Monday mornings...

I know we had the same work days and I know practically his schedule now… Hehehe!!! But what surprises me is that I see him much often now even though he should be on the floor but he’ll be in the pantry when it’s my lunch and I would find him in Hacienda when we’re about to go home. Crazy coincidence….

I don’t want to assume things because mahirap umasa diba? Hirap madisappoint… But I love seeing him around though… Hehehe… And trying to figure out what the heck is it tattooed on his neck! My friends can’t read it either… All the more curious I am…

I didn’t see him last Saturday and all my teammates were looking for him too… I learned from TL Jei-Ar that he came to work late - around 11am and I was home by then… Oh well… I’ll see him on later hopefully…

But then, Michigan people will have a different bay na… Huhuhu!!!

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Saturday night was Dhezie’s birthday dinner. Went there a little bit late because I woke up late and had a little bit of stomach ache too. Ako pa daw yung malapit lang ang house tapos ako pa daw ang late.. Hehehe!!! I was supposed to be there around 7am kaso I woke up at 7:30pm took time to get ready and finally when I’m all dressed up sumakit naman ang tiyan ko… Finally at 9:30pm I was bound to her place which is only a 5minute ride from my place… I arrived finding Ron and her husband already there, Kim and her girlfriend Joey, Benny and his boyfriend Jovan and Dhezie’s friends Joseph and Anthony… Nagiinuman na sila.. I brought with me some of the left over alcohol from our team building – 2 grand matador 1 liter each – which was consumed in less than an hour I think… Hay! Then Ruby came, Madam and TL Jei-Ar… Kwentuhan and more alcohol was bought.

Then TL and I got to talk about the guy I like. That’s when he told me he was late earlier kaya di ko sya nakita. Jei-Ar and another TL- JM calls him “angas factor” daw… Hindi daw sya ganun ka guapo… which I find true… hindi sya ganun ka guapo, pero may dating! Hehehe! May angas! We agreed that he speaks English really good and sounds even better… Some of my friends ang biruan namin tungkol sa kanya is that “parang di ka daw bubuhayin sa kama!” Hahaha!!! Syeet! He’s not that tall, pero maputi at malinis tingnan… I find him really nice to look at… Everytime na naiisip kong napapagod nako mag take ng calls, all I have to do is think about seeing him at 6:00am in the morning and all will be worth it na… Hahaha!!! Really.. minsan, naiisip ko lang na makikita ko na sya in a few more hours and everything will be well… Nakakalokah…

TL Jei-Ar said he would find a way to speak to him and find out his name… Ha! Para talagang highschool feeling ko.. May crush crush pang nalalaman ang gagah! Oh well.. He is one of the reasons why I love working though aside from having good friends and not having a boring weekend anymore…

Anyways, back to Dhezie’s birthday dinner. Love the kare-kare though… maski unti lang kinain ko dahil masakit parin ang tiyan ko… Got a chance to speak with Anthony and learned that he lives one street away from me lang pala… He was a bit drunk narin Hehehe…. Ang kulit kulit about Baliwag Lechon insisting that we owned the place.. Hahaha!!! Around 4am narin ako nakauwi… Didn’t drink that much though…

Sunday… woke up at around 8:30am… Spent the whole day with my Edward… Ang kulit kulit.. haba narin ng hair nya… Walang ginawa kundi mangulit at mangagat… Hay! Watched TV and DVD the whole day.. By 5:30pm I was asleep already and now… Woke up at 2:30am.. Nothing to do.. Hahaha!!! Edward’s gone… back to his cage.. Didn’t realized that Jenelyn took him na…

Hmmm… Need to go St Joseph later.. was not able to go last night… Hay….

Hahaha!!!

What is it like working in a call center? Well it is something that I didn’t expect that I would like and that I would enjoy. Honestly at first I was having a hard time adjusting with the work hours, especially when we got pulled out from our original account and was trained for five days – only! and was transferred to a different market and got a new schedule. It was one hell of transition. But in the end it was worth it… Why? Because I got to notice someone I would like on the floor... Hahaha!!! Actually it is not my priority at all. I discovered him by accident. I just used to see him every now and then but I was so occupied with my own work that I would think of him in passing. But right after our training, and we learned how petiks the new market was – at first, we had nothing to do at times, I found myself staring at him every chance I get. Hahaha! Parang highschool! Our bay was just next to theirs and I wouldn’t have a hard time finding him. Then, one day, during our petiks moment my friend, Dhez and I got to talk about him and Dhez started teasing me about him and when he passed by my station because at that time I was by the aisle. God! I was so embarrassed! I knew he heard Dhez because he looked at me. Para talagang highschool!!! Hahaha! Now, I don’t know if it’s by chance or whatever because I don’t want to give any meaning to it, he would seat where I’m facing. Shit talaga! Just like today, there are times that I would catch him staring at me and he would catch me staring at him and there was an instant that I was hiding behind my monitor and he would stand up, pretend to do something or whatever and I would catch him staring at me. Haaay! Ano ba un?! Hahaha!!! I’m not in love okay… I just like looking at him. At seven in the morning, he is someone I look forward to seeing everyday. He’s so yummy to look at… Hahaha!!!

Alex is another story. My teammate, actually I don’t know when it started, maybe during one of our drinking session. It began as a joke. I would tease him and everybody would tease us. Then during Jev’s birthday (Dhez’s husband), Alex and I became boyfriend and girlfriend for the night! Hahaha! Because RJ was teasing us and wouldn’t stop, until Alex told him yes we are an item and we held hands all night. But it was only because RJ wouldn’t stop and because of the alcohol.. Hahaha!!!! After the party, the whole team learned about that joke time we had and begun teasing us and Alex and I would pretend to be bf and gf on the floor.. Hahaha! It’s funny because he is not my type at all and I just find him very mabait and so serious with work. (We got to share our life story during one of the weekends we were forced to go to work and there was no call at that time.)

During our team building, we had this “honoring time” where in we talk about each other and saying only the positive things… When it was my turn and Alex was about to say something about me… the whole team erupted with laughter and kept teasing us. They called us Mommy and Daddy because we were the ones involved in the kitchen, while Alex was cooking our dinner, I was preparing our table. Hahaha! It was so fun… I kept asking Alex if he’s getting pikon na… And he would say no naman… Its all for fun though… Until now.. we would tease each other na kami na nga… and I would ask him “why sinagot mo na ba ako?” in which he would gladly say “matagal na kaya!” and the team would tease us endless… Dhez is the culprit though… She is pushing me towards Alex… Hahaha!!! Not yet Dhez.. I’m not ready for another relationship again… I want to enjoy every moment muna of being single.

I remember what one of my highschool buddy told me… “dyan nagsisimula yan.. sa tukso-tukso, one thing you know, kayo na pala….” Hahaha!!! Maybe, maybe not...

We’ll see…. Hahaha!!!

Is it really possible to be completely healed from a broken heart after just a few months?

In truth, yes it is possible because I have learned to forgive him and that is why now I can say that I have finally move on with my life. No more hoping and wishing for him to come back or to love me again. No more self pity no more this and that… No more regrets… Just a time to start loving myself and moving forward…

I never knew how wonderful it is to feel so free and liberated from all the angst of the past. I just woke up one day and felt no more loneliness or sadness of missing him or the bitterness of learning he found someone else. At first I felt betrayed, who wouldn’t be? But then again, it was a very slow process of healing and recovery and in the end I did survive it. What I learned from that experience, is that he was not the end of my life but the beginning of a new me and a new adventure.

It was a good start for the year 2010. Work is okay and I’m getting used to it now. The people I work with are great. We continue to know each other better and bond like a real family. Weekends now are spent either drinking session with them or just at home relaxing. Don’t have to worry about anything or anyone else but myself, my doggies and the people around me. I now have all the time in my life to do whatever I want and need. I never knew it could be this way, I thought a single person’s life is boring. Well, now I know why some people choose to be single. But of course I’m not closing my door to know someone someday and have a true partner in life not just a lover but somebody who would really go through life with me.

But for now, I’m pretty much content with what’s happening with my life. I couldn’t ask for more…

“Life is pretty simple…

If you ask for apples and you get lemons, make lemonade.

If you are on your way out and it starts to rain, at least you don’t have to water the plants.

It’s a matter of seeing things in perspective. The benefits may not be immediate or obvious,

but we have to know that there are problems and struggles.

Have faith. Enjoy life. Take it easy.

If today you’re picking the grapes, tomorrow you’ll be drinking the wine.”