It's alright...

"Could we move our weekend get-away by August?"

I heard him asked me nervously as I ate my charbroiled burger at Tiendesita's - our meeting place before going to work.

"Why naman? We've planned it na diba?"

"I was thinking coz of the transition and stuff. Baka pwede ma-move?"

"No problem!"

Hahaha! He was really nervous while asking me. Para namang kakainin ko sya ng buhay.

"Don't look so surprise Love. Honestly, okay lang. Although I was really looking forward to it pero kung di pwede, ok lang talaga."

"Promise, I'll make it up to you."

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That was last Friday before work. Saturday morning, we had breakfast at our favorite Pares before going to my place because the day before, he planned to sleep over - again. And he said sabay na kaming pumasok come Saturday shift. As usual, we were not able to sleep not until around 12noon because of the harutan and stuff. I was tired and so sleepy. I woke up around 5:30pm and was trying to wake him up. Had our dinner then around 6:30pm he said tinatamad daw syang pumasok.

"Really? Are you serious? Ikaw tinatamad pumasok?"

Sabay bigyan lang ako ng naughty smile nya.

"Okay fine! Sickline nalang."

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We ended up not going to work. We were laughing of what Ron might think because she knew Love was going to sleep at my place and we were supposed to go to work. Pero dahil sa tinamad sya naginuman nalang kami.

He told me his sentiments about our relationship - again. How until now he still feels I'm not really in love with him and how he feels I'm not taking everything seriously. He said he's not blaming me if I felt traumatized by my last relationship. But he said, he's a totally different person. He's not like my ex daw he kept telling me over and over and over again. I told him, I'm not "not serious" about the relationship, it is just that, I've learned to take it easy. I've learned that, by loving someone and believing that person loves you too, is not enough to make all things go smoothly. Dapat talaga, conscious effort by two person to make it work.

He wants me to believe in love daw. He learned to accept na ganun talaga na ako ngayon, pero what he wants to happen is that kahit na I'm not thinking about the future - our future, he wants may plans parin kami. He kept bugging me about living in together. But I can't not now. Not yet. I have so many things pa to take care of before I could leave. Plus the fact na he's not into dogs din kasi. He's not a dog person. And we need to find a place that could accommodate 5 dogs! Hahahaha! Just the thought of it, ayaw na nya. Well except si Mandy na medyo nakakasundo na nya. She's used to him. Di na nya kinakahulan at gustong makipaglaro sa kanya, kaso nga he can't. Due to a childhood experience. Hahaha!!!

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Seriously, I love every moment that we have. We do work together and we see each other everyday. He would sometimes sleep here at home and I would sometimes sleep at his place. And it feels nice na he wants to live with me na. That would be a chance for me to take care of him more better. But then, something is not right. I feel it. As what my mother used to say "when in doubt, don't." I'm not in a hurry about what's going on between me and him. I'm not jumping right at the opportunity just because I know I'm not getting any younger or whatever. But I have a gut feel not to hurry things up. In the right time maybe, I would feel na it's time na. I would feel na he's the one na talaga.

I'm just enjoying every attention I get from him and my chance to take care of him and our moments together. What I know is that, when I feel down and when I feel tired at work, all I had to do is look at him and when I see him smile at me, nawawala na pagod ko. And sometimes when I'm too lazy to go to work, the thought of being with him and seeing him is enough encourage me to go to work.

Ron said I am in love and is just afraid to admit it. Maybe I am. Maybe.

All I know is that I'm happy now and the people around me are happy to know that I'm happy. Daming nag react sa change status ko sa Facebook ah... Hahahaha!!!

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We started drinking at 10pm and finished at around 4am! Can you believe that... Kwentuhan at walang kamatayang kwentuhan lang... We finished off by eating at this Tapsilogan near my house. I didn't like it though. Hehehe!

Then we slept until 4pm Sunday. Had early dinner before he went home. Later naman at around 3pm my turn to go to his place. I'm cooking spaghetti! Yummy!