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Michigan and New England - TEAM JON CAB

STOP LIGHT PARTY

Moomba, Mo. Ignacia St., Quezon City
May 30, 2010 / 8:00pm


wear red top if you're taken, yellow if its complicated
and green if you're single and ready to mingle...

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Lazy Monday morning.

Tired but happy.

Thanks Love for a nice Sunday night. Hehehe! :p

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Woke up late... Didn't go to work. Hehehe! Spending time with my baby instead. :p

Surprise Surprise!!!

Last Friday night, I was on my way to work when I saw my good old brother. The second from the eldest. He said he has a gift for me. Advance birthday gift. I laughed when I heard him say that. I didn't believe him until he gave me a small box. WTF! A new cellphone! Hahaha!!! Is this for real?? I kept asking him. "So what's the catch?" He said nothing. Just a gift. Talk about surprises.

Well actually, he bought the phone for himself. Over excited kasi. He didn't test if he'll be comfortable using that kind of unit. But then, good thing he didn't like it! I was there for the hand-me-down! Love it!

Although at first, I had a hard time navigating, it will take some time to get used to it. It's fun! Plus Kuya had a 4gig (expandable till 8gig) memory card thrown with it. Can't wait to load all those nice songs I got from a friend.

Samsung GT-S3653W and my other phone E63 (both black) has a new partner now. New cellphones, new numbers. Out with the old, in with the new! Hehehe!!!

Thanks brother dearest! :)

Someday i'll find my Way Back In To Love..

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

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Sometimes in life, we must know when to quit.

Accept that no matter how hard we try to make things work, when you know it’s not going to work, it will never work.

We must learn to admit when things are not meant to be, it will never be whatever you do.

The hardest part is, telling it to someone who doesn’t want to give up. I know he’ll hate me and I don’t know if he’ll speak to me ever again.

But then again, I know it is the most dignified thing to do. Saving that person from all the heartaches. Face the consequences.

It all boils down to being honest with what you feel. Hoping that someday that person would find in his heart to forgive you. Hoping that he’ll understand why you have to do it.

It is all about taking full responsibility and moving forward without worrying that you’ve hurt someone from your past because you choose to face the problem head-on than hide behind all the same old shit of “it’s-not-you-it’s-me” reason. Face the music . Have the balls. Have the guts. Have the nerve to tell it to his face that it’s not working.

This is going to be one difficult week for me.

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He has persistently asked me of how I feel for almost a month now.

I tried.

I really did.

But my whole heart is not into it.

I still tried, but when things started to change, as days go by, between my heart and what his intentions were...

I knew, I have to let go... I have to tell him.

I do love the attention. I like the affection he shows but to be in a relationship again? I’m not sure if I’m ready with all my heart – with all of me.

Let’s put it this way, being in a relationship, I do miss the feeling. I do miss having someone beside me, caring for someone and all that bruhaha, but thinking about all the freedom and choices I have as a single person, it is beyond what I could put into words. This is the first time in my whole life, since I had my first boyfriend, that I’m without a boyfriend for more than four months. It’s been almost nine months now, I do get lonely sometimes but then, looking at all of my options and adventures and besides I’m not really looking for someone just yet, I’m just enjoying the ride until I can. And I know, when the right person comes along, I know the universe will have it’s own way of letting me know that he is the one for me.

But at this point, I don't think so.