Movie

Jet, Jai and I watched the last full show of Silent Hill at Gateway awhile ago. It was nice. An ending I didn't expect but nice all in all.

Hindi sya corny. And not your typical good triumphs over evil. Protagonist wins and go home. Medyo weird and sad ang ending. But I liked it. I remember I played it once, Silent Hill 1 ata yun and I only got to the School and after that I didn't have the nerve to continue it. Nerbyosa ang lola. Siguro for a Silent Hill fanatic medyo bitin o maraming kulang sa movie, pero for me maganda na sya... especially the background music... feeling ko talaga I'm playing the game once again. Si Jet tanong ng tanong kung pareho ba sa game yung scene.. ang kulit! 2 hours were worth it! kahit masakit na ang pwet ko... Hehehe!

After watching the film, we went to Que Rico for dinner... Konting kwentuhan about the movie, work and other stuff. First time pala naming manood ng movie with my bestfriend... Hehehe! It was nice.

We can't wait for up coming movies... Like Mission Impossible 3, X-Men 3 and of course what we've been waiting for, The Da Vinci Code. I made him promise we're going to watch sa Globe Platinum para mas sulit. Baka 3 hours kasi yun noh. Hehehe! Para free popcorn narin!

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It's a long weekend today. I'm stuck here at home. Nothing planned. I'm bored to death! I think I'll just reread the Da Vinci Code... Hay...

eBay, Bday and a Gift

I’m eBay addict again. In three days time I’ve bid for five items and I’ve won them all… Haha! Good luck with my savings! I’ve promised myself to never again visit that site and bid (I could only look but not buy! Grrrr!) But alas! I’m always lured to it. I don’t know! Especially with things you don’t usually find in the mall. Like bags, antique stuff (for a much lower price), and expensive (authentic) perfumes for less. I got Victoria’s Secret stuff a hundred bucks lower than the ones you buy in Watsons or in SM, a Burberry Perfume 100ml for less than 2k! And those prices also include the shipping and handling cost. Still it’s a bargain! And their all REAL! And I couldn’t resist buying stuff from my regular suki. Some of them even text me to tell me they got new stuff… Awww!!!

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Jet’s birthday didn’t go the way I planned it should be. The CD and DVD didn’t arrive on time. It was Three days late. According to my sis-in-law, the plane left the package. Bummer! I gave Jet the birthday cards and while he was reading them I slipped the tickets on the table. He was ecstatic! Hehehe! He couldn’t believe he’ll be seeing his long time idol – Rodman. I really don’t know what he sees in him. He’s weird for me. He’s a good a player according to him… Oh well, we just had simple and quiet dinner. Coffee after that and went home. Nothing much really.

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Last Saturday the package did arrived and I was so excited. I’ve waited for it for almost six months. I immediately called Jet and asked him to come over. He didn’t know what I was up to. I just want to give it to him immediately and see his reaction. We met at Cubao and luckily he brought Chocomachine, we’ll be able to hear the CD on our way home. He picked me up at Coffebean and there I gave him the CD all wrapped up. When he opened in, he couldn’t react, he was speechless. Hehehe! Never seen him like that before. Nakakatawa talaga sya.

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Hay… ang init sobra!!!

Birthday

Two days from now is Jet's birthday. I'm so excited, although I’m still waiting for my gift for him to arrive. My sister-in-law told me, she already mailed the package last Monday and it’ll be arriving any day now. It was delayed because of the one week holiday we had. But I told myself it’s just right on time. I just hope it arrives before lunch this Wednesday. Or else… Bitin ang surprise ko for him.

Last year… Well actually I forgot what I gave him. But this year I wanted it to be different, tipong nahirapan talaga ako. Well, actually my sis-in-law had the hard time finding them. Last Christmas I asked her to look for CD’s and DVD’s of the band Sublime (its Jet’s fave band, next to Kapatid and 311). It was supposed to be Christmas Gifts for him but I guess the CD’s were really rare! It took her several months. So when she finally did find them, I realized April na and birthday na nya which is more wonderful! I know he’ll be really surprised. Plus I got 2 complimentary tickets for the May 1 event in Araneta Coliseum. NBA Bad Boy Tour vs The Philippine National Team… Something like that. I just hope he likes them. Hehehe! Who wouldn’t diba?

We still don’t have anything definite to do on his birthday. I told him dinner would be nice or a movie. I’m still thinking how I will present to him his gifts. I thought of giving him cards first, and then while reading them I’ll put the tickets on the table then the CD’s. Oh I don’t know!!! I just have to think of a more romantic or insane idea. Wwhaaa!!!! Mariel is more creative in giving surprises! I’m just a spoiler sometimes. I’m more excited than the recipient.

Esep! Esep!

Globe

Globe is weird lately. Since Wednesday night my prepaid cellphone number is getting Globe Advisory about me receiving 70.00 pesos worth of cash load for being a loyal subscriber. It kept me awake till the wee hours of Thursday. Not until receiving the 15th message did I mute the phone, I had enough! And the next day, I was still receiving 70.00 pesos sometimes 30.00 and sometimes 50.00 So my 216.00 cash load became almost 2,000 pesos. I was giving loads to my Globe Prepaid friends. I felt I don’t need that much loads anyway. But after a few hours I gain double the amount that I gave away! Now what the fuck is happening to Globe? Until now I’m still receiving a few amounts like 30 or 25 pesos. For the record, I have 2,347.00 pesos. Four hours ago I had 2,107.00

I don’t know if I should be happy or be scared. My friends on the other hand think I’m lucky. Hehehe! What will I do with 2,347.00 pesos worth of cash load and 113 free text messages? Plus I’m on a 5-day unlimited text and I have a postpaid account. I don’t text much. I do call a lot but I use my postpaid because I have free minutes of call there.

But anyway, I don’t know when the coming loads would end. Until they do, my friends will get their free loads from me… Hehehe!

DVD's, Fish and lot's of sleep

My Holy Thursday was spent watching DVD’s that Jet and I bought last Wednesday at the last minute; eating fish for breakfast, lunch and dinner and doing a lot of sleeping. The whole house was quiet and the weather was insane. I took five showers in one day. I was bored and craving for a big juicy burger from Bite Club. But it’s a sin to eat anything that’s meat (pork and beef). But I think what it means is that no sex during the holy week. Is it? Or is it not? Anyways, whatever it is, no meat is NO meat.

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Holy Friday our Bisita Iglesia. Jai arrived from work, followed by Jet and Ate Tina and the rest of the gang from Marikina. We visited 6 churches/chapels. Miraculous Church, our parish church here in Project 4, St. Joseph Church in Anonas, Mt. Carmel near Broadway, St. Therese Monastery in Gilmore (my favorite chapel), Mary The Queen in Greenhills and Don Bosco Church Makati (where Jet was Baptized). Only six because we did the last four stations in Don Bosco because it was getting hot and the kids were hungry already. After having lunch we went home to rest. The kids played and we the oldies talked and ate and some slept. Jet watched the DVD’s we bought. At around 6pm we left for Marikina to watch the Aglipay Prosisyon. 34 statues were paraded along Boni Avenue. All traffic was put to halt for almost one hour. But it was a good experience though. In our area, maybe 10 to 12 statues are paraded yearly and it’s nothing compared to what I saw last night. Grabe!

We had dinner at Ate Tina’s place and stayed there till 1am. Jet was sleeping over my place so we were not in the hurry to go home.

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There is something nice about sleeping beside someone you love. You know, just sleep and to wake up to feel his arms around you or to have him there staring at you while you were sleeping and upon waking up he’ll make kulit and would try to kiss you without even washing his face or brushing his teeth… Disgusting but very romantic… Hehehe! There are times that I wish we could do it often like before, once a week he would sleep in my place and we’ll do nothing but watch TV or DVD’s and order food. Hay…

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We woke up at around 11am already; he left after taking a shower but didn’t care to eat anything. I was still sleepy but had lunch, watched a little TV and I slept after a few hours. I was supposed to go out with Fennie today before they go home but I didn’t hear her text message. I was asleep till 6:30 pm… So now, I’m not sleepy yet and it’s almost 2am…

Wow! I have one more day of my vacation. I couldn’t believe it. Time flies really fast. It’s been a week of waking up late and sleeping late and going out anytime I want. Oh well… I didn’t go out of town… Maybe next time…

I didn’t do anything today. But sleep.

Good Mood

I'm such in a good mood. Maybe because I went out yesterday all by my self and I felt rejuvenated. Hehehe! A trip to my nail salon and a little shopping on the side really does the magic. I felt free and happy. I availed the free foot therapy spa my suki card offered at Tips ‘N Toes and after four months of being bare, had my nails done again. One thing I noticed, whenever I’m going through a rough part in my life, I would always have my nails done (acrylic). It’s funny or I guess nagkakataon lang talaga. Hay buhay!

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Today, I paid my credit card and my cellphone bills. Biruin mo naman, na deactivate ang mobile service ko because I was not able to pay the last three months; only because I didn’t get the first and second billing (siguro may nagtago nun!). The third one I did get but I was too late. Naputol na sya! But after paying it, the CSR assured me it would be activated within three to four hours. Hay! Nakulitan ata sa akin. Hehehe! Dapat lang noh! I paid the whole three months in cash. Salbahe sila kung hindi!

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After paying all my arrears, dinaanan namin ni Jet si Nanay sa house to bring her to Loyola to visit my father’s grave, together with Ate Lita, Jeneline and my baby Lisa. We prayed and much to my surprise, Nanay joined us. Good to know that she is still able to remember the rosary. We stayed there for almost forty minutes. After that, we went to Riverbanks para makapaglakad lakad naman si Nanay at makalanghap naman ng hangin at hindi puro aircon lang. I think she enjoyed naman our thirty minutes stay there. Even Lisa enjoyed her walk. Likot likot talaga. Kaso hindi lang talaga sanay sa pagsakay sa sasakyan. Medyo nahihilo pa sya.

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Jet and I thought about going to Nueva Ecija for this long weekend but still having second thought about it. Friday kasi mag bisita iglesia tapos that would leave Saturday and Sunday for the vacation lang… Medyo bitin ata yun. I was hoping to at least spend three to four days away from Manila. Hay.. siguro wag nalang.

Ang init sobra!!!

Vacation!!!

Today my vacation officially starts. One whole week without work! Yahoo! And today, Jai is back to work after five days of staying in our house. Kainis nga eh! Di pa nataon sa holy week yung vacation nya (I miss her already!). Aw! I’m bored and I couldn’t sleep. Earlier after Jai and I went to church and after we had lunch and konting kwentuhan, she left and I had nothing to do. I slept almost the whole day. So, ayan! Di ako makatulog ngayon. Kainis! I couldn’t reach Jet… wherever he is. I think he left his cell phone at home – unintentionally I hope. I couldn’t sleep so I decided to write my thoughts nalang. Baka antukin din ako… Wwhaaa!

This is hard. Ayokong magbasa or manood ng t.v. nothing is interesting to watch naman. I want to go out and have some coffee somewhere. Fuckers! I wanna go out period!

These are just random thoughts. I just want to keep my mind occupied. God! I want this night to end. Jetong! Where the hell are you?!

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My last five days were spent with my bestfriend Jai. We did nothing but go out for the first three nights then the last two nights we just spent it at home, watching t.v., reading magazines and walang sawang chikahan. We don’t see each other that much anymore after she was accepted in a call center. Ngayon lang kami naka pagbonding ng ganito. Except syempre yung ilang oras lang na inuman sa house nila Ate Tina.. Other than that, mga once or twice a month lang kaming nagkikita to have our usual coffee session. Swerte na yung once a week. I miss her. I miss talking to her. But I guess that’s life. Kanya kanya na talaga kami. Tapos ngayon, she’s waiting for her interview sa Canadian Embassy this coming May 10. If she passes the interview, she’ll be gone within the year… I’ll be losing my bestfriend for the second time. Oh well! Ganun talaga! Biruan namin, we’ll just see each other there. Pero seriously, medyo sinasanay ko na sarili ko sa situation na talagang aalis na sya ng bansa at wala na sya dito. Minsan nga sinasadya ko na hindi sya mamiss. At least pag umalis sya hindi masyado masakit kasi napalayo na ako sa kanya. Parang yung nangyari before between me and Lizabeth. I remember before she left ten years ago for the States… Months before, we were inseparable. Kaya when she left I got depress…. So depress. Pinilit ko nalang sarili kong wag syang isipin. Until now, all I have from her are our good memories together. She’s busy from work. Our barkada, P10, seldom hears from her. Pero hindi ko parin sya nakakalimutan. Those were my crazy years! Hehehe! Now, pag si Jai naman ang umalis… Hay! Ewan ko ba… Tama na nga… Nagdradrama na ako dito. Kasi naman!

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Wala na ako maisip talagang isulat dito.... I'm fucking bored!

Ano Ba Talaga Ate?

I really don’t know why I feel this way. Ang gulo-gulo talaga. Kanina mag kasama kami and what’s new ba? We fought again. I don’t know why. Parang every little thing he does irritates me. He asked na mag-usap kami kasi daw napapansin nya madalas daw kaming mag away nitong mga nakakaraang araw. So we did. We talked and he was frustrated na kasi nga away kami ng away… He even cried. Pero dahil mahal daw nya ako di daw nya magawang kontrahin ako. Which was true. I felt na I’m being too hard on him these past few days. And I knew mapapansin din nya ang pagbabago sa akin. I told him na I feel we’re being to close for comfort. I mean, physically speaking. Kasi lagi kaming nagkikita ngayon and I feel it doesn’t leave any space for me to miss him. Ang gulo talaga. I told him there are times na I get bored also. He said siguro nga dahil madalas kaming magkita. So ano nga ba ang solusyon? Sabi ko let’s go back to our old schedule wherein we only see each other twice a week. Okay pa ako nun e. We don’t fight. Hay… I think phase lang ata ito. I mean we’ve been together for two years now and we’re too familiar with each other. Hindi naman sa nakakasawa sya. I think ganun lang talaga ang relasyon. Make an effort to make it work when times like this occurs. Ayoko naman ng long distance relationship. I’ve tried it before and it didn’t work for me. Siguro tama lang yung katulad sa amin. May schedule lang. Pero minsan pwede rin yung mga biglaang pagkikita. Hehehe!

Hay… Sakit sa ulo kung iisipin. Dapat itigil ko na ito. Ika nga ni Jet, “wag na tayong mag away please?” Sino bang gustong mag away diba? I’m just thankful na hindi mainitin ang ulo nya, yung tipong maiksi ang pasensya or immature. Na tipong patol lang ng patol sa pag-aaway kaya lalong lumalala.

Ayoko ng mag away. Gusto ko nang maging masaya kami ulit just like old times. Basta.

Lessons learned:

1. Compromise

2. Understand

Minsan, naiisip ko kung bakit sya ang pinili ko. Bakit nga ba? I have this gut feeling na tama yung ginawa ko. Na may rason kung bakit ko sya nakilala, kung bakit ako nahulog sa kanya at kung bakit naging kami. Inspite the age gap and different generation. Na everytime kong iisipin, di ako makapaniwalang nasasakyan ko naman kung ano mga hilig nya at ganun din sya sa akin. Nakakagulat lang talaga.

Feeling ko rin he's just right for me. He's the kind of person na oo pinagbibigyan ako sa mga gusto ko pero may hanganan. Nagsasalita kung sumusobra na ako. Pag feeling nya na out of line na ang pagiging stubborn ko yun... dun sya nagsasalita. At minsan humahanga ako sa kanya dahil malakas ang loob nyang kontrahin o i-criticize ang ugali ko in a way na I don’t find it offending but parang mas matanda pa sya sa akin. Ako naman matatameme lang. At hindi rin sya yung tipong oo lang din ng oo sa mga bawat desisyon ko. In short alam nya kung saan lulugar at alam kung pano ako i-handle. Nakahanap ako ng katapat ko. Kasi I feel na in a relationship I need to be in total control at all times. And if I feel na weak yung personality ng guy, I knew na magkakaron kami ng problema, or if the guy’s palaban masyado yung tipong laging kontra rin at hindi rin marunong mag analyze ng nangyayari sa amin at di rin marunong i-control ako, the relationship is doom already.

For the first time, I feel controlled in a way na I don’t feel nasasakal ako and I feel I don’t have to be in total control for a relationship to work. And I don’t know why I’m feeling this emotion right now, when I know na okay naman yung guy na karelasyon ko. Hay naku divina! Stop expecting too much. Don’t label. Relax.

Lessons Learned:

1. Less expectation is better - as always
2. Relax

Tama na nga.

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I’m addicted again to cHoCoLaTeS. Kakauwi lang kasi ng mother ni Jai from Canada. Nagpabili ako kay Jai ng chocolates sa DutyFree. Goodness… I couldn’t get enough of Kisses. Tsk tsk tsk! Sarap eh!!! Especially pag depress ka.. Hehehe! Hay nako! Chocoholic!

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Humihilik pala ang aso noh! Hehehe! Aliw! Mandy is asleep. Sarap tulog ng baby ko… Lamig kasi… Si Lisa naman ayun… Nagupitan ko rin ang nails nya habang tulog kanina. Pag gising kasi yan gugupitan mo e mag aaway lang kami.

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Hay… Time for bed.

Allergies & Friday Night

Two nights ago I had to go to the hospital at 11:00 in the evening. I had an allergy attack. It was scary compared to my first experience. This time I couldn’t breath. I was taking a shower when it happened. I thought I was having asthma attack (which was crazy because I realized I don’t have any asthma in the first place); it was hard to take in air and I was feeling dizzy. When I looked in the mirror I was all red, my chest, my arms, my back, my neck. I got scared! I looked into my medicine kit but didn’t see any antihistamine. I yelled for my Ate Lita and told her to bring me to the hospital. I was sweating a lot but felt cold inside. My dogs were a little panicky, they were following me wherever I go, and I guess they knew something was wrong with me. I was scratching a lot and it was spreading rapidly. Ate Lita woke up Mercy and told her to come with us. I told them I think I just want to go the nearest hospital in our place. When we got there, luckily I was the only patient. I was given the proper medication and after five minutes I was breathing okay. The doctor told me to take 1 Virlix tablet a day before bedtime for the next five days. Goodness! Not that horrible medicine that makes me sleepy after 20 minutes of taking it. It was the same medicine I was prescribed with nine years ago. MY GOD! It’s been nine years since my last allergy attack? That long!? Hehehe! I remember it was shrimp that was not cooked well that gave me the allergies, but this time I don’t know what triggered the allergy. I ate what I usually ate. Well, except for the sardines. It’s been a long long time since I had them. But I’m not allergic to sardines! Nor eggs or chicken.. Goodness… How will I know what triggers my allergies? It’s like a – Bahala na syndrome. All I could do is to keep more antihistamine in my medicine kit just in case…

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I got my hair cut today. I tried this salon in Gateway. Fortunately, I loved the cut. I guess I found MY salon. It’s been one whole year since I had a decent haircut. The last cut I had was in Makati at Salon de Manila courtesy of Mariel’s hairdresser. I liked the cut there but it’s too expensive and too far. But at Menage, I kinda like it there. It’s not expensive plus they have a good ambiance and the most comfortable chairs. I’ve also tried their hot oil, it’s good also. Love the massage! :p

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Friday night… And I’m at home… I feel kinda depress lately. I don’t know why. While I’m with Jet, I often find myself staring at him. Just staring at him, especially when we sit opposite each other and he’s occupied with something… Usually while we’re having coffee together in our favorite coffee shop, I would look at him and often ask myself… “Is this it?” “Isn’t he bored with me?” “Am I boring him?” Know you know… all those paranoid questions. And I would ask him “Bored ka na ba?” and he would usually say no and looked at me with that you’re-being-crazy-again look. And then I would turn my head and avoid his eyes and change the topic.

It’s been two years. Two years of me and him, him and me. Just us. Two years. I haven’t had a relationship last more that eighteen months. I’m just being crazy I know. Maybe I’m having that time of the month again. Or maybe I’m feeling something deep inside me. Maybe I’m the one who’s bored. Maybe I’m just projecting it to him. If that’s the case, I don’t know if I should tell him or not. Because I don’t how he’ll take it. OR! Maybe because we’re seeing each other too much lately ever since vacation started. It doesn’t leave enough time for me to miss him because he’s been so available lately (for the last two weeks we’ve seen each other every other day). I don’t know. It’s like when I’m with him, I would constantly pick fight and when I’m not with him, I wanted to see and be with him. Crazy…

I don’t want to think that I’m bored with him because I know I love him very much and I don’t want any other man. I really do. Maybe the relationship just needs a little spice. Or maybe we’re doing the same things over and over again. I really don’t know what to do anymore. Maybe I should tell him all about this. It wouldn’t be fair if I leave him out in the dark. And I know this is something that both of us should deal with. I’m just afraid to tell him - when I know I shouldn’t be… because he loves me and he’ll understand.

I’m being stupid here. I think I need to stop this. I’m going nowhere. I NEED TO TALK TO HIM PERIOD.

It’s late, better sleep and take that medicine…. It’ll bring me to slumber…