LOVE YOU SO MUCH..
You are the reason of my smile everyday.
My strength to strive hard everyday.
You'll be my wife (soon) and my love forever.
All I want is to be with you all the time....
~~~~
Someone is being emo again. Hehehe!!! Love you too! Sleep na!
Monday, August 30, 2010
Banchetto, 8.28.2010
Last day of shift, we were supposed to have our breakfast at McDonalds as we usually do but then we decided to go to Banchetto for a change.
Before lunch actually we were planning to go to Banchetto already but then Armie and Jane asked us to join them at Tiende for our lunch, medyo sawa na sa pantry food. Hehehe!!! For just 75.00 you have a 1pc bbq, a cup of rice and a generous serving of sisig, medyo nabusog na kami and decided to cancel Banchetto na. But then, I said maki-usi lang tayo though he's been there before and it's my first time, I just want to see the food.
From a far, you could see the smoke na and smell the food. Sa amoy palang medyo na umay na ako. Hehehe! Daming food! I love the barbecue! The crowd's mostly from call centers and a few foreigners here and there and people dressed in their pajamas.
Still full from our lunch, we just tried a couple of sticks of isaw and tenga and shared a monster(?) burger. Na medyo he didn't like and honestly I didn't like too. Medyo bland ang taste and the bread was mostly hangin. I don't know why people are falling in line sa medyo over rated na burger. I miss Bite Club! I'll take him there one of these days. Love the mango melon juice though, taste just right.
While waiting for our burger that took like 30mins to cook, saw mharz, cat and mildred who didn't stop teasing us to death! Kalerky!!! Cat who couldn't stop taking our pictures. Pampam na sa floor hanggang sa labas pampam parin! Anoh bah! :p
Before sunrise we went home na. I still want to go back and try some pasta and mouth watering viands and cakes. Hay!
Before lunch actually we were planning to go to Banchetto already but then Armie and Jane asked us to join them at Tiende for our lunch, medyo sawa na sa pantry food. Hehehe!!! For just 75.00 you have a 1pc bbq, a cup of rice and a generous serving of sisig, medyo nabusog na kami and decided to cancel Banchetto na. But then, I said maki-usi lang tayo though he's been there before and it's my first time, I just want to see the food.
From a far, you could see the smoke na and smell the food. Sa amoy palang medyo na umay na ako. Hehehe! Daming food! I love the barbecue! The crowd's mostly from call centers and a few foreigners here and there and people dressed in their pajamas.
Still full from our lunch, we just tried a couple of sticks of isaw and tenga and shared a monster(?) burger. Na medyo he didn't like and honestly I didn't like too. Medyo bland ang taste and the bread was mostly hangin. I don't know why people are falling in line sa medyo over rated na burger. I miss Bite Club! I'll take him there one of these days. Love the mango melon juice though, taste just right.
While waiting for our burger that took like 30mins to cook, saw mharz, cat and mildred who didn't stop teasing us to death! Kalerky!!! Cat who couldn't stop taking our pictures. Pampam na sa floor hanggang sa labas pampam parin! Anoh bah! :p
Before sunrise we went home na. I still want to go back and try some pasta and mouth watering viands and cakes. Hay!
Monday, August 23, 2010
Hay...
Jovani and Benny
I can't believe the weekend is gone already. Another work week ahead though I didn't go to work today as I feel so tired and my whole body aches. I'm wondering why... hhmm... :p
After last Thursday shift, I stayed at his place and went to work together for Friday shift and I went home Saturday morning.
It was nice. It was not planned. Had to buy clothes at Tiendesitas and had to endure my co-workers jokes about my clothes not ironed out. Buti nalang I have extra undies! Hahaha!!!
Sunday, met with him in Cubao to buy his shoes and while having coffee at Starbucks, I called Benny to just say hi. At ayun nag-aya magtwo buckets daw. At kahit he's in Makati, sugod ang lola mo sa Cubao with his jowa. Saya naman... Ester came too as she's in Farmers lang daw. Ayun... biglaang inuman session. Masaya talaga pag di planned eh. Mga tipong biglaan lang.
Ordered two buckets of San Mig, Sisig Kilaw (everbody loved it), Sisig tuna, French Fries, Gerry's Fried Chicken and Mango Juice for Ester.
After Gerry's went to his place and I went home around 4am today.
So tired but happy. He went to work and I didn't. Hehehe!!!
love the new phone ester!
Sunday, August 22, 2010
For You....
Love is not blind - It sees more and not less,but because it sees more it is willing to see less.
Within you I lose myself. Without you I find myself wanting to be lost again.
At any rate, let us love for a while, for a year or so, you and me. That's a form of divine drunkenness that we can all try.
If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you've made me smile, the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand.
We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that doesn't diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives.
And you learn that love, true love, Always has joys and sorrow, Seems ever present, Yet is never quite the same, Becoming more than love and less than love, So difficult to define. And you learn that through it all, You really can endure, That you really are strong, That you do have value.
The most eloquent silence; that of two mouths meeting in a kiss.
Love knows no reasons,love knows no lies. Love defies all reasons, love has no eyes. But love is not blind, love sees but doesn't mind.
To the world you may be one person,but to one person you may be the world.
Love is always bestowed as a gift -- freely, willingly, and without expectation.... We don't love to be loved; we love to love.
Find the person who will love you because of your differences and not in spite of them and you have found a lover for life.
Love doesn't make the world go round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile.
The most wonderful of all things in life, I believe, is the discovery of another human being with whom ones relationship has a glowing depth, beauty, and joy as the years increase. This inner progressiveness of love between two human beings is a most marvelous thing, it cannot be found by looking for it or by passionately wishing for it. It is a sort of Divine accident.
Love is not just looking at each other, its looking in the same direction.
The Grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for.
With love and patience, nothing is impossible.
~~~
Thank you for everything.
For being patient with me, for all the understanding and pangungulit. You make me happy and make me feel so loved and I really do appreciate all the things you do for me.
Thank you for loving me.
Within you I lose myself. Without you I find myself wanting to be lost again.
At any rate, let us love for a while, for a year or so, you and me. That's a form of divine drunkenness that we can all try.
If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you've made me smile, the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand.
We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that doesn't diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives.
And you learn that love, true love, Always has joys and sorrow, Seems ever present, Yet is never quite the same, Becoming more than love and less than love, So difficult to define. And you learn that through it all, You really can endure, That you really are strong, That you do have value.
The most eloquent silence; that of two mouths meeting in a kiss.
Love knows no reasons,love knows no lies. Love defies all reasons, love has no eyes. But love is not blind, love sees but doesn't mind.
To the world you may be one person,but to one person you may be the world.
Love is always bestowed as a gift -- freely, willingly, and without expectation.... We don't love to be loved; we love to love.
Find the person who will love you because of your differences and not in spite of them and you have found a lover for life.
Love doesn't make the world go round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile.
The most wonderful of all things in life, I believe, is the discovery of another human being with whom ones relationship has a glowing depth, beauty, and joy as the years increase. This inner progressiveness of love between two human beings is a most marvelous thing, it cannot be found by looking for it or by passionately wishing for it. It is a sort of Divine accident.
Love is not just looking at each other, its looking in the same direction.
The Grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for.
With love and patience, nothing is impossible.
~~~
Thank you for everything.
For being patient with me, for all the understanding and pangungulit. You make me happy and make me feel so loved and I really do appreciate all the things you do for me.
Thank you for loving me.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Go Home Early to Tiendesitas
August 9 to 13 was Skip Week and our second week being in the opening shift. Love the shift, all the payment comes in around this time. The teams RPC is doing soooo good! Hehehe!
Last night our team was offered a GHE. Well its been offered for the past four days but nobody was interested because it is the middle of the week and everybody was lazy to go home, still eager to get our RPC higher. But then, last night being a Friday - gimik night, Armie said if ever it gets offered again she and Jane will take it and will go to Tiende for a little bit of drinking and asked if anybody would like to come along. I immediately said I'm game! I have already hit my quota and I'm good to go for this weeks stat and Alex agreed to do the same. Happy!
True enough, after a few minutes 4 slots were offered first and then followed by 5 more. Dell, Ester, Cath, Mars, and Jo took it while Ron, Mommy Ria and Jaime stayed behind to finish the shift. Nagpapayaman! :p
Friday night, Tiendes activity area was packed. Luckily we found a good table. It was fun! Listened to some bands performance. We had some good laughs and enjoyed every moment. Ruby who's 4x11 and didn't have a shift that night, came also.
Next week, serious mode na ulit. No more GHE anytime soon... :(
Last night our team was offered a GHE. Well its been offered for the past four days but nobody was interested because it is the middle of the week and everybody was lazy to go home, still eager to get our RPC higher. But then, last night being a Friday - gimik night, Armie said if ever it gets offered again she and Jane will take it and will go to Tiende for a little bit of drinking and asked if anybody would like to come along. I immediately said I'm game! I have already hit my quota and I'm good to go for this weeks stat and Alex agreed to do the same. Happy!
True enough, after a few minutes 4 slots were offered first and then followed by 5 more. Dell, Ester, Cath, Mars, and Jo took it while Ron, Mommy Ria and Jaime stayed behind to finish the shift. Nagpapayaman! :p
Friday night, Tiendes activity area was packed. Luckily we found a good table. It was fun! Listened to some bands performance. We had some good laughs and enjoyed every moment. Ruby who's 4x11 and didn't have a shift that night, came also.
Next week, serious mode na ulit. No more GHE anytime soon... :(
Wednesday, August 04, 2010
Bob Ong Quotes
Just some of the things i liked:
"Lahat naman ng tao sumeseryoso pagtinamaan ng pagmamahal. Yun nga lang,
hindi lahat matibay para sa temptasyon."
"Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang taong malapit sayo. Gamitin ang utak
para alagaan ang sarili mo."
"Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawakan ng iba."
"Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang."
"Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."
"Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na
araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."
"Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi
pagkukusa."
"Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin
na di mo mahal pero mahal ka. Kaya quits lang."
"Wag magmadali sa pag-aasawa. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon sa hinaharap,
mag-iiba pa ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong di pala tamang pumili ng
kapareha dahil lang sa kaboses niya si Debbie Gibson o magaling
mag-breakdance. Totoong mas importante ang kalooban ng tao higit anuman. Sa
paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan sa eskwelahan e
nagmumukha ring pandesal. Maniwala ka."
"ayokong nasasanay sa mga bagay na pwede namang wala sa buhay ko "
"hindi dahil sa hindi mo naiintindihan ang isang bagay ay
kasinungalingan na ito. at hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay
katotohanan. "
"Mangarap ka at abutin mo. Wag mong sisihin ang sira mong pamilya,
palpak mong syota, pilay mong tuta, o mga lumilipad na ipis. Kung may
pagkukulang sa'yo mga magulang mo, pwde kang manisi at maging rebelde.
Tumigil ka sa pag-aaral, mag-asawa ka, mag-drugs ka, magpakulay ka ng buhok
sa kili-kili. Sa bandang huli, ikaw din ang biktima. Rebeldeng walang
napatunayan at bait sa sarili."
"Lahat naman ng tao sumeseryoso pagtinamaan ng pagmamahal. Yun nga lang,
hindi lahat matibay para sa temptasyon."
"Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang taong malapit sayo. Gamitin ang utak
para alagaan ang sarili mo."
"Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawakan ng iba."
"Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang."
"Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."
"Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na
araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."
"Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi
pagkukusa."
"Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin
na di mo mahal pero mahal ka. Kaya quits lang."
"Wag magmadali sa pag-aasawa. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon sa hinaharap,
mag-iiba pa ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong di pala tamang pumili ng
kapareha dahil lang sa kaboses niya si Debbie Gibson o magaling
mag-breakdance. Totoong mas importante ang kalooban ng tao higit anuman. Sa
paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan sa eskwelahan e
nagmumukha ring pandesal. Maniwala ka."
"ayokong nasasanay sa mga bagay na pwede namang wala sa buhay ko "
"hindi dahil sa hindi mo naiintindihan ang isang bagay ay
kasinungalingan na ito. at hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay
katotohanan. "
"Mangarap ka at abutin mo. Wag mong sisihin ang sira mong pamilya,
palpak mong syota, pilay mong tuta, o mga lumilipad na ipis. Kung may
pagkukulang sa'yo mga magulang mo, pwde kang manisi at maging rebelde.
Tumigil ka sa pag-aaral, mag-asawa ka, mag-drugs ka, magpakulay ka ng buhok
sa kili-kili. Sa bandang huli, ikaw din ang biktima. Rebeldeng walang
napatunayan at bait sa sarili."
SShhh....
Why do you have to complicate things?
When everything is going smoothly you had to ask me that question over and over and over again.
Stop pressuring me! I hate it when you start doing it.
Burnout? This early? Hhhmm....
Hay... Too much information.
I need some time off. I'm tired. So tired. Physically and mentally tired.
Love is complicated.
Life is complicated.
When everything is going smoothly you had to ask me that question over and over and over again.
Stop pressuring me! I hate it when you start doing it.
Burnout? This early? Hhhmm....
Hay... Too much information.
I need some time off. I'm tired. So tired. Physically and mentally tired.
Love is complicated.
Life is complicated.
Monday, July 26, 2010
Sunday Night
After our APE yesterday, together with Choi and Ron, Love and I went to Yoohoo! for a couples night out. It was fun. Last minute gimik. Originally Love and I just planned to have a quiet evening at his place. But then, bonding with another couple is much better.
Went there and the place was packed had to wait for at least 10minutes to get a table. Ordered Sisig, inihaw na tenga (very yummy!), bbq (the best!), inihaw na pwet ng manok for Ron, and fries for me, had two orders of them, been craving for it for the past few days and 3 buckets of Red Horse. Wonderful night!
We planned to go out of town as we celebrate out first year in our job. I'm excited! Hopefully matuloy sya. :P
After Yoohoo! went to his place.
Now, I'm home at last. Missed my room, missed my bed. Alone at last after one week... :)
Awat muna sa kulitan at minsang pikunan at away. Hehehe!
Went there and the place was packed had to wait for at least 10minutes to get a table. Ordered Sisig, inihaw na tenga (very yummy!), bbq (the best!), inihaw na pwet ng manok for Ron, and fries for me, had two orders of them, been craving for it for the past few days and 3 buckets of Red Horse. Wonderful night!
We planned to go out of town as we celebrate out first year in our job. I'm excited! Hopefully matuloy sya. :P
After Yoohoo! went to his place.
Now, I'm home at last. Missed my room, missed my bed. Alone at last after one week... :)
Awat muna sa kulitan at minsang pikunan at away. Hehehe!
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Thank you...
It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes when I couldn't see for
Parting my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue
Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes when I couldn't see
For parting my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me, yeah
Lock the doors
Leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes oh, when I couldn't see
You parted my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
Oh for loving me
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes when I couldn't see for
Parting my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue
Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes when I couldn't see
For parting my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me, yeah
Lock the doors
Leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes oh, when I couldn't see
You parted my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
Oh for loving me
Monday, July 19, 2010
It's alright...
"Could we move our weekend get-away by August?"
I heard him asked me nervously as I ate my charbroiled burger at Tiendesita's - our meeting place before going to work.
"Why naman? We've planned it na diba?"
"I was thinking coz of the transition and stuff. Baka pwede ma-move?"
"No problem!"
Hahaha! He was really nervous while asking me. Para namang kakainin ko sya ng buhay.
"Don't look so surprise Love. Honestly, okay lang. Although I was really looking forward to it pero kung di pwede, ok lang talaga."
"Promise, I'll make it up to you."
~~~~
That was last Friday before work. Saturday morning, we had breakfast at our favorite Pares before going to my place because the day before, he planned to sleep over - again. And he said sabay na kaming pumasok come Saturday shift. As usual, we were not able to sleep not until around 12noon because of the harutan and stuff. I was tired and so sleepy. I woke up around 5:30pm and was trying to wake him up. Had our dinner then around 6:30pm he said tinatamad daw syang pumasok.
"Really? Are you serious? Ikaw tinatamad pumasok?"
Sabay bigyan lang ako ng naughty smile nya.
"Okay fine! Sickline nalang."
~~~~
We ended up not going to work. We were laughing of what Ron might think because she knew Love was going to sleep at my place and we were supposed to go to work. Pero dahil sa tinamad sya naginuman nalang kami.
He told me his sentiments about our relationship - again. How until now he still feels I'm not really in love with him and how he feels I'm not taking everything seriously. He said he's not blaming me if I felt traumatized by my last relationship. But he said, he's a totally different person. He's not like my ex daw he kept telling me over and over and over again. I told him, I'm not "not serious" about the relationship, it is just that, I've learned to take it easy. I've learned that, by loving someone and believing that person loves you too, is not enough to make all things go smoothly. Dapat talaga, conscious effort by two person to make it work.
He wants me to believe in love daw. He learned to accept na ganun talaga na ako ngayon, pero what he wants to happen is that kahit na I'm not thinking about the future - our future, he wants may plans parin kami. He kept bugging me about living in together. But I can't not now. Not yet. I have so many things pa to take care of before I could leave. Plus the fact na he's not into dogs din kasi. He's not a dog person. And we need to find a place that could accommodate 5 dogs! Hahahaha! Just the thought of it, ayaw na nya. Well except si Mandy na medyo nakakasundo na nya. She's used to him. Di na nya kinakahulan at gustong makipaglaro sa kanya, kaso nga he can't. Due to a childhood experience. Hahaha!!!
~~~~
Seriously, I love every moment that we have. We do work together and we see each other everyday. He would sometimes sleep here at home and I would sometimes sleep at his place. And it feels nice na he wants to live with me na. That would be a chance for me to take care of him more better. But then, something is not right. I feel it. As what my mother used to say "when in doubt, don't." I'm not in a hurry about what's going on between me and him. I'm not jumping right at the opportunity just because I know I'm not getting any younger or whatever. But I have a gut feel not to hurry things up. In the right time maybe, I would feel na it's time na. I would feel na he's the one na talaga.
I'm just enjoying every attention I get from him and my chance to take care of him and our moments together. What I know is that, when I feel down and when I feel tired at work, all I had to do is look at him and when I see him smile at me, nawawala na pagod ko. And sometimes when I'm too lazy to go to work, the thought of being with him and seeing him is enough encourage me to go to work.
Ron said I am in love and is just afraid to admit it. Maybe I am. Maybe.
All I know is that I'm happy now and the people around me are happy to know that I'm happy. Daming nag react sa change status ko sa Facebook ah... Hahahaha!!!
~~~~
We started drinking at 10pm and finished at around 4am! Can you believe that... Kwentuhan at walang kamatayang kwentuhan lang... We finished off by eating at this Tapsilogan near my house. I didn't like it though. Hehehe!
Then we slept until 4pm Sunday. Had early dinner before he went home. Later naman at around 3pm my turn to go to his place. I'm cooking spaghetti! Yummy!
I heard him asked me nervously as I ate my charbroiled burger at Tiendesita's - our meeting place before going to work.
"Why naman? We've planned it na diba?"
"I was thinking coz of the transition and stuff. Baka pwede ma-move?"
"No problem!"
Hahaha! He was really nervous while asking me. Para namang kakainin ko sya ng buhay.
"Don't look so surprise Love. Honestly, okay lang. Although I was really looking forward to it pero kung di pwede, ok lang talaga."
"Promise, I'll make it up to you."
~~~~
That was last Friday before work. Saturday morning, we had breakfast at our favorite Pares before going to my place because the day before, he planned to sleep over - again. And he said sabay na kaming pumasok come Saturday shift. As usual, we were not able to sleep not until around 12noon because of the harutan and stuff. I was tired and so sleepy. I woke up around 5:30pm and was trying to wake him up. Had our dinner then around 6:30pm he said tinatamad daw syang pumasok.
"Really? Are you serious? Ikaw tinatamad pumasok?"
Sabay bigyan lang ako ng naughty smile nya.
"Okay fine! Sickline nalang."
~~~~
We ended up not going to work. We were laughing of what Ron might think because she knew Love was going to sleep at my place and we were supposed to go to work. Pero dahil sa tinamad sya naginuman nalang kami.
He told me his sentiments about our relationship - again. How until now he still feels I'm not really in love with him and how he feels I'm not taking everything seriously. He said he's not blaming me if I felt traumatized by my last relationship. But he said, he's a totally different person. He's not like my ex daw he kept telling me over and over and over again. I told him, I'm not "not serious" about the relationship, it is just that, I've learned to take it easy. I've learned that, by loving someone and believing that person loves you too, is not enough to make all things go smoothly. Dapat talaga, conscious effort by two person to make it work.
He wants me to believe in love daw. He learned to accept na ganun talaga na ako ngayon, pero what he wants to happen is that kahit na I'm not thinking about the future - our future, he wants may plans parin kami. He kept bugging me about living in together. But I can't not now. Not yet. I have so many things pa to take care of before I could leave. Plus the fact na he's not into dogs din kasi. He's not a dog person. And we need to find a place that could accommodate 5 dogs! Hahahaha! Just the thought of it, ayaw na nya. Well except si Mandy na medyo nakakasundo na nya. She's used to him. Di na nya kinakahulan at gustong makipaglaro sa kanya, kaso nga he can't. Due to a childhood experience. Hahaha!!!
~~~~
Seriously, I love every moment that we have. We do work together and we see each other everyday. He would sometimes sleep here at home and I would sometimes sleep at his place. And it feels nice na he wants to live with me na. That would be a chance for me to take care of him more better. But then, something is not right. I feel it. As what my mother used to say "when in doubt, don't." I'm not in a hurry about what's going on between me and him. I'm not jumping right at the opportunity just because I know I'm not getting any younger or whatever. But I have a gut feel not to hurry things up. In the right time maybe, I would feel na it's time na. I would feel na he's the one na talaga.
I'm just enjoying every attention I get from him and my chance to take care of him and our moments together. What I know is that, when I feel down and when I feel tired at work, all I had to do is look at him and when I see him smile at me, nawawala na pagod ko. And sometimes when I'm too lazy to go to work, the thought of being with him and seeing him is enough encourage me to go to work.
Ron said I am in love and is just afraid to admit it. Maybe I am. Maybe.
All I know is that I'm happy now and the people around me are happy to know that I'm happy. Daming nag react sa change status ko sa Facebook ah... Hahahaha!!!
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We started drinking at 10pm and finished at around 4am! Can you believe that... Kwentuhan at walang kamatayang kwentuhan lang... We finished off by eating at this Tapsilogan near my house. I didn't like it though. Hehehe!
Then we slept until 4pm Sunday. Had early dinner before he went home. Later naman at around 3pm my turn to go to his place. I'm cooking spaghetti! Yummy!
Tuesday, July 06, 2010
...
Apologizing does not mean
that you are wrong and the other person is right...
It just means that you value your relationship more that your ego...
that you are wrong and the other person is right...
It just means that you value your relationship more that your ego...
Thursday, July 01, 2010
Monday, June 28, 2010
Sick again...
Ever since flu season started, I got sick na.
Friday shift, I started sneezing. I knew I was going down with something. True enough, by the end of the shift I was teary eyed and with a runny nose.
By the time I got home I was having a splitting headache and my nose is already clogged. Was not able to get a decent sleep and plus the fact that Love and I was having a slight tampuhan because of me being cold lately over him and he felt I was not taking the relationship seriously and he ignored me for a couple of days. The nerve! Hahaha! Actually, I was. I was a bit cold intentionally. But that's another story.
Anyways, I was not able to report to work for Saturday shift. I was dead tired.
Sunday, Love surprised me by coming over. Maski ang lakas lakas ng ulan, sugod ang gago. He wants to take care of me daw.
Hhmm.. Ano kayang take care iyon??? HAhaha!!! Nagdala ng kung ano-anong food na hindi ko naman malasahan dahil sa barado kong ilong. He ended up eating all the junkfoods, cake and chicken. Did nothing but watched TV and DVD until I fell asleep.
Woke up, tulog na rin ang gago sa tabi ko. Pero syempre.. May konting QT narin! Nabitin ata ako este!! Nabinat ata ako! Hahaha!!!
Hay nako! He can be sweet really, at times. Pero pag dating sa work. Work lang talaga. He's very strict. Palibhasa POC kasi. Madalas mainit ang ulo. Walang love love sa floor. Pero nauutusan ko naman! Hahaha!
Thanks Love for looking after me this weekend. Making an effort to spend time with me and to clear things out. It meant a lot.
Mwah! Mwah! Mwah!
Basta steady lang...
Friday shift, I started sneezing. I knew I was going down with something. True enough, by the end of the shift I was teary eyed and with a runny nose.
By the time I got home I was having a splitting headache and my nose is already clogged. Was not able to get a decent sleep and plus the fact that Love and I was having a slight tampuhan because of me being cold lately over him and he felt I was not taking the relationship seriously and he ignored me for a couple of days. The nerve! Hahaha! Actually, I was. I was a bit cold intentionally. But that's another story.
Anyways, I was not able to report to work for Saturday shift. I was dead tired.
Sunday, Love surprised me by coming over. Maski ang lakas lakas ng ulan, sugod ang gago. He wants to take care of me daw.
Hhmm.. Ano kayang take care iyon??? HAhaha!!! Nagdala ng kung ano-anong food na hindi ko naman malasahan dahil sa barado kong ilong. He ended up eating all the junkfoods, cake and chicken. Did nothing but watched TV and DVD until I fell asleep.
Woke up, tulog na rin ang gago sa tabi ko. Pero syempre.. May konting QT narin! Nabitin ata ako este!! Nabinat ata ako! Hahaha!!!
Hay nako! He can be sweet really, at times. Pero pag dating sa work. Work lang talaga. He's very strict. Palibhasa POC kasi. Madalas mainit ang ulo. Walang love love sa floor. Pero nauutusan ko naman! Hahaha!
Thanks Love for looking after me this weekend. Making an effort to spend time with me and to clear things out. It meant a lot.
Mwah! Mwah! Mwah!
Basta steady lang...
Monday, June 21, 2010
Tatay
I dreamt of my dearest Tatay last night. We were celebrating his birthday. A lot of relatives came and from my own family, aside from my Tatay, me and my two older sisters were the only ones there.
Funny thing is, Ate Cindy played the organ while Tatay and I danced and my Ate Jean sung.
In reality, when I was a little girl, whenever Ate Jean plays the organ, Tatay would grab me and spun me around and around. We would dance until I was dizzy. Those were some of my fondest memory of my dear Tatay.
He loves to dance and sing. He would laugh his heart out and enjoy every moment.
I still miss him. I would tell stories of him to my closest friends and would still shed some tears whenever I remember all the happy moments we had.
It's been 11 years now since he died and still it feels like it was only yesterday when he left us.
He's not a perfect father but he tried his best to provide and give us the life he never had when he was young. He's pretty proud of what he's become and what he had achieved and by God, he deserves everything he had accomplished. He may be not the kind of father that would make lambing or would say I love you, but I know he loved us. He gave all he had for our family.
Wherever you are my Tatay, you are always in heart and in my prayers. Thank you for everything.
I LOVE YOU!
I still miss you so much...
Funny thing is, Ate Cindy played the organ while Tatay and I danced and my Ate Jean sung.
In reality, when I was a little girl, whenever Ate Jean plays the organ, Tatay would grab me and spun me around and around. We would dance until I was dizzy. Those were some of my fondest memory of my dear Tatay.
He loves to dance and sing. He would laugh his heart out and enjoy every moment.
I still miss him. I would tell stories of him to my closest friends and would still shed some tears whenever I remember all the happy moments we had.
It's been 11 years now since he died and still it feels like it was only yesterday when he left us.
He's not a perfect father but he tried his best to provide and give us the life he never had when he was young. He's pretty proud of what he's become and what he had achieved and by God, he deserves everything he had accomplished. He may be not the kind of father that would make lambing or would say I love you, but I know he loved us. He gave all he had for our family.
Wherever you are my Tatay, you are always in heart and in my prayers. Thank you for everything.
I LOVE YOU!
I still miss you so much...
...
I used to wish for the same thing - - -
someone to love and who'll love me back.
But today,
I think I'm going to wish for something else - - -
the wisdom and maturity to realize that I won't find
what I want by looking for it...
That I shouldn't expect someone else to give me
what I never gave to myself.
That I'm NOT a half,
waiting to be made whole.
And even if that special person never comes along,
I'll be just fine... :)
someone to love and who'll love me back.
But today,
I think I'm going to wish for something else - - -
the wisdom and maturity to realize that I won't find
what I want by looking for it...
That I shouldn't expect someone else to give me
what I never gave to myself.
That I'm NOT a half,
waiting to be made whole.
And even if that special person never comes along,
I'll be just fine... :)
...
Live life fully while you're here.
Experience everything.
Take care of yourself and your friends.
Have fun, be crazy, be weird.
Go out and screw up!
You're going to anyway,
so you might as well enjoy the process.
Take the opportunity to learn from your mistakes:
find the cause of your problem and eliminate it.
Don't try to be perfect;
just be an EXCELLENT example of being human...
Experience everything.
Take care of yourself and your friends.
Have fun, be crazy, be weird.
Go out and screw up!
You're going to anyway,
so you might as well enjoy the process.
Take the opportunity to learn from your mistakes:
find the cause of your problem and eliminate it.
Don't try to be perfect;
just be an EXCELLENT example of being human...
Appointments
Went to my ob-gyne last Friday, had my scheduled Pap-smear. Will get the result by next Saturday. Crossing my fingers everything is all well down there. Hhmm...
The next six days would be something to look forward to. Bring all the pain now! Doc said take it easy with the pain killers, if I can handle it, don't drink anymore. So I'll be a masochist even for a week. Hahaha! Embrace the pain!
Seriously, I hope everything will be okay. I'm having some cramps and back pains. But I know it will be all worth it. Preparing for something special in the near future. But I'm really having second thoughts. Kung pwede naman ipagpaliban pa, why not. It will all depend on the circumstances. Pero as much as possible, ayoko pa sana. I know someone who is so eager to volunteer! Hahaha! Ganun lang ba yun!? At hanggnag dun lang ba yun? Coz' if you're going to ask me, gusto ko hanggang dun lang yun. Kaso it doesn't look like you'll be contented na maging hanggang dun lang yun. No strings attach please. :p
Hay! Decisions decisions decisions!
My back is killing me! I need a rub! Whaaaa!!!!
The next six days would be something to look forward to. Bring all the pain now! Doc said take it easy with the pain killers, if I can handle it, don't drink anymore. So I'll be a masochist even for a week. Hahaha! Embrace the pain!
Seriously, I hope everything will be okay. I'm having some cramps and back pains. But I know it will be all worth it. Preparing for something special in the near future. But I'm really having second thoughts. Kung pwede naman ipagpaliban pa, why not. It will all depend on the circumstances. Pero as much as possible, ayoko pa sana. I know someone who is so eager to volunteer! Hahaha! Ganun lang ba yun!? At hanggnag dun lang ba yun? Coz' if you're going to ask me, gusto ko hanggang dun lang yun. Kaso it doesn't look like you'll be contented na maging hanggang dun lang yun. No strings attach please. :p
Hay! Decisions decisions decisions!
My back is killing me! I need a rub! Whaaaa!!!!
Saturday, June 05, 2010
...
Still feeling a little bit down. Didn't go to work yesterday and tonight. Need to rest and sleep a little bit longer. Will need a lot of energy to survive this illness. Good thing it is my rest day tomorrow til Monday. Plenty of time to rest.
I miss working. It gets a little bit boring staying here at home almost half of the day doing nothing but sleep. Been to my doctor twice now and still waiting for the results, hope its going to be good news by the end of my medication. And then more test, test and test.
I hate hospitals. I don't want to stay there any longer than having a check-up. But there's nothing I can do.
Buti nalang may nangungulit every now and then... :)
4:00am
H: "u awake?"
S: "yup!"
H: "bakit?"
S: "eh nagtext ka eh! istorbo! joke! I slept almost half of the day na eh... woke up early tuloy"
H: "ano sabi ng doctor, how was ur check-up?"
S: "ayun! more test pa daw. u on break?"
H: "yeah... pasok na ko. miss you! mwah!"
S: "okies... "
H: "love you... "
S: "......"
H: "cge na nga.... basta love you!"
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6:45pm
H: "Gising kana Love? Musta check-up?"
S: "Yeah... Okay naman. More medications lang then be back for more test."
H: "Are you going to work na tonight?"
S: "Not yet... Total rest daw eh... Be back Tuesday night."
H: "Miss you na..."
S: "Pano mo naman ako namimiss? One day palang tayo di nagkikita..."
H: "Basta, di kita nakikita at nakakasama..."
S: "Cheesy!!! Hahaha!"
H: "Eh di wag! Wag kang maniwala."
S: "Asus! Tampo ang baby ko.... Hehehe!"
H: "Wag nalang nga...."
Hahahaha!!!! :p
I miss working. It gets a little bit boring staying here at home almost half of the day doing nothing but sleep. Been to my doctor twice now and still waiting for the results, hope its going to be good news by the end of my medication. And then more test, test and test.
I hate hospitals. I don't want to stay there any longer than having a check-up. But there's nothing I can do.
Buti nalang may nangungulit every now and then... :)
4:00am
H: "u awake?"
S: "yup!"
H: "bakit?"
S: "eh nagtext ka eh! istorbo! joke! I slept almost half of the day na eh... woke up early tuloy"
H: "ano sabi ng doctor, how was ur check-up?"
S: "ayun! more test pa daw. u on break?"
H: "yeah... pasok na ko. miss you! mwah!"
S: "okies... "
H: "love you... "
S: "......"
H: "cge na nga.... basta love you!"
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6:45pm
H: "Gising kana Love? Musta check-up?"
S: "Yeah... Okay naman. More medications lang then be back for more test."
H: "Are you going to work na tonight?"
S: "Not yet... Total rest daw eh... Be back Tuesday night."
H: "Miss you na..."
S: "Pano mo naman ako namimiss? One day palang tayo di nagkikita..."
H: "Basta, di kita nakikita at nakakasama..."
S: "Cheesy!!! Hahaha!"
H: "Eh di wag! Wag kang maniwala."
S: "Asus! Tampo ang baby ko.... Hehehe!"
H: "Wag nalang nga...."
Hahahaha!!!! :p
Do you two have chemistry?
Sweaty palms? Sort of. A pounding heart? A bit. Even so, you’re still not completely sure there are sparks between you. Understandable: While it’d be nice to think that the earth moves and the angels sing when you’ve found The One, sometimes the signals that you two are truly meant for each other are much more subtle than that. Here are seven dead giveaways that singles often miss — know that if you spot one or more of them on your next date, that’s good news.
Subtle sign #1: You turn into a total klutz
So far, you’ve dropped your fork and knocked over your water glass…and that’s before the entrées have arrived. While embarrassing, these gaffes are actually a good sign. “When you have serious chemistry, your body produces elevated levels of the neurotransmitter norepinephrine,” says Helen Fisher, Ph.D., research professor of anthropology at Rutgers University. This, in turn, can make you jittery, uncoordinated, and a little accident-prone. And if you’re embarrassed by your klutziness, that’s a good sign too! Because if you don’t care what your date thinks of you, you probably don’t think much of your date.
Subtle sign #2: You notice a tiny dent in your date’s pinkie nail
Or that your date’s hair flips up on the left but under on the right. You’ve never noticed something like that about a person before, so why now? Because when there’s true chemistry, the body’s levels of the chemical dopamine rise and lead to “imprinting,” a theory of attachment discovered by German ethologist and Nobel Prize winner Niko Tinbergen. This imprinting makes you focus on this one person more clearly and notice the tiniest, most insignificant details about a person — including possessions. Says Dr. Fisher, “Your date’s car in the parking lot looks different. His or her backpack looks different. That person’s coat on the coat rack stands out. Everything is special, novel, unique.” CHECK!!!
Subtle sign #3: You agree to split the spinach dip appetizer — and you don’t even like spinach dip!
True chemistry makes us more mellow than usual — so don’t be surprised if you find yourself being agreeable with your date in ways you might not with anyone else: You don’t mind walking 10 blocks with your date from your parking spot. You’re suddenly up for seeing a Rob Schneider movie. And even though you’re not a fan of Indian food, what the heck, you’ll give it another shot. “When you’re falling in love, you more easily surrender your boundaries because of a strong desire to merge with that person,” explains Harville Hendrix, Ph.D., author of Keeping the Love You Find. CHECK!!!
Subtle sign #4: The room you’re in seems brighter than usual
Did someone nudge up the dimmer switch? Perhaps. But it could also mean you’re smitten, thanks to a physiological reaction discovered by University of Chicago biopsychologist Eckhard Hess, a pioneer in the area of “pupillometrics.” In short, Hess found that when people look at something or someone that causes positive feelings or sparks interest, their pupils dilate in an attempt to take in more of it, also letting in more light as well. CHECK!!!
Subtle sign #5: You’re more fidgety during the date
If you find yourself stroking your own arm, tapping your leg, or otherwise fidgeting during the date, rest assured: Whether you fully know it or not, you like this person. “These are ‘displacement gestures’ — what you do when you’re trying to decide what to do with yourself,” explains Dr. Fisher. “If someone is smiling at you and you can’t decide if you should smile back or look away, you play with your hair. Or you run your tongue along your teeth.” This happens because your brain is over-stimulated, leading you to vent the extra energy with a little self-grooming. Some experts even argue that stroking your own arm or leg indicates a subconscious desire to reach out and touch the person you’re with.
Subtle sign #6: You keep forgetting there’s food on the table
When you’re out with someone who doesn’t float your boat, boy, do those garlic mashed potatoes taste good. But if you’re feeling a chemical attraction to someone, the food being served is the last thing on your mind — and not just because you’re nervous. Blame this on elevated levels of the neurotransmitter dopamine, which fuels feelings of desire. Higher levels of dopamine, according to Dr. Fisher, “give you a feeling of lightness, increased energy and a feeling of minor ecstasy. And you’re definitely not hungry!” So if your date seems disappointed that you only ate four bites of your steak, you can clear it up later by explaining what a five-star sign it really is.
Subtle sign #7: You feel more “familiar” with your date than “lusty”
Sure, most people think it’s a good sign when they want to jump over the table and rip their date’s clothes off. But let’s be honest—there are plenty of acquaintances you’ve wanted to do that to, and there was no deeper, underlying chemistry there. A stronger sign is that instead of feeling lust for your date, you’re overwhelmed by a feeling of familiarity — a sense of, “Gosh, I feel like I’ve known you before.” The chemistry at work, says Dr. Hendrix, “is due to the emotional center in your brain’s limbic system recognizing qualities in the person that resemble qualities about the caretakers we had during childhood.” For example, a man might recognize a feeling of being at ease and nurtured the way his mother made him feel. A woman might feel comfortable with the dry humor of her date, similar to the way her father interacted with her. “This intense familiarity triggers the release of dopamine, which can lead to that ‘Wow’ feeling,” explains Dr. Hendrix. Oh, and by this point, it’s also definitely OK to want to jump over the table and rip your date’s clothes off! CHECK!!!
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4 out of 7... Hmm... not bad... HAHAHA!!!
Subtle sign #2: You notice a tiny dent in your date’s pinkie nail
Or that your date’s hair flips up on the left but under on the right. You’ve never noticed something like that about a person before, so why now? Because when there’s true chemistry, the body’s levels of the chemical dopamine rise and lead to “imprinting,” a theory of attachment discovered by German ethologist and Nobel Prize winner Niko Tinbergen. This imprinting makes you focus on this one person more clearly and notice the tiniest, most insignificant details about a person — including possessions. Says Dr. Fisher, “Your date’s car in the parking lot looks different. His or her backpack looks different. That person’s coat on the coat rack stands out. Everything is special, novel, unique.” CHECK!!!
Subtle sign #3: You agree to split the spinach dip appetizer — and you don’t even like spinach dip!
True chemistry makes us more mellow than usual — so don’t be surprised if you find yourself being agreeable with your date in ways you might not with anyone else: You don’t mind walking 10 blocks with your date from your parking spot. You’re suddenly up for seeing a Rob Schneider movie. And even though you’re not a fan of Indian food, what the heck, you’ll give it another shot. “When you’re falling in love, you more easily surrender your boundaries because of a strong desire to merge with that person,” explains Harville Hendrix, Ph.D., author of Keeping the Love You Find. CHECK!!!
Subtle sign #4: The room you’re in seems brighter than usual
Did someone nudge up the dimmer switch? Perhaps. But it could also mean you’re smitten, thanks to a physiological reaction discovered by University of Chicago biopsychologist Eckhard Hess, a pioneer in the area of “pupillometrics.” In short, Hess found that when people look at something or someone that causes positive feelings or sparks interest, their pupils dilate in an attempt to take in more of it, also letting in more light as well. CHECK!!!
Subtle sign #5: You’re more fidgety during the date
If you find yourself stroking your own arm, tapping your leg, or otherwise fidgeting during the date, rest assured: Whether you fully know it or not, you like this person. “These are ‘displacement gestures’ — what you do when you’re trying to decide what to do with yourself,” explains Dr. Fisher. “If someone is smiling at you and you can’t decide if you should smile back or look away, you play with your hair. Or you run your tongue along your teeth.” This happens because your brain is over-stimulated, leading you to vent the extra energy with a little self-grooming. Some experts even argue that stroking your own arm or leg indicates a subconscious desire to reach out and touch the person you’re with.
Subtle sign #6: You keep forgetting there’s food on the table
When you’re out with someone who doesn’t float your boat, boy, do those garlic mashed potatoes taste good. But if you’re feeling a chemical attraction to someone, the food being served is the last thing on your mind — and not just because you’re nervous. Blame this on elevated levels of the neurotransmitter dopamine, which fuels feelings of desire. Higher levels of dopamine, according to Dr. Fisher, “give you a feeling of lightness, increased energy and a feeling of minor ecstasy. And you’re definitely not hungry!” So if your date seems disappointed that you only ate four bites of your steak, you can clear it up later by explaining what a five-star sign it really is.
Subtle sign #7: You feel more “familiar” with your date than “lusty”
Sure, most people think it’s a good sign when they want to jump over the table and rip their date’s clothes off. But let’s be honest—there are plenty of acquaintances you’ve wanted to do that to, and there was no deeper, underlying chemistry there. A stronger sign is that instead of feeling lust for your date, you’re overwhelmed by a feeling of familiarity — a sense of, “Gosh, I feel like I’ve known you before.” The chemistry at work, says Dr. Hendrix, “is due to the emotional center in your brain’s limbic system recognizing qualities in the person that resemble qualities about the caretakers we had during childhood.” For example, a man might recognize a feeling of being at ease and nurtured the way his mother made him feel. A woman might feel comfortable with the dry humor of her date, similar to the way her father interacted with her. “This intense familiarity triggers the release of dopamine, which can lead to that ‘Wow’ feeling,” explains Dr. Hendrix. Oh, and by this point, it’s also definitely OK to want to jump over the table and rip your date’s clothes off! CHECK!!!
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4 out of 7... Hmm... not bad... HAHAHA!!!
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