupcakes.)

Tale of two mall rats...

2 Malls 1 Piazza in one day…

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We were supposed to fix Jet’s papers today. But he overslept and I had to go to the bank by 12noon. So hindi natuloy ang plano namin today. I was pissed and hungry by the time I got to the bank and si Jet – wala pa! Hay! Jenelyn (my ever trusty assistant) went with me. Sabi ko nalang kila Tita Ampy and Ate Lita pasunudin nalang si Jet sa bank and to bring the van. Buti nalang sobrang bilis ang transaction ko. We were there for only 20 minutes. Plus the 20 minutes Jenelyn and I spent sa Jollibee… I was really hungry and I needed to eat or else bad trip talaga ako pag nagkita kami ni Jet.

Anyways, Tita Ampy and Ate Lita had a good time bullying him about me being VERY angry. Si Jet naman parang sira… takot na takot naman kaya tuloy tuwang-tuwa silang lalong lokohin sya. Nag tag team daw sila sa office against him… Hehehe!!!

Para lumamig ulo ko may pasalubong na bibingka sya… Although meron lang akong isang bibingkang gusto sa buong Quezon City. But what he gave was not that bad though… Sila Ate Lita at Lorrie ang umubos… Hehehe!!! Be! Hindi mo ako masusuhulan! May kasalanan ka parin! Hmp! To make up for his being overly late, he said he is at my disposal… Anywhere I wanted to go ipagdri-drive daw nya ako… Hehehe!!! Me with my mischievous smile!!! Hmmm!!! Saan kaya??!!!

We first went to Glorietta para pa exchange yung polo shirt ni Shang (bro ni Jet) while he was inside the store, somebody called me sa cellphone… Character Check for Jet! I was surprised! Kaya hindi ko alam ano gagawin. Hindi ko pa nga masyadong marinig kasi ang ingay sa Mall. But it went well… Glad it was over na… I hate receiving unidentified calls…

Then I went to All Flip Flops and found out that nothings new. We also fooled around; I was grabbing his ass while he kicked mine. Parang dalawang manyak at siraulo. Sabi nya yun daw ang love nyang nangyari sa aming dalawa for that day. Magkulitan! Hay! We went around, checked out Tower Records, few boutiques and a book shop until I told him na I’m so hungry and I want to eat rice! Hehehe! Because he is at my disposal I told him I want to eat at Serendra! So off we go! Imagine when we got there we were the only people who are wearing shorts and t-shirts! Hehehe!!! As the night wore on more and more people came who are still in their office attires. Nakakaaliw! We were laughing the whole time… Meron pa nga may bodyguard nakasama… Totyal talaga!!! We also went to see the All Flip Flops store and Crocs. Hay nako!!! May joke na nga si Jet eh… Hindi daw ba ako dadaan sa stall ko para bisitahin ang mga empleyado ko… Parang ako na ata daw ang may ari kasi nag ra-rounds daw ako. Hahaha!!! That’s not the end of it!

We had dinner at Polu Kai Grill, dahil we thought yun lang ang appropriate sa rugged naming itsura! Here are some of our pictures…

Love the Herbed Grilled Salmon. Melt in your mouth and the Garlic Pilaf is sooo delicious! Grabeee! I want more!

Grilled Tuna Skewers is a little tender for me. I didn’t like it that much but the dipping sauce is nice… I even used it for my Salmon.

Jet had only a Ceasar Salad with Chicken Strips. He liked it with its BIG croutons… Hehehe!

And nagpapak nalang sya ng Buttered Steam Vegetables. I also liked it. Cooked right and just a hint of butter, hindi over powering ang lasa nya.

Service is good and quick. Price is reasonable. Although malamok lang sa smoking area nila. Yun lang… We’ll be back for more I’m sure!

After dinner and konting ikot, Jet asked that we have our routine coffee and tea at Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf at Gateway… So punta parin… On the way to Cubao we were stuck sa traffic sa may Shaw when we heard sa NU 107 about an announcement regarding a scheduled gig at Purple Haze in Tomas Morato by Heart Burn Production, Sapantaha was mentioned. Eh yun ang name ng banda nila Jet. I was sleepy but when I heard “Sapantaha” nagising ako. And Jet was busy calling his band mates if they heard it too. Unfortunately he was the only one tuned in. They have to confirm pa if it was them. Nevertheless, Jet was ecstatic about it. Narinig daw nya ang band nila mentioned at NU 107!!!! Hahaha! I just hope wala silang kapangalan…

Anyway, before our tea and coffee punta muna sa Rustan’s to check if may new stock ang Havaianas… Wala… Now I’m beginning to feel na I’M SO ADDICTED na talaga… This is BAD! REALLY BAD. Somebody help me!!!

After two Japanese Cherries, two Swirl Cards, more kwentuhan at kulitan… Uwian na po…

They offered this to us maybe because they see us there like 2x or 3x a week... Hehehe!!! Mga adik sa kape at tsaa!

Serendra

Jet and I went to Serendra today. We checked out the biggest All Flip Flops store that we have visited so far. They still sell the Greetings Limited Edition (Xmas Havies). Good news to those who are still looking for these beauties. I liked the sales person who attended to us. He was very kind and helpful.

Crocs is located besides AFF. I went gaga! Hehehe!!! I’m really curious about them. I tried one in Gateway Rustan’s (the pink one) it fitted me well and felt so soft. The problem is I don’t like the color that was available. Green and shocking pink. So when I saw they carry many colors and sizes that I could choose from, I told myself “just one! ONLY ONE!”

We also bought a few cupcakes from Cupcakes by Sonja. Though they are too sweet for my taste still they are so yummy! I knew about them from Shopcrazy and learned that they are the same cupcakes that Carrie and the rest of the girls from my favorite TV show Sex and The City are sometimes seen devouring in one of their episodes. That’s the closest thing I could get with those wonderful ladies from New York! Hehehe!!!

Bunny Huggers

Grandma's Pecan Pie

Vanilla Sunshine - my FAVORITE!!! (to date)

Chocolate Surprise - Jet's favorite

Peanut Butter Filled

Lemon Drop

Krispy Kreme is also located not that far from AFF. We wanted to see the place and see if there is really a long line as what I kept on hearing and reading about but it started to rain so we had to go back… I’m not that much of a donut lover naman.

Serendra is nice, so nice because they have very courteous staff. From the guards, elevator man and restroom personnel. They greet you and would often smile at you. Never been treated that way before in malls. But, a very expensive place to hang around. Most of the restaurants and stores are not that familiar to me or maybe because I don’t go to Makati that much on gimik nights. But I liked the place… for now. Not that crowded yet, give it like a few months and it’ll be jammed pack with yuppies and teenagers. Oh my…

Anyways… I guess Jet and I found another place to spend our lazy weekends before he starts work next month….

That’s another story.

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After Serendra we went to Bangkal, Makati to visit Jet's paternal grandparents.

They were busy preparing for the next day's big event - the christening of Jet's cousin. I won't be able to attend the christening due to prior commitment.

Honestly, I forgot the name of the baby! Whaaa!!! It's Miguel I think.... :(

Relationship

How do you end a day that started good???

You pick a fight.

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It’s been five days since Jet and I saw each other and because today is a holiday, break muna from training. He came over and I was surprised kasi ang aga nyang dumating – 12 noon to be exact. Bilis ata ng byahe…

We didn’t have anything planned - as usual. We hanged around the house till 2pm and then decided to go to Gateway (as always). Wala lang, ikot ikot lang. Had an early dinner at Teryaki Boy (as always). Bought December issues of our favorite magazines, CD’s and a few Havaianas to complete my collection for this year (I hope!), I’ve reached kasi my limit… 50 pairs!!! Hehehe! Had coffee at Coffee Bean, mega kwentuhan of how our week was and then we went home. Watched TV, tinker with Suzy, uploaded the CD’s to my iTunes, he read my blog, took crazy pictures and talked some more. All the while he was exchanging text messages with someone I didn’t care to know. Until nung hinatid ko na sya sa gate, may nagtext nanaman sa kanya and he showed it to me kasi bigla syang natawa. It was a goodnight message from someone named Jeric. It was a girly message for me. Kasi naman sino bang lalake ang magsesend ng ganung goodnight message sa kapwa lalake diba? Because I’m a natural-born-super-mega-selosa, ayun! Umandar ang monster inside me. I was thinking na pinalitan lang nya ang real name ng girl to a boy’s name para hindi halata kung magtetext yung girl. Eh diba yun naman ang uso para hindi mabuking.

I guess I was really taken by my emotions and a lot of things flash around me. Yung mga nangyari sa nakaraan ko. The betrayals… the lying… the “it’s not you, it’s me” kind of thing… I guess, again, I overreacted. I was being cold to his text messages at first, after a while I confronted him and told him how I felt. In turn he sent me the business card of that person na pinaghihinalaan ko and ordered me to text and call that person named Jeric and asked him whatever I wanted to know. So I did. It was a guy friend who didn’t have anything to do – in short nangungulit lang… He was sending all his friends the same message. It was a guy for god sake! Who has bored with his work.

Jet did give me the answers that I wanted to hear. And I knew he was honest with it, it was just me getting carried away - totally!

Why? Why did I made such a big fuss about it? What’s going on inside my head?

I just got scared.

I remember a conversation I had with a close friend of mine a week ago. She told me that Jet and I are in this certain level of our relationship, where in we understood each other without even saying anything. It suddenly hit me that yes she was right.

Jet and I have been going out for almost three years now - well, two years and ten months to be exact. And we have been thru a lot of things together. We’ve battled a lot of disappointments, adjustments, pain, truth, success, and so forth. For me everything is a first with him. We’ve done a lot of things that I haven’t done with my previous relationships. I’ve discovered a lot of things about me and he has shown me a lot of things that I never thought possible. And of course we are not perfect as individuals but we are perfect for each other. But we’re only humans and sometimes we make mistakes. But we forgive each other and we move on.

What is the connection of all of these to what happened tonight?

Over the days that passed, I was thinking about where we are in terms of our relationship. Yes, we are in this certain level that I could just sit back, put up my feet, relax and watch the world pass us by without anything to worry about.

I’m in my comfort zone for the first time in my whole life. I’ve finally felt what it is like to be comfortable, to be carefree, to trust someone with open arms, to be secure, to be so happy in love.

Above all these, paranoia sets in. It is too good to be true. May kapalit ito. Then! Tonight it happened…

I was so obsessed with thinking about how comfortable my relationship is, I was also obsessed that karma is lurking around and it could happen any minute. Maybe I was being taught a lesson here that’s why that “paghihinala” suddenly came from no where and almost ruined the day.

I told Jet about this. And as I’ve said previously, he gave me the right answers. He gave me the comfort that I needed. He told me the right words to calm me and he killed the monster that’s eating me up for the past few days.

He told me to trust him.

Something that I have trouble doing after a betrayal of any sort.

But when he said to me “wag kang magsori be…. Intindi ko ung sitwasyon mo… basta magtiwala ka lang… iloveyou.”

It ended it all.

I was back.

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There is nothing wrong in being happy and having someone love you the right way. If good things happen, it happens because it’s meant to be. You don’t question God. You don’t question love. You don’t ask why… how… when... It happens for a good reason, a reason you’ll learn and understand along the way.

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I don’t know why I let my weakness conquer me when I know that our love for each other should be enough to protect and make me believe that TRUE LOVE AND TRUE RELATIONSHIPS DO EXIST.

He is real...