Ex

Before, hinahabol kita pero di mo ako pinapansin. Tapos isang araw nawala ako, hinanap mo ako at tinanong, "Bakit ka nagsawa?" Ngumiti ako, "Hindi ako nagsawa. Natauhan lang." Pwede mo kong lokohin pero wag kang magpapahuli sakin. Pwede mo kong palitan pero siguraduhin mong mas mahal mo siya sakin. Pwede mo kong iwan pero siguraduhin mong kaya mo. Kasi pag ako sobrang nasaktan, wala ka nang babalikan.

Boys? Pag trip ka, magpapakilala. Kaibigan kuno hanggang pumorma na.Tapos pag nahulog ka na, ayun, goodbye na dahil sawa na sila. Pero dapat walang iiyak at smile lang tayo. Punyeta, anong silbi ng karma? I fell in love and got hurt but I didn't shed too much tears nor did I ask him to love me again. Instead, I stood up proudly and Simple lang para hindi ka masaktan. Kapag minahal ka, mahalin mo din. Kapag ginago ka, gaguhin mo rin. Pero kapag umiyak ka, tanga ka! Ginago ka na nga, iiyakan mo pa? Pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo, wag mo siyang sisihin! Kausapin mo siya ng harap-harapan at sabihin mong, "Ingat, tanga ka pa naman!" Masakit pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo. Pero wag kang magagalit ng husto.Kahit papano may pinagsamahan naman kayo, diba? Kaya for the last time yakapin mo siya at ibulong mo, "Gago, kukulamin kita!"

Girls, talo daw tayo sa mga boys? Papayag kayo? Sige, pag niligawan tayo, sagot agad. Pag iniwan tayo? Ok lang. Kapag sinabi nilang, "Uy, ex ko." Alam niyo sagot diyan? "Ay, ambisyoso."

If the one you love doesn't love you back, don't get depressed. Just think about it for a while, maybe cry a bit then wipe your tears and say, "Ang weird naman niya. Di siya pumapatol sa magaganda!"

You only got one life so live it well., one heart so take good care, one soul so keep it pure. One boyfriend? What a waste! Make it two or more! Sayang ganda natin! Pag sinabi sayo ng mahal mo na ayaw na niya sayo, hayaan mo lang. Wag kang iiyak at magpapakagago! Imbis na iyakan mo siya, ngitian mo lang at sabihin mo ang ganito, "So, pano? Bye na! Naghihintay na ang kapalit mo!"

Who cares about break-ups? Oo nga, masakit. Makirot sa puso. Pero tandaan mo: a break-up isn't only an end to a relationship. It's also a beginning of a new one and an end to a living hell called "ex".

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Tet sent this to me... You’re right mare. We should've done this before... Hehehe! But in a more serious note, I am grateful with my past relationships because they made me stronger and mature. I guess, not committing the same mistake is the best lesson I got. Now that we’re both in a good relationship, diba worth it naman all the things we went through? Otherwise we wouldn't meet our wonderful boyfriends… Hehehe!!!

Do-It-Yourself indeed!

Funny thing happened to me yesterday. I don’t know if you’ll find it funny or something na super duper asar talaga. After we parked at Gateway Mall, Jet discovered ang tigas daw ng manibela. After a quick look under the hood, he said drain daw ang power steering fluid. So we decided to look for one at Do-It-Yourself store inside the mall. When we entered the store, this guard, this trying-hard-to-look-mean guard, suddenly told me with no air of respect “Paki iwan ang bag!” nag sabi pa sya ng “paki” eh pasigaw at galit naman ang tono nya. Right that instant I felt my face turned red and hot. Lumingon ako sa kanya at sabay taas ng kilay, “Sigurado ka!?” Hindi sya makasagot, ewan ko ba kung iling o tango yung ginawa nya e. Nung hindi sya sumagot I told him, “E pano pera ko!? Nandito!” Sabay irap. Fuckers talaga! Eh si Jetong was already talking to a sales rep so he didn’t know what was going on. Nung lumapit ako sa kanya tinuro na sya sa baba so sumunod nalang ako sa kanya. While walking away I heard someone asked the guard kung ano daw yung commotion, I don’t know what the guard said but the person who asked him followed us downstairs. My goodness!!! Talk about discrimination. Tapos to top it all wala pa silang power steeling fluid! Kala ko ba do-it-yourself… eh di naman pala kumpleto. Ewan!

Nakakaasar kasi. Just because we were not dressed o naka porma eh ganun nalang kami tingnan. Purket naka pambahay lang kami. So what!? Dun ba based kung ano pagkatao mo?! Ano ang pwede mong gawin?! At laman ng wallet mo?! Sus! Gusto kong sampalin ng pera yung guard eh… Ano palagay nya magshoshoplift kami?! Grabe! Ang nakakaasar pa nun, while we were leaving the store biglang may pumasok na isang family na may mga bag na dala, he didn’t asked them to leave their belongings. That really pissed me off. Tiningnan ko talaga ng masama yung guard eh. Yoko lang talaga mag cause the scene. Gusto ko pa sanang humirit eh. Sayang! Babalikan ko yung guard na yun. Hehehe!

Nakakapagtaka lang talaga, I’ve been going to that place countless times. Pero ngayon lang ako napagsabihan ng ganun. Nakaka degrade lang. Kasi buti kung lahat ng tao sinabihan nya pero kung ikaw lang diba it’s clearly a bigotry. Bigot! Asar talaga!

I’m reacting this way because I’m not like that. I don’t judge people of their social standing or character based on their appearance because I don’t want to be judged too. I try to keep an open mind towards other people. I know the guard is doing his job but I hoped he was fair with his judgment. Basta! May araw din yun sa akin! Tomorrow maybe! I’ll be meeting Jet for a lunch date. Maybe I’ll drop by there to buy some stuff. Hehehe!

Sinabi ko nga kay Jet eh.. He jokingly said “Ano!? Balikan natin?!” Hay nako! As if naman! Nanood nalang kami ng The Pink Panther… Yun lang... Basta asar yung guard na yun... May araw rin yun sa akin.

Tiendesitas

Ever since Jet and I discovered this place and saw it as a haven for pet lovers, we go there as often as we could. Seeing dogs and being around them somehow relaxes me. I think it’s my therapy. Plus Mac's Original Vigan Empanada and Okoy are very addictive. Like yesterday, we just when there to have a couple of empanadas even though it was a bit late already. Grabe! The 15-20 minutes wait is all worth it. To have that hot and tasty empanada dip into original Ilocos vinegar… Yum! Yum! Syet! Naglalaway nanaman ako. Hehehe!

Seriously, the place is relaxing. Hindi masyado crowded. I guess siguro sa umpisa palang yan.. Maybe after SM Pasig opens magiging crowded na… Hay.. Sayang. I really like it there pa naman. Daming food kiosk na pagpipilian, mga kikay tiange, antique stores , garden supply and the best among the rest – daming pet stores! Mahihilo ka kakapili kung san ka bibili ng supply mo. And you get the chance to interact with other pet lovers and their pets. Di katulad sa mga malls na medyo mahal pa at konti lang ang choices at ang kausap mo lang eh mga masusungit na tindera. Parking is the only hassle... liit lang ang area for parking kasi e. But still, magtiatiaga kami ni Jet mag ikot ikot basta maka-hang out lang dun. Hehehe!

Love Wounds

"di-bi-na"

Just three days old! Jetong likes to call it his "love wounds". Drama noh... Grabe! Wa ako ma say!

Oh My God!

Alam ko na gift ni Jetong sa akin for our second year anniversary! I forced him to tell me last Friday. He's bad talaga in lying. Hehehe!!! And I can't believe he did such thing! He already had it done yesterday. And according to the reaction of people who have seen it… it’s very very very nice daw! I can’t wait to see it on Tuesday!

Until now, I can’t understand how someone could do something like that. I know people will do anything in the name of love but to have your girlfriend or boyfriends name etched on your body is too much! Wouldn’t you say? Of course it is! And of course it is oh soooo romantic. But there are also factors that you should consider like what if you guys break-up (i hope not!), what happens to the tattoo? You have it erased? What will your next partner think? Wouldn’t you worry what he or she will feel about it? But then, Jetong is Jetong. On the other hand, I really really appreciate it. And honestly, this is the first time I felt appreciated and loved so much. Yung pinakita yung pagpapahalaga sa pagkatao mo, sa pagmamahal na binibigay mo sa kanya ng walang takot na husgahan ng ibang tao o mapintasan. Walang material na bagay makakasukli nun and I think his way of tattooing my name to his body is his way of saying “thank you for making a difference in my life”.

Until now I’m still lost for words to describe how I feel. I still couldn’t believe he did it. Actually, he was planning to have his third tattoo last year pa for his birthday and he wants that tattoo to be something that would signify me. Like my zodiac sign. (But the plan never pushed through - until now) What really surprised me was I never thought he would tattoo my name. Bonga talaga! Biglang humaba hair ko tuloy! Hihihi!

Now, I don’t know if I could equal that in any other way. I'm too chicken to have anything tattooed on me eh! But he said I don’t need too. Enough na daw yung mga ginawa ko for him or the things I gave him in the past.

Hay nako! Basta… Can’t wait for Tuesday so I’ll see it with my own eyes. Ganda ganda daw e…

Love you Jetong!!! Grabeee!!!

HaPpY VaLeNtInEs DaY!!!

Last night we were supposed to have a simple dinner at Bellini's, located at Marikina Shoe Expo, Cubao. But when we got there at around six, the waiter told us they’re only accepting people who had reservation beforehand as they are fully booked that night. (Why didn’t I called and made that reservation!) What a bummer… Jet didn’t want to go elsewhere and I was really not particular that night. Just want to be with him - anywhere. But he wanted that day to be a little bit special because it would be our first time to celebrate hearts day just the two of us (corny noh?!). Last year we were with my best friend Jai at Eastwood just fooling around the place. But last night was different. Then he told me to just seat back and relax… He was heading to C5 and I thought “Hmm… baka Eastwood uli!” but I was wrong, he drove passed Eastwood and I thought again maybe he’s bringing me to his house in Muntinlupa and celebrate it with his friends or his siblings. But I was wrong again… Passing the Susana Heights Exit we headed south even more. Hay… he told me to sleep nalang muna.. and I did because I was kinda tired and the motion of the car is rocking me to sleep… When I woke up we were in Sta. Rosa going to Tagaytay! I looked at him and saw him smiling… “Tagaytay noh!?!” I asked him, “Yup!” was all he said. I was ecstatic! Aww… How romantic naman! I told him bakit ang layo naman… He said if we’re going to stay in the metro area it would seem too be any ordinary day for us… Eh dinner in Tagaytay is not like we could do every time we meet daw… Hehehe!

When we got there a lot of people had the same idea. We decided to go to Josephine’s. We had a wonderful dinner. Ang lamig lamig sobra! I loved the food, the steamed Lapu-lapu and the grilled chicken ceasar. We wanted to have desert sana but then we were so full already… When we left the resto we drove around.. But it was too foggy to see anything nice and it started to rain. At around 11:30 we decided to go home. It was a slow drive back, trying to enjoy every moment of it. All the while I was thinking this monster can be sweet when you least expected it. It’s not in his nature kasi to be romantic and all. Through out dinner he was acting as if we were the only couple there (kulang nalang subuan ako!). Hay… Pag-ibig nga naman… Kung gugustuhin lang, buong buhay mo magbabago talaga.

We had coffee at Eastwood before going home. Konting kwentuhan about us… On the 22th kasi we’ll be celebrating our 2^nd year anniversary. He told me to expect something big… My goodness! What could it be??? I still have a week to make him kulit. Hehehe! He’s not talking daw because he wants to see my reaction when I get it. Hhmm.. all the more making me oh so curious!

Well, anyway, that was my valentine’s day – simple.. Nothing big or anything but definitely something new for me. Truest celebration of what the occasion was…

Just two people in love.

Trip to the Vet

Last Sunday we brought my three dogs to their doctor. It was Lisa's first trip to my vet since I got her a month ago. She's three months old now. Finally had her anti-rabies vaccine and a follow-up vaccine of 5-in-1, her de-worming isn't due for at least 2 more months. She’s in excellent condition.

Mandy on the other hand is sick. She's been shredding a lot of her fur and wouldn't eat right. My vet told me she might have heartworm disease. I’ve only started reading books/magazines about pets and I’ve read some topics about heartworm disease and how it affects our pets. But what I didn’t know was a lot of owners who have dogs infected by this disease had their pets put to sleep instead of going under the knife. My vet said the reason was they’re not sure if the dog could recover from the operation or the disease be cured. So instead of having their pet suffer, they resort to mercy killing. Now now now, that is something I don’t want to do. I love my dogs dearly. If vaccine and medication could help, no matter how much they cost, I would do it. For now, my vet gave her heartworm vaccine, de-worming, medication and a new vitamin. At present I think the vaccines are helping Mandy fight the disease. She’s eating well and isn’t shredding that much. Thank goodness!!! She still has two more vaccines left.

Stanley is as always healthy as ever. I don’t have any problem with him every time we visit the vet. He also had de-worming & heartworm vaccine.

Three dogs and three different personalities. Having them all together in one room could be a complete chaos. Lisa is so loud and always craves for attention; Mandy loves to be scratch and likes to be greeted first; Stanley (pogi) is the quiet one but when Mandy’s there… naku! Sasakit ulo mo! Kakasaway! Hehehe!

At present they keep me busy and happy. Help me with my stress. I just wish Lisa and Mandy could get along… For now I try to keep them separated and limit their interaction… Mandy gets easily irritated with Lisa’s constant barking. After 5 minutes of playing Mandy gets angry and would try to bite Lisa’s head... Just like any ordinary sisters… Hehehe! I love them so much… Mandy’s birthday is on March 26 while Stanley’s on the 5^th... it’s a double celebration for their first year of life…

Hay buhay...

Dalawang linggo. Ang gusto ko lang gawin ay umalis kung may pagkakataon. Lumayo kahit sandali mula sa mga negatibong nakapaligid sa akin. Maski alam kong sa aking pag uwi ay nariyan parin sila. Kahit sandali maalis ko sa aking isipan ang mga problema.

Hindi ko lubusang maisip kung bakit nya nasabi iyon. Maski ba hindi nya harapang sinabi at isang mapapagkatiwalaang tao ang nag paabot sa aking ng balita. Mas paniniwalaan ko ang nagsumbong sa akin. At bakit hindi? Sa aking opinyon, mas tao pa silang nagsabi sa akin dahil alam nila ang katotohanan. Nakakatawa lang talaga. Hindi naman ako agad agad na nagalit dahil alam ko sa isang banda mababanggit nila iyon at gagamiting pang laban sa aking pagkatao.

Ano ba ang pinaguugatan nitong problemang ito? Napakalaki kung aking iisa-isahin pa. Pero sa totoo lang, itong kanyang sinabi ang pinaka naapektuhan ako. Maski ang ibang taong malapit sa akin ay nagalit at sinabing huwag ko na raw kausapin o pansinin sya. Noong una kahit katiting ay may natitira pa akong respeto sa kanya. Pero pagkatapos nyang sabihin iyon laban sa akin ay ayoko na. Tama na siguro yung pinakita kong pagiging tao kung ako’y kanyang kausapin. Sa talikuran lang pala sya magaling. Bakit hindi nya sabihin sa akin ng harapan? Ikaw ba naman ay akusahang hindi mo inaalagaan ang iyong kinalakihang ina dahil hindi mo sya tunay na ina, hindi ka ba masasaktan? Simula nung umalis ang aking Ate patungong Canada, inako ko na ang responsibilidad sa pag aaruga sa aming ina sapagkat ako nalang ang natitirang “anak” na kasama nya sa bahay. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit nya nasabi iyon. Sya na hindi naman namin kasama sa bahay ng buong araw. Hindi naman nya nakikita at di naman nya alam kung anong nangyayari. Yun ba ang dahilan nya para sabihin iyon? Dahil hindi nga nya nakikita? Nakakaawa sya. Wala lang syang masabi laban sa akin at sa mga kasambahay namin na matagal nang nagseserbisyo sa aming pamilya. Kung pupunta man sya ay wala na syang bukang bibig kundi reklamo, puna at pagkakagastusan. Bakit hindi sya magkusang loob at sya mismo gumawa ng mga inuutos nya? Bakit hindi sya ang gumastos at ibigay sa kanya ina? Tutal ay anak rin sya. Ewan ko ba. Hindi naman sya ganyan noon. Hindi sya ganyan noong narito pa si Ate. Bakit ngayon lang sya nagbubunganga at nagrereklamo na animo’y nagugulangan sya at mauubusan ng mana. Ayoko man maging marahas sa aking pananalita pero ito ay totoo at aking nararamdaman. Kung totoo ngang hindi ko inaalagaan ang kanilang ina ang makakapagsabi lang nyan ay ang mga tao ditto sa aming bahay at mga taong nakakakita kay Nanay. Kung sya ay pinababayaan dapat hindi ganyan ang kanyang itsura. Ang ilang bagay na nakakaepekto kay Nanay ay hindi ko na saklaw. May mga bagay o taong nakakaapekto sa kanya na hindi ko naman makokontrol at sana alam ng taong iyon ang ginagawa nya sa kanyang ina. Sa bagay na iyan hindi lang ako ang nakakakita o nakakaobserba. Sana lang maliwanagan ang iyong pag-iisip. Kung ano man ang tinuturo sayo ng iyong magaling na “attorney”, lahat yan babalik sa inyo. Mangilabot kayo! Matakot kayo sa karma!

Hindi ako takot sa inyo. Magsumbong man kayo sa lahat ng kamaganak natin at siraan ako. Wala akong pakialam. Hindi ako naghahanap ng kakampi o nagpapaawa sa kanila tulad ng ginagawa nyo. Dahil alam ko merong nakakakita at nakakaalam ng katotohanan at Sya lang ang maaring maghusga sa akin. Gawin nyo na ang lahat ng paraan, plano, binabalak nyo. Gawin nyo ng gawin. Ang mga bagay na nakuha sa mabilisang paraan ay hindi magtatagal. Ang mga mabagay na nakuha sa masamang paraan ay hindi nagbubunga ng mabuti.

Minsan, nalulungkot rin ako. Dahil hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit nauwi sa ganito ang relasyon naming magkakapatid. Nakakapagod. Pero siguro ito’y isang pagsubok. Siguro sa pagdating ng takdang panahon, maayos rin ang lahat. Pero ngayon, hindi muna. Ayoko muna.

Sa ngayon, ang kinukunan ko ng lakas ay ang mga taong naniniwala sa aking kakayahan. Sa mga taong tunay na nagmamahal at nagmamalasakit sa akin, ang mga taong mapapagkatiwalaan ko maski hindi ko sila kadugo.

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Noong isang gabi, nandito lang kami ni Jet sa bahay. Sandaling nakatulog ako at nagising na nakayakap sya sa akin. Bigla nalang ako naluha dahil sa pagkakataong iyon, naramdaman ko ang kapayapaan, naramdaman ko na parang sinasabi nyang lahat ay maayos rin. Madrama lang akong sadya nitong mga nakakaraang araw. Dala narin siguro ng maraming iniisip na pakiramdam ko’y sasabog na ako. Pag kapiling ko lang sya tsaka lang ako nagiging masaya. At sa mga araw na dapat kami’y magkita doon lang ako nabubuhayan. Nagpapasalamat lang ako dahil nandyan sya para makinig at magbigay ng payo kung kailangan ko. Maski minsan tinotopak na ako. Masaya naman sya dahil natutulungan nya ako kahit papaano. Masaya rin ako dahil kahit anong mangyari nandyan sya at hindi bumibitiw. Hay… sa banding huli, pasalamat narin ako dahil sa lahat ng mga nangyayaring negatibo sa buhay ko may mga bagay parin na nagpapaligaya sa akin. Kahit mga simpleng bagay lang at alam kong may tunay na nagmamahal sa akin.

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Ilang araw nalang araw na ng mga puso… Sabi nya kami’y mag didinner lang. Gusto daw nya subukan itong isang restaurant na nakita nya sa may Cubao area. Medyo tago syang restaurant. Ika nga liblib at hindi masyadong matao, pero sa tingin nya maganda at romantic daw. Bellini’s Italian Restaurant sa may Marikina Shoe Expo. Gusto ko rin subukan yun. Nabasa at nakita ko sa isang tv show. Matagal tagal narin yata yung restaurant na yun.

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Hay buhay parang life….