3 years...

Last night, Jet and I celebrated our anniversary with a nice dinner at Manong’s in Alabang. Although it’s been three days since the exact date, Sunday was our (his) only available day because of work (during his transition period). Nonetheless, things went well.

He brought me to this nice resto in Alabang. Sabi nga nya amidst the high buildings meron palang ganung resto within the area. Nice daw and I’ll like the food. Pinagyayabang nya talaga. He was right. I liked the ambiance, place and very inexpensive foods. Wala masyadong tao and traffic. Tahimik. We had an early dinner. Konting reminiscing of our three years together at isang blooper… Kasi I ordered Shrimp Tempura, si Jet being so makulit, maski he knows allergic sya sa shrimp, ayun, pasaway… Kumain parin! After a few seconds namamaga na ang ear nya.. Hahaha!!! Buti nalang I’m always ready with my medicines. Ever since he had an episode when we went to Puerto Galera, I always see to it that I have them in my bag incase he’ll need it. A few minutes later he was okay.

After our dinner we went to ATC… Lakad lakad lang… He was asking me if I like to have our night cap… Sabi ko sobrang busog pa ako. Around 8pm we went home nalang. I would rather spend time with him at home. Just the two of us…

We spent the rest of the evening watching stuff from Youtube (and doing other stuff…Hhmmm…) We had a blast watching Shaider, New Kids On The Block, Menudo and all those things that reminded us of our childhood. Hehehe!

By 2am I was convincing him to sleep over… But because of a clip we saw from Hurricane Katrina Animal Rescue, he suddenly felt an urge to see his pet. I understood him. Maski ako eh… I wanted to cry and embrace all my babies. So sabi ko “sige you go home nalang, we’ll see each other naman on Thursday before I leave for Baguio”…

That’s how we celebrated our anniversary. Nothing extra ordinary really, even so, I love spending the whole day with him maski wala kaming ginagawa at nakatunganga lang dito sa house…

I'm A Snake!

Born under the year of the Snake...

Ancient Chinese wisdom says a Snake in the house is a good omen because it means your family will not starve. This could be taken metaphorically to mean that a Snake could never have a problem with his family starving because he is such a great mediator, making him good at business. Or it could mean that a Snake would be willing to sacrifice his possessions, something the Snake has a lot of, in order to pay for his family’s food. Any way it is interpreted is representative of the Snake’s character and is a measure of the value he puts on his material wealth. The Snake is keen and cunning, quite intelligent and wise.

THE SIGN OF THE SNAKE:

The Snake is the intuitive, introspective, refined and collected of the Animal Signs. They are attractive people who take cries with ease and do not become flustered easily. They are graceful people, exciting and dark at the same time. Contemplative and private, the Snake is not outwardly emotional. He can appear cunning and reticent and works very modestly in the business environment. The Snake will plot and scheme to make certain things turn out exactly as they want them to. They are not great communicators and can become quite possessive when they set their minds on achieving the interest of a partner.

IN YOUR ELEMENT:

THE FIRE SNAKE 1917 AND 1977

Fire Snakes can be a bit loud, speaking their minds and smothering you with their opinions. This does add a twist to his dynamic and vibrant character, as he is quite the extrovert. These Snakes have a great wisdom. They are intriguing communicators who leave you breathless after a conversation. Fire Snakes can change even the most obstinate mind with their powers of persuasion, convincing you their opinions or ideas are better than yours. This does make them a little self-centered, but you can’t say they aren’t driven for success.

THE SNAKE LOVER:

Snakes are beautiful people who exhibit quite a sexual appeal. They are sleek and seductive and if they want you, will out a spell on you that won’t let you stop thinking about them. However, Snakes are quite prejudiced when choosing a partner and don’t just choose based on physical qualities. The Snake needs a partner who can appreciate his quirky sense of humor and his wacky way of handling situations, so generally, although quite beautiful and tempting to approach, the Snake does all the pursuing.

MARRIAGE:

Because the Snake is so choosy, he can become jealous and obsessive about his partner. They can be a bit stand-offish with their mates, choosing to push away emotions rather than confront their feelings and insecurities. Once betrayed, you can bank on not ever being trusted by the Snake again as much as you can bet he will get even. (kaya takot si Jet eh! hehehe!)

THE SNAKE LOVE PARTNER:

Not everyone can live and be happy with a Snake. It takes a patient soul, someone ready for the long haul, who can calm his nerves and deal with his obsessions with skill. Chinese horoscopes are very specific about which partnerships have the potential to be successful in love and in business. Yet, though destiny can point us in the right direction, we must still make all efforts to maintain loving relationships. Following is a brief description of how a Snake will affect a relationship with other Animal Signs.

PARTNERS IN LOVE:

Snake*Rat = You stand to learn a lot from each other.

Snake*Ox = You have a stable, loving relationship.

Snake*Tiger = Various differences will lead you apart down the road.

Snake*Rabbit = Intense and sensual, you have a lot to look forward to.

Snake*Dragon = You fit well together…you share flirtatious natures and zesty outlooks.

Snake*Snake = You are both intelligent, but too envious for a partnership.

Snake* Horse = Outlook is doubtful…there is to much to fight about.

Snake*Sheep = You two make great friends and even better lovers.

Snake*Monkey = You can’t really trust each other, can you?

Snake*Rooster = Dynamic duo!

Snake*Dog = Love at first sight. Go for it!

Snake*Pig = Not enough in common to pursue. (not!)

LOVE PARTNERS AT A GLANCE:

Snakes with Tips on Togetherness Compatibility

Rat mutually fascinated with each other ***

Ox wonderful connection ****

Tiger doubtful outlook *

Rabbit great sexual attraction ***

Dragon pretty similar paths ***

Snake must stay independent of each other **

Horse remember to communicate **

Sheep quite blissful ****

Monkey have to cooperate with each other **

Rooster stable and caring ****

Dog good combination of mental and physical ***

Pig too divided * (not!)

*dispute **keep working at it ***intense sexual attraction ****angelic

EAST MEETS WEST:

SCORPIO SNAKE

These individuals have hidden emotions and feelings that rarely ever surface. They are quite guarded with their thoughts and opinions and do not upset easily.

Celebration

Today is my Anniversary with Jet.

Wow! Another year for us! I can’t believe that we’re still going strong and many things have changed since the first day we met at Shangri-La Mall for coffee three years ago. Who would have thought we’ll last this long…

My close friends tell me that they haven’t seen me this happy.

Yes, I am happy.

Contented.

Happy.

This is not “just” a relationship but THE relationship for me. I couldn’t ask for more.

Thank you Jeriel Tristan Cabico Pasion. Thank you for all the love. Thank you for the most wonderful three years of my life.

Love you.

My Boyfriend Is A Pig!

Born under the Year of the Pig that is... :p

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The Pig is a fun and enlightening personality blessed with patience and understanding. People born under the sign of the Pig enjoy life and all it has to offer, including family and friends. They are honest and thoughtful and expect the same of other people. Pigs can be perceived as oblivious or gullible because they do care about others so much that they will do just about anything for a friend in need.

THE SIGN OF THE PIG:

"Its better to give than to receive" would probably be the Pig’s motto. Pigs are more comfortable giving of their own time or attention than they are to ask others for it. They do not find asking for help an easy task and would rather carry the burden themselves. Pigs will do anything they can to maintain a sense of peace amongst family or friends. This can lead to a tendency to be taken advantage of, but Pigs basically forgive and forget everything. They are compassionate souls who simply want to keep the peace.

IN YOUR ELEMENT:

THE WATER PIG 1923 AND 1983

Water Pigs go with the flow and usually trust people before they truly know them. This, of course, can get them into trouble because they are often to trusting for their own good. Water Pigs are quite easily influenced; yet, can be very persuasive when it comes to getting what they want. These people love parties and social situations and enjoy giving of themselves to help others.

THE PIG LOVER:

Pigs are great partners to have because they are so supportive and giving of themselves. They are happiest at home, so arguments about late nights out with friends are few and far between for the Pig and his mate. Pigs are sexual creatures who love to be affectionate. (TRUE!)

MARRIAGE:

Pigs are wonderful companions, appreciative and caring. They are grateful for the things they have, especially a loving and healthy family. Once they choose a partner, they are in it for the long haul. Pigs do not like discord and will do whatever it takes to maintain a peaceful homestead. (awwww!)

THE PIG IN LOVE:

Pigs make good partners and most people would consider themselves lucky to be involved with one. Still, some people are not suited for a Pig’s easygoing nature. (i'm really lucky!)

PARTNERS IN LOVE:

Pig & Rat = You’ll have a tendency to spend a lot of money, but you’ll have a lot of fun doing it!

Pig & Ox = You are two sexually charged individuals…work on a mental relationship as well.

Pig & Tiger = You share trust and friendship.

Pig & Rabbit = Affectionate and caring, you’re headed for a wonderful companionship.

Pig & Dragon = A loving and warm relationship.

Pig & Snake = Not enough in common to commit to a stable union. (duh! i'm a Snake, but we DO have LOTS of things in common... that's why we lasted this long)

Pig & Horse = Easygoing but maybe too much so for your own good.

Pig & Sheep = Trust and honesty make this a winning combination.

Pig & Monkey = Sexual tension is heightened by a constant need to disagree.

Pig & Rooster = Even though you disagree on a few things, if you try to make it work it will be great.

Pig & Dog = Stable and supportive, but not much passion or fire.

Pig & Pig = You are off to a good start, but eventually it fades.

LOVE PARTNERS AT A GLANCE:

Pig with Tips on Togetherness Compatibility

Rat happiness prevails ***

Ox be persistent **

Tiger humorous ***

Rabbit very enjoyable ****

Dragon quite stable! ***

Snake differing opinions * (we do have different opinions about a lot of things which leads to long conversations when we're together. no dull moment so far. but we seldom fight about it. we respect each other's thoughts and feelings towards certain issues. it's more exciting and fun that way)

Horse unrealistic **

Sheep heavenly! ****

Monkey vivid and vivacious ***

Rooster infinitely successful ***

Dog genuine and true ***

Pig a bit unnerving **

*dispute **keep working at it ***intense sexual attraction ****angelic

EAST MEETS WEST:

ARIES PIG

Full of energy and vive, these are affectionate lovers. They hunger for responsibility both mentally and physically. (very true...)

Surprise! Surprise! Surprise!

What a day! I never saw it coming... :p

I woke up a little bit late. Had my brunch and was planning to just go online for the rest of the day (after being down for four days! Fucking ISP!) When Jet called and asked if I was busy. I told him not so… then he said if I don’t mind meeting him for coffee at Megamall. Huwat! Its 12:30 and I haven’t showered yet and this guy wants me to be in Megamall within an hour. Hhhm… I could smell something fishy here. He’s crazy or he’s up to something really big. Nevertheless, I’ve been missing the guy for days now and I couldn’t wait till tomorrow to see him. So I said yes. And would you believe, within an hour I was in Megamall… Express shower, express bihis, express taxi driver. Hahaha!!!

Coffee he said, but when I got there he was inside Hap Chan (a Chinese restaurant) beside Starbucks. He said it was too noisy to talk in Starbucks, too many people. Ok. I scanned the table and saw an Air21 plastic envelope containing six original CD’s he bought from an eBay guy he met earlier. Six CD’s for eight hundred bucks. No scratch, very much new. Hhmm… okay he just wants coffee after all AND to see me. But why is there a sudden “twinkle” in his eyes. He seems agitated. I could feel something is about to happen yet clueless of what it is. Then all of a sudden he gave me this calling card size paper containing a message I hardly understood, because when he put the damn thing in front of me, I froze and my heart beat stopped for a few seconds and I was thinking.. OH MY GAWD! WHAT IS THIS!!!??? He was grinning and was getting something out of his pocket… Still mesmerized and shocked by the piece of paper, he put this little black velvet box in front of me. OH MY! OH MY! Is all I could think. He was turning red. REALLY RED. He was squirming. He was stammering something that I couldn’t understand. I was paralyzed. Then I started to laugh silly. Laugh in a way that, I felt so “kilig” and I couldn’t believe Jet was trying all his best to be romantic about it but was failing really bad, but he was soooo damn cute. I wanted to hug him there and kiss him all over. Then we were both giggling like highschool kids. It took me a few minutes before I opened the box and saw the ring…

A ring that means a lot to him...

A ring that symbolizes a lot of things in our relationship...

A ring that binds me to him, until that day…

A ring...

(sorry for the awful camera shot... hehehe)

Haayy…. I can’t explain the feeling. I’m like and still am floating. It’s like you want to preserve that moment and replay it over and over and over again. Everything was priceless.

So what if he proposed to me inside a Chinese restaurant... So what if there are no roses… No sweet music… So what if he didn’t go down on one knee… So what if he stammered saying the words… Still it was the most romantic thing that ever happened to me and the most wonderful feeling I ever felt…

God… He was happy. You could see it. He is happy.

After that… We went straight to one of our favorite resto to celebrate. An event like that deserves one good meal…

We said goodbye by 3:30 He still has work tonight at 9 till 6 the next day. From work he’ll be going straight here and I’ll be cooking lunch. Can’t wait to hug and kiss him…

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Thank you. Thank you for all the love. Thank you for coming into my life and staying. Thank you for believing in us, for making this relationship work, for being strong, for being who you are. Thank you for being my best friend, for being there when I needed someone. Thank you.

Looking forward for more years together…

Books

I’ve decided to read again.

A few days ago I bought a couple of books by Paulo Coelho, The Devil & Miss Prym and Warrior of the Light at Sketch Books Greenbelt 3. I was thinking of ways to kill my idle time, mostly at night. Then going back to my first passion came into mind. Reading. It is also a great way of not missing Jet, who is already working from Tuesday to Saturday, 3pm to 11pm… And I wanted to rekindle my relationship with Paulo Coelho. The last book I read written by him was Eleven Minutes and that was ages ago…

I’ve already started Warrior of the Light…

Last night, while lounging at Fez with Jet (at Serendra) I remember there is “A Different Bookstore” located at the same vicinity. So I told him I’ll just check the place while he waits for our orders. There, I bought another couple of books, one by Paulo - The Zahir and the other a paperback copy of The Eldest (I’ve been waiting for it) by Christopher Paolini.

Hay… I hope I’ll be able to read all of them. To think that I still have two books by Coelho that I haven’t touch yet, The Pilgrimage and The Fifth Mountain and one that I’ve started to read months ago but wasn’t able to finish, The Valkyries. They’re all gathering dust on my table… Hehehe!!! So guilty!

But I’m making a resolution (for the Chinese New Year)… I’m going to read all of them within the year.

Good luck to me… But then… If Harry Potter Book 7 comes out… Well… I will make an exemption…. Hope that it’ll have a GOOD ending though…

Happy reading!

Vanity

with Ate Marly my ever loyal nail technician

A day in Tips 'N Toes (Megamall) with Jetong. Nahawa narin sa akin. Hehehe!!! Minsan ayoko lang isama si Jetong doon dahil gumugulo ang Salon. Ang kulit kulit kasi. Pasaway! Pero gustong gusto namang magpalinis ng kuko lalo na ang masahe ni Ate Marly. :p (1.28.07)

Enero 2007

Isang buwan na pala...

Ang tagal na...

Ano bang nangyari sa akin...

Madami rin...

Pagbabago...

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Bago matapos ang taong 2006, nagkasakit si Lisa. Hindi ko akalaing mag-iisa sya sa pagsalubong sa taong 2007. Kailangan ko kasing iwan sya sa doktor nya nung december 31 ng umaga. Bigla nalang nanamlay at hindi kumakain. Natakot ako. Sabi ni Doc Romy, iwan ko daw at oobserbahan nya. Ayun, kahit masakit sa aking loob dahil unang beses sana kaming magkakasama sa bagong taon, naiwan sya. Sa gitna ng putukan, alak at bbq, iniisip ko kung natatakot ba sya sa mga putok o maigi na ba sya. Hay, ganun talaga.

Kinabukasan, hindi ako nakatiis at kinuha ko na sya. Akalang talaga magaling na. Yun pala hindi parin. Nararamdaman kong may masakit parin sa kanya. Dinala ko sya ulit sa isa pa nyang doktor kay Doc Martinez at doon nakita namin na may sugat pala sya na hindi gumagaling. Buti nalang at naagapan naman. Ngayon, balik na sya sa dating makulit at pasaway na ugali nya.

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Enero, nagsimula narin kaming magkita-kita ng barkada hindi dahil may okasyon, dahil gusto lang namin magkita-kita. Mag-usap tungkol sa aming buhay-buhay. Halos tuwing sabado ay magkasama kami ni Mariel. Maganda. Dahil isang pagkakataong magkaroon ulit ng isang "bonding" na matagal-tagal narin naming hindi nagagawa dahil sa abala na sa trabaho at sari-sariling buhay. Bakit nga naman hindi, ngayong lima nalang kaming natitira dito sa Pinas eh, hindi pa ba kami magkikita-kita. Nakakamiss din naman ang barkada. Di tulad nung highschool. Halos araw-araw magkakasama... Ngayon maswerte na kung makumpleto kaming siyam (ang ika sampu namin ay hindi na namin nakita simula nung kolehiyo). Lalo na ngayong ang isa ay nasa Australia, ang iba'y nasa Singapore, Malaysia at ang isa nama'y matagal nang nasa Amerika. Nakakalungkot... Nakakamiss...

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Enero rin ng magsimula sya sa kanya trabaho. Isang malaking adjustment sa aming dalawa. Lalo na sa akin.

Nung nalaman ko na nag-aapply sya sa call center, okay lang. Lahat ng suporta na gusto nya ibinigay ko sa kanya. Naiintindihan ko ng kaunti ang buhay call center. Dahil halos lahat ng barkada ko yun ang trabaho. Pero iba parin pala kung karelasyon mo na ang biglang nasabak sa ganung industriya. Malaking "adjustment" talaga.

Masaya ako para sa kanya. Masaya. Pero hindi ko magawang tumawa o ipakita sa kanya na masaya ako. Tinanong nya nga ako kung bakit mukhang hindi ako masaya dahil iba ang boses ko sa telepono. Hindi ko sya masagot. Masaya ako sa totoo lang pero hindi ko mawari kung bakit hindi ako matawa o makaramdam na parang gusto kong lumundag o gumulong-gulo sa tuwa. Isang malaking "achievement" para sa kanya yun, kung mahal ko sya at hanggad ko rin ang mabuti para sa kanya (pagkatapos lahat ng paghihirap at mali ng nakaraan) dapat tumambling ako sa tuwa ngayon. Pero hindi. Isa akong malamig na yelo na kausap nya sa telepono. Pero masaya ako para sa kanya.

Kagabi. Dahil sa isang mababaw na pangyayari ay nalaman ko ang kasagutan kung bakit hindi ako tumatambling.

Nung nakaraang biyernes ay nagsimula na sya sa training nya sa Alabang. Kasama parin ang mga kaibigan simula't sapul syang nag sanay sa Future Perfect palang. Sabihin na nating may nabuong barkadahan. At syempre sa isang barkadahan, pag nagkakatuwaan hindi mo maiaalis na maginuman para ipagdiwang ang ilang bagay. Noong una, nung nakapasa silang lahat sa CCT nila sa Makati (isang dalawang linggong pagsasanay). Tumawag sya, pauwi palang, galing Las Pinas, at ayun! Lasing na lasing. Nakuha pang magmaneho at maghatid ng mga kaibigan. Nag alala lang ako dahil hindi naman ganun yun. Bulol na eh. Nainis ako. Tapos nasundan pa. Unang gabi ng sahod nila. Uminom ulit. Okay fine. Ipagdiwang ang unang gabi ng sahod. Naintindihan ko. Masaya sya. At ang sabi ay hindi naman daw gabi-gabi yun at hindi na mauulit. Aba! Kagabi lang... Naginuman nanaman. Teka lang, ang sabi hindi gabi-gabi. Pero ayan nakainom nanaman. Ang gulo rin kausap. Nainis ako. Umiyak ako sa inis. Pero hindi ko sya inaway o hindi ako nagtext ng kung ano-ano.

Nanahimik ako at dun ko naisip kung bakit ba ako hindi natutuwa sa lahat ng pangyayari. Dahil natatakot akong mawala sya. Natatakot akong mapunta sa puntong sasabihin kong "I've lost him." Na tuluyang nagbago sya dala ng trabaho. Hindi naman sa wala akong tiwala sa kanya. Natatakot ako sa mga impluwensya ng mga tao sa paligid nya at dagdagan pa ng "pressure" sa trabaho. Hindi sa wala akong tiwala eh... Natatakot ako sa mga bagay na pwedeng mangyari sa kanya at sa aming dalawa... O sadyang mapaglaro lamang ang aking isipan. Hindi ko alam. Isa na siguro yung nalulungkot ako dahil masaya sya pero hindi nya ako kasama. Kailangan ko pang maghintay ng Linggo bago ko sya makita. O ayaw ko lang maulit ang nakaraan... Ewan. Ang gulo ko.

Sana tumambling nalang ako.

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Noong kaarawan ni Mariel (January 20), nagkita-kita kami sa Makati. Nag meryenda kami nila Tet at Mariel sa Bizu. Masarap. Nakakatuwa. Maganda. Nagustuhan ko ang Afternoon Tea. Sumunod naman si Jet mula sa CCT nya at dumaan saglit (kelangan nyang umalis din at dadaan ba sa Bangkal, sa lola at lolo nya). Kwentuhan. Maagang umalis si Tet dahil may trabaho pa kinabukasan. Kami ni Mariel nagpunta sa Salcedo Park at nagkwentuhan ulit. Hanggang sa mag 7:30 pm na yata iyon o 8pm at kami'y muling bumalik sa Greenbelt 3 para kitain sila Jai at Jordan (ang kanyang boyfriend) para naman sa dinner. Kaso dahil sa madami kaming nakain sa Bizu, dessert nalang daw sa Max Brenner. Nakauwi na ako ng 12 ng gabi. Ewan ko ba kung anong naisip ko at ako'y omorder ng dark chocolate shake at chocolate souffle. Pag uwi ko sa bahay, feeling ko mamamatay na ako. Tumaas ata presyon ko at madaling araw na ay dilat na dilat parin ang mata ko. Okay! High sa chocolate. Hindi ko na uulitin yun. Promise.

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Kahapon naman ay nagkita kami ulit ni Mariel para mag meryenda sa Bizu at kunin ko ang aking pinabiling tsinelas. Salamat mare!

Noon ayaw na ayaw kong pumunta sa Makati. Dahil mahirap sumakay ng taxi, trapik at pakiramdam ko ay malayo. Pero ngayon, unti-unti na akong nasasanay. Hhhmm... hindi kaya'y ito ay isang senyales???

Nang ano naman? Ewan!

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Sa lahat ng buwan sa loob ng isang taon, Enero ang pinaka nakakadepress at nakakastress para sa akin. Tested na yan maski noong nakaraang taon. Siguro dahil nagsisimula palang ang taon. May hang-over ka pa nung nakaraang taon at nastrestress ka kung anong mangyayari sa bagong taon. Para masarap dahil malamig ngayon ang panahon... Hehehe!

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Enero 26, Umuwi si Kuya Peter (asawa ni Ate Cindy), naiyak ako nung nakita ko sya. Niyakap ko. Dahil namimiss ko Ate ko at mga pamankin ko. Kasi parang sya ang koneksyon ko sa kanya. Wala lang. Kung nandito lang si Ate... maraming hindi sana nangyari. Sana... Kaso nangyari na. Wala nang balikan pa.

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Enero rin naglabasan ang mga Slim version ng Havaianas... Balik naman sa kaadikan. Butas nanaman ang bulsa. Taghirap nanaman... tsk tsk tsk! Hehehe!

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Hay.. Pebrero na... Sana magbago na ang ikot ng mundo. Sana bigyan pa ako ng katinuan. Sana hindi mabaliw si Jet sa akin. Sana malamig parin ang panahon para masarap matulog...