Funny

"For all those men who say, Why buy a cow when you can get milk for free. Here's an update for you: Now a days, 80% of women are against marriage, WHY? Because women realize it's not worth buying an entire pig just to get a little sausage."

(got from the internet)

Team Manila

Here are some cool graphic design t-shirts from Team Manila. I love some of them. Cutee diba?! Team Manila is located at the Independent Lifestyles Wing, Power Plant Mall, Rockwell and at Unit 2 Ecoville Townhomes, Metropolitan Avenue, Makati City. Some of their products are also sold at Azta Urban Salon at Katipunan, Cinderella at SM Megamall and Tonic at Astoria Plaza.

(pictures from Team Manila website)

Nothing really...

Put an "x" by all the things you've done and share it with your friends.

1. (x) Smoked a cigarette.
2. ( ) Crashed a friend's car.
3. ( ) Stolen a car.
4. (x) Been in love.
5. (x) Been dumped. (i guess)
6. ( ) Shoplifted.
7. ( ) Been fired/laid off.
8. ( ) Been in a fist fight.
9. (x) Snuck out of your parent's house
10. (x) Had feelings for someone that didn't have them back.
11. ( ) Been arrested.
12. ( ) Gone on a blind date.
13. (x) Lied to a friend.
14. (x) Skipped school.
15. ( ) Seen someone die.
16. ( ) Been to Canada.
17. ( ) Been to Mexico.
18. (x) Been on a plane.
19. ( ) Purposely set a part of yourself on fire.
20. (x) Eaten sushi.
21. ( ) Been skiing.
22. (x) Met someone in person from the internet.
23. (x) Taken pain-killers.
24. (x) Love someone or miss someone right now.
25. (x) Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by.
26. ( ) Made a snow angel.
27. ( ) Had a tea party.
28. (x) Flown a kite.
29. (x) Built a sand castle.
30. ( ) Gone puddle jumping.
31. (x) Played dress up.
32. (x) Cheated while playing a game.
33. (x) Been lonely.
34. (x) Fallen asleep at work/school.
35. ( ) Used a fake I.D.
36. (x) Watched a sunset.
37. (x) Felt an earthquake.
38. (x) Touched a snake.
39. (x) Slept beneath the stars.
40. (x) Been tickled.
41. (x) Been robbed.
42. (x) Been misunderstood.
43. ( ) Petted a reindeer/goat.
44. (x) Won a contest.
45. ( ) Ran a red light.
46. ( ) Been suspended from school.
47. (x) Been in a car accident.
48. (x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night. (out of depression)
49. (x) Had deja vu.
50. ( ) Danced in the moonlight.
52. (x) Liked the way you looked.
53. ( ) Witnessed a crime.
54. (x) Questioned your heart.
55. ( ) Been obsessed with post it notes.
56. ( ) Squished barefoot through the mud.
57. (x) Been lost.
58. (x) Been to the opposite side of the country.
59. (x) Swam in the ocean.
60. (x) Felt like dying.
61. (x) Cried yourself to sleep.
62. ( ) Played cops and robbers.
63. ( ) Recently colored with crayons.
64. (x) Sung karaoke.
65. ( ) Paid for a meal with only coins.
66. (x) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't.
67. (x) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out your nose.
68. ( ) Caught a snowflake on your tongue.
69. ( ) Danced in the rain.
70. (x) Written a letter to Santa Claus.
71. ( ) Been kissed under the mistletoe.
72. ( ) Watched the sun rise with someone you care about
73. (x) Blown bubbles.
74. (x) Made a bonfire on the beach.
75. ( ) Crashed a party.
76. ( ) Gone roller-skating.
77. (x) Had a wish come true.
78. (x) Worn pearls.
79. ( ) Jumped off a bridge.
80. ( ) Ate dog/cat food.
81. ( ) Told a complete stranger you loved them.
82. (x) Kissed a mirror.
83. (x) Sang in the shower.
84. (x) Had a dream that you married someone.
85. (x) Glued your hand to something.
86. ( ) Got your tongue stuck to a flagpole.
87. ( ) Kissed a fish.
88. (x) Sat on a rooftop.
89. (x) Screamed at the top of your lungs.
90. ( ) Done a one-handed cartwheel.
91. (x) Talked on the phone for more than six hours on one occasion. (make it 12 hours!)
92. (x) Stayed up all night.
93. ( ) Didn't take a shower for a week.
94. ( ) Picked and ate an apple right off the tree.
95. ( ) Climbed a tree that had a tree house.
96. ( ) Been told by a complete stranger that you're hot.
97. (x) Ever had a one night stand. (I was young and crazy!) Hehehe!!!
98. ( ) Ever missed someone so much it still hurts to think of them.
99. (x) Ever loved someone that you knew wouldn't love you back.
100 ( ) Ever been to a professional baseball, football, or hockey game in a stadium.
101.( ) Went hiking in the mountains.
102. (x) Smoked a cigar.
103. ( ) Had a crush on someone you worked with but never told them.
104. (x) Wished you had the chance to change your profession.
105. ( ) Ever cremated and kept the ashes of a pet you cared a lot about.(i might do that)
106. (x) Wished you could live your life over again beginning at age 21.
107. (x) Been baptized.
108. (x) Rode a horse.
109. ( ) Sent flowers to someone you never met.

Tattoo 2

FAIRY 1

At first, I wanted this one because of the sad face it exudes. I like it. I really do. But Jet said for a first timer like me, it would really be painful and that kinda scared me a lot. Hehehe!

FAIRY 2

The next choice is this one. I like the wings and the fairy looks battered, the idea which I love to capture in my tattoo. But Jet, again, thinks it's too cartonish... Hhmm.... I think he's right.

FAIRY 3

Then I found this one. I love the fairy except for the wings. Maybe I could use the wings from FAIRY 2 and incorporate it here or maybe alter it a little, depends on the artist i guess... Hmm... Jet said it's nice... Okay! Got my future tattoo ready...

About Loving

“When you give someone your time, You are giving them a portion of your life that you’ll never get back. Your time is your life. That is why the greatest gift you can give someone is your time. Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E. Because the essence of love is not what we think or do or provide for others, But how much we give of ourselves.”

~ Something that I found in the internet. I think its nice and I just like to share it. ~

Ang edad ba importante sa isang relasyon?

Kung ang lalake ay mas matanda sa babae, mas katanggap-tanggap diba? Dahil ito ang nakikita natin sa mga telebisyon, sine at nababasa sa mga libro at naririnig sa mga kwento sa radio. Pero kung pagbaliktarin kaya natin, babae ang mas matanda? Pareho parin ba ang bawat opinion at istorya ng mga tao tungkol dito?

Malimit naming pag-usapan ito ni Jet, dahil gusto kong pag-usapan. Minsan sinasabihan nalang nya ako na tumigil at manahimik nalang dahil wala syang pakealam kung ano man ang agwat ng aming edad. Ako naman, tumitigil nalang dahil ayaw ko siyang magalit sa kakulitan ko. Pero sa totoo lang, gustong gusto kong tanungin sya tungkol sa mga bagay bagay na may kaugnayan sa mga edad naming dalawa.

Mga ilang buwan mula ngayon ay magdiriwang na ako ng aking ika-29 na taon at sa susunod naman na taon ay ika-30 kaarawan ko. Isang bagay na aking kinababahala. Sa kadahilanang matanda na pala ako. Hehehe! Si Jet naman ay nagdiwang ng kanyang ika-23 na kaarawan noon Abril 19. Anim na taon. Anim na taong agwat mula sa kanya. Isang bagay na minsa’y aking pinagtatawanan at minsa’y hindi pinapansin. Pero sa totoo lang sa likod ng aking pag-iisip ay kinatatakot kong dumating ang araw na kung saan maging malaking problema sa aming dalawa ang pagiging matanda ko sa kanya.

Tulad nalamang kung sya ay magtratrabaho na at makakasalamuha ng iba’t-ibang tao. Pano kung dumating isang araw na makakilala sya ng isang babaeng mas bata o kasing edad nya at mas kaakit-akit kaysa sa akin? Pano naman ang aking kagandahan? Ayokong mauwi sa isang paghihiwalay ang ganitong problema. Kaya’t minsan, pag napapagusapan ang mga kaarawaan at ilang bagay sa aming dalawa, hindi ko maalis sa akin ang pagbabangit tungkol sa aking edad. Malimit kong tanuning sya kung naiisip ba nya na sa susunod na taon ang kanyang kasintahan ay isang ganap na 30 anyos na. At sya ay isang 24 anyos na lalake lamang na nagsisimula pa lamang ang buhay. Sa tuwi-tuwina ang lagi nyang sagot “Wala akong pakealam!” Alam mo ba ang pinasok mo? “Oo.” Sana nga.

Para sa akin ang pagiging 30 anyos ay napakalaking bagay. Tunog matanda na talaga. Isipin mo nalang… Isang taon nalang at wala nako sa kalendaryo… O dios ko! Tulungan mo ko! Para yata akong hihimatayin nito… iniisip ko palang.

Ewan ko ba. Siguro sa edad kong ito ang dami-dami pa akong mga bagay na hindi pa nagagawa. Ang dami-dami ko pang pangarap na hindi matupad-tupad.

May kakilala akong mag asawa na mas matanda ang babae sa lalake. Ang mga magulang ko, na apat na taon ang tanda ng Nanay ko sa Tatay ko, hindi rin maiwasang tumingin sa ibang babae na mas bata. Ang Ate ko na masmatanda naman ng sampung taon sa asawa nya. Masaya naman sila. Ang Tiya ko naman na labing limang taon ang tanda sa Tiyo ko… Ayun... Sa awa ng dios naghiwalay at ang Tiyo ko may asawang mas bata naman sa kanya…

Ang edad ba may kinalaman kung ano ang mangyayari sa isang relasyon?

Siguro… sa ibang parte…

Kung hahayaan natin.

Dala narin siguro ng takot kaya’t ako’y nababagabag ng sitwasyon namin ni Jet. Oo alam kong mahal na mahal nya ako pero pano kung dumating nga ang pagkakataong iyon? Makapagtrabaho sya at makakilala ng ibang mga tao. Minsan naiisip ko nga, buti nalamang at kahit papaano ay nakakasabay ako sa mga gusto at hilig nya. Mga musikang pinapakinggan ay gusto ko rin, mga ilang bagay nagkakasundo kami. Kung hindi, siguro mahihirapan kaming magtagal sa aming relasyon.

Hindi naman natin matuturuan ang ating puso kung sino ang mamahalin. Hindi naman natin madidiktahang sa ganitong klaseng tao ka lang mapapamahal. Dahil minsan ang pagmamahal gugulatin ka nalang. Makikita mo nalang ang sarili mo umiibig sa isang taong hindi mo naman iniisip o inaasam na maging katuwang mo. Kahit ano pang edad nya… pero syempre nasa legal na edad naman ha!

Balik natin ang tanong ko, ang edad ba importante sa isang relasyon?

HINDI.

Pagmamahal, tiwala at respeto ang importante sa isang relasyon.

At yan ang dapat kong ilagay sa aking isipan. Mahalin, pagkatiwalaan at irespeto ang taong nagmamahal sa akin. Dahil yun ang nararapat. Imbis na mag-isip ng mag-isip ng kung ano-ano. Ang aking edad… Lahat naman tayo dadaan dyan. Ang importante tayo’y nagmamahal at minamahal. At may pinagkatandaan.

Wag lang paurong!

Highschool Life

nicknames in HS:
>>> divina or vina (baduy!)

clubs or organizations:
>>> Homemakers forever!

ano-ano ang usual topics of discussion with ur friends?
>>> mga teachers, movies, gimiks

favorite tambayans?
>>> orange tables, now I heard pink na sya…, batibot area… pag ako mag isa, sa library….

favorite merienda or lunch?
>>> baked macaroni, waffle dog, spaghetti

hobbies sa classroom?
>>> mag daldalan… kayo ba naman puro babae eh ano pa bang gagawin eh di mag ingay ng mag ingay!

ano ang kadalasang ginagawa mo after dismissal?
>>> hintayin sundo ko…

nag-dissect ba kayo?
>>> yup… second year.. frog

sumasali ka ba sa quiz bees?
>>> nope…

eh sa sports activities?
>>> nahh… hiya ako eh… taga cheer nalang me…

sa school beauty contests?
>>> wala kaming ganung contest eh…

favorite subjects?
>>> Filipino, Value Ed., Computer and P.E. (hated math and science!)

favorite teachers?
>>> Si Ms. Fetty! The best Filipino Teacher! At si Sir Galicia… crush ko nung 3rd Year… Galing sa English eh…. “Don’t go gentle into that good night…” Sir! San na kaya kayo! Crush ko parin kayo hanggang ngayon!!!!!

hated teachers?
>>> Wala naman… Bait naman silang lahat eh… maski yung boring…

Nag COCC kaba?
>>> nope… kakapagod kaya

ano rank mo sa CAT at the end of the year?
>>> private… un ba tawag dun…

Eh position?
>>> position? Saan?

Sino corps commander nyo?
>>> Lily Lastimado ata yun…

kasali ka ba sa varsity?
>>> hindi.. cheerer nga eh…

favorite field trip?
>>> meron ba kami nun? 4th year… ahhh di ko na maalala!! Fucking shit! Hehehe!!!

kamusta naman ang prom?
>>> wala kaming Prom but yearly may highschool dance kami…

san kayo nag prom?
>>> lahat sa school lang… nagtitipid ang mga madre…

may ka-date ka ba nung prom?
>>> wala.. barkada lang, but I invited a few guy friends from my neighborhood

did you take the UPCAT?
>>> of course! pumasa sa UP Los Banos… for marine biology… hehehe!
Sa UP k b naman nag aaral ngaun?

>>> nope.. working na…

first choice mo ba campus mo?
>>> nope… not even in my dreams…

msaya ka naman sa college school mo?
>>> okay lang.. Met a few good people….

most memorable HS moment?
>>> LAHAT! Kasi lahat masaya at masarap ulit uliting isipin… Pero the best yung 4th year retreat!!! Batch 6!

best thing about HS?
>>> LAHAT!!!!!

worst thing about HS?
>>> ang iksi ng panahon… ang bilis ng oras…

given the chance to relive your HS what items from the present will u bring with u?
>>> cellphone and laptop… hihihi!

did you enjoy high school?
>>> SUPER MEGA OVER!!!! Sana highschool nalang forever!

Celebration

On Tuesday, Jet and I will be celebrating our two and a half years of being together. It is a big accomplishment for both of us. This is the longest relationship we’ve been in and so far the most fulfilling one, in so many ways, for me.

I remember our first few months were so chaotic and I was torn between two people. I knew loving both of them wouldn’t be just and I had to choose eventually. It wasn’t easy. I prayed and prayed for guidance. I was crying every night. But it all ended when a close friend of mine asked me, “Between the two of them, who makes you happy the most?” Right then, I knew who to choose. It was this insane guy who makes me laugh, who’s crazy enough to come all the way to Quezon City just to be with me – anytime I would want him to, this guy who from the moment I heard his voice I fell in love with already, this guy who I didn’t judge by the way he looks, this guy who in time eased every questions I had in mind and this guy who I was willing to gamble everything (without knowing the reason why) just to be with. I just had this gut feeling that kept telling me to choose him. That it is him that I needed and wanted all along. And true enough… After two and a half years, I’m still happy. He still makes me feel that tingling sensation whenever he looks at me.

We’re not a perfect couple. We do have our own share of madness. We fight. We have terrible fights mostly because of me. Yes I would admit that because I always want my way our way or no way at all. But he changed that. He made me realize a lot of things about me in which my other past relationship never did; I guess love could do that. Change us when we least expect it would. Yes it is unfair to compare what went before from what I have now. What I’m saying is, no one among them dared to take over the relationship or stood up against me. Jet did all that. He was braved enough to go against me just to make me realize my mistakes and the things that I’m doing badly and I’m thankful for that.

There are also times that I felt frustrated with our relationship. Times where in Jet was being difficult and I wanted to give up. But that was before I realized to just let loose and let things happen as they come. I couldn’t let him go just like that because at the back of my mind there is still something for both of us here. There is something in this relationship that I can’t explain. And according to him there are also times that he wanted to give up on me but it always come down to one thing, it was the love that he feels for me that makes him stronger; that keeps him grounded to this relationship.

For the past two years that we’ve been together, every time that we celebrate our anniversary I would always ask him this one question: “Are you still up for one more year with your crazy girlfriend?” In which he would gladly say yes. Occasionally I would ask him if he’s okay. Okay in a sense that, he’s alright within the relationship. If he doesn’t feel anything wrong. If he doesn’t feel something is missing or I can’t provide something that he needs and wants in this relationship. Maybe due to paranoia or whatever it is, I just want to check on him if he’s still okay with me, if there is any issue that’s bothering him and he just can’t let me know. But so far, things are all right between us. Except for petty stuff that comes in between every now and then. Like my PMS… that suddenly turns me into this monster every time I get my period which drives him really really nuts much to my amusement. Hehehe!

Right now, I couldn’t imagine myself being in another relationship or with any man for that matter. For me, he’s a perfect compliment of who I am. I might have a strong personality but he learned to direct me to the right path. He learned to tame that insane woman inside me… And I’m happy that in some ways I have also influence him to become who he is now. He’s changed so much from that guy that I met in Starbucks, Shangri-La years ago. Changed for the better.

I read somewhere that a relationship is something that could bring out the best or worse in you. I hope and continue to wish that this relationship of ours would continue to bring out the best in both of us and change anything that could be bad.

In this relationship I have given up a lot of things and yet gained so much more than I expected.

I gained a partner, a lover and a best friend.

Someone who I am willing to give up anything to be with. Someone who is a great person inside and out (few people knows that). Someone who has so many potentials but needed a little push once in a while. Someone worthy giving my time and life. Someone worth loving with every breath of my life.

To that, I thank God for bringing him into my life in a most unexpected time.

I thank him for clicking my name in that chat room. (Yes we found and met each other in a most unlikely place – the internet.)

Thank you for giving so much and yet asking so little…

Thank you for loving me in spite of…

Thank you for all the care…

Thank you for all the ups and downs…

All the good and bad…

All the love…

Friday Night

Yesterday, we were supposed to have dinner with Jet's friend, Christian, at Atoy's but due to some event that Jet wouldn't tell me, we had to cancel it and resched. So we have nothing to do again. Nothing planned. So I told him let's go to Mall of Asia and hang out there. The traffic was not that bad to think it was already 5:30pm when we left my place. Only took us 45 minutes to get there.

Upon arriving Jet was already hungry and wanted to eat noodles – mami (naglilihi ata!) and I wanted to eat sushi. I’m not a noodle person kasi; I like the soup part though, so we were arguing where to eat until I saw this restaurant named Crazy Roll. Fusion of something…. I forgot their tag line… They have sushi and noodles… Thank god! Plus with a reasonable price!

We ordered for Chicken Teriyaki Don, Tempura, Tamago Sashimi (our favorite!), Mixed Sushi (his favorite), and his noodles that I forgot the name. I didn’t bother to take pictures because we didn’t like the service. It took them like 25 minutes to serve the tamago and mixed sushi. I was almost done with my teriyaki don and he was done with the noodles plus rice. He was angry already because he got used to eating the tamago or any sushi we order (like in Teriyaki Boy) before eating his main course. He was suggesting canceling the order but I didn’t want to be mean and I wanted to eat my tamago! The foods were really good but the service needs improvement.

For dessert we bought these cute ice creams in small cones. Thumbs… Something… I’m really bad with names. I believe Dominic Ochoa owns it. We tried five different flavors (cheese, cookies ‘n cream, chocolate, cotton candy, and mango). We had fun eating them while we walked, like silly kids. Jet was eating them in one bite and I was taking my time finishing one as if I was eating a regular cone! Hihihi! Then we went to Astrovision and he bought this album by Makatha. A new band, he was just curious how they sound. Hmm… Me too. Then he was browsing through OPM section when he saw these:

I was really surprised! I bought all of them! I mean how lucky was I to get all three of them after what? Almost 10 years of being released? I couldn’t believe they were still available… My god! They were my generation. The music I grew up with. The first rock band I was really into. We had to open it immediately. We had coffee at Delifrance and had a good time checking out our

purchases. I was still in heaven when someone shouted my name. It was Baby, my ever loyal supplier of some of my clothes, particularly my jeans and maong shorts. I sooo love her products. She gives the right size and they are very trendy too. It’s been a long time since she visited me at home. I’ve known her for almost half of my life. She’s also my Nanay’s and Ate Cindy’s supplier. After a little chit chat she said goodbye.

It was still early to go home. 10:00pm. I still wanted to spend time with Jet and I was bugging him about Wunjo at Chakik’s (since last week). I miss Vic and his wonderful voice. He said he would only agree to go there if we watch only one set of their show and I said yes. Better than nothing at all.

When we got there Scarlet was on stage. Nice voice. When ever I look at her I see the Scarlet during the Putreska years… someone dancing widely dressed in outrageous clothes. But the Scarlet in front of me was someone tamed, in pretty clothes and having fun singing Jazz. She’s so friendly and bubbly. I like her. When it was time for Wunjo’s set, it was Mally who greeted us first. He came to our table to shake Jet’s hand. He even asked us if we know him. Crazy Mally! As is we’re going to forget him. I was eyeing Vic but he was with this bunch of crazy guys, I think in their reunion or something. They were noisy but tolerable and pretty much a good looking bunch. Hehehe! Before Vic went on stage he tapped our table, nodded and smiled at us. Aawww…. Kinilig ako! I’m so damn in love!!! I had fun… Jet was happy that he was still remembered by the band members. There was even a time during the show while Mally was having his solo, Vic approached him and squeezed his shoulder and he just smiled at me! Damn it! Mas type ba nya lalake!??? Aba! Aba! There I was looking at him with dreamy eyes (with t.l. – tulo laway! YUCK!) and he didn’t even approach me. But Jet who was not looking at him he cared to greet. God! Bading ata ang lolo mo!!! Hmp! Jet was laughing at my frustration. I couldn’t believe it!!!

Just kidding... I think I was too obvious that I really like him. Hehehe! Baka naintimidate or something OR natakot! Eventhough, I still LOVE HIM!

The first set ended at around 1am. We had to call it a night. I was sleepy and Jet was quite drunk. We said our goodbyes and went home. I wanted Jet to sleep over at my place but he said he has basketball the next day. Instead he suggested that we meet on Sunday so that we could hear mass. Hmm… that’s a surprise. He suddenly wants to go to mass. Okay… I guess I’ll see him tomorrow then…

That’s my friday gimik… Not much though… I love the CD’s… and my VIC!!! :p

HuHuHu!!!

Niko and Victor before they left for Canada almost two years ago...

I miss them terribly.... :(

Victor, so big already...

Road Trip

Last night Jet and I was considering whether to watch a movie or just eat dinner and have coffee. But he suddenly suggested we try this eatery in Pacita (Laguna) who specialized in pork chops… Atoy’s… Yup… we traveled for an hour and a half for this slice of pork. My goodness! I was really starving when we got there. Had two servings of rice, a piece of pork chop, two eggs and a Mountain Dew! Yummy! It took us longer to get there than to finish our dinner. After 10 minutes we were done! Hehehe! Mga patay gutom!

After dinner, we didn’t know what else to do. So Jet took me around San Pedro and Binan area. We went to his two old schools, Casa Del Nino Montessori Science High School and Infant Jesus Montessori Center. It was like trip back to memory lane. He showed me where he would usually hang about after cutting class during his fourth grade, the store where he usually buys his “baon”, the road he usually pass through during his elementary years. He also showed where his band usually practices and his friend’s home turf. He also showed me the place where he practices basketball with his schoolmates. We also passed by where we eat queck-queck during our first year together. Yup, it is only around their area that I eat that orange-dough-coated-deep-fried-egg. Though I could only eat two of them… Feeling ko highblood aabutin ko eh!

We went around their area for how long I don’t know. I just love traveling with him, kahit saan pa man kami mapadpad. It’s like leaving all the troubles behind. It feels good to do that every now and then. We would talk about anything as he drives…

I wish we could do that once a week. But he’s busy at school and we could only do that if he’s not that tired. Oh well…

I was home by 12:30am and he got home at around 2:00am… He was tired but he said he was happy. He said the trip was all worth it. Though if I asked to eat at Atoy’s he said maybe we could go there like once every two weeks because imagine the travel – he’ll be coming from Muntinlupa, I live at Q.C. so from their area he’ll travel for an hour and a half to two hours to my place then we’ll take our van and drive to Laguna pass their area then drive back to Q.C. to bring me home then he’ll go home back to Muntinlupa. Hehehe! Haaay…. My own Iron Man!

Anyways, hope we could do that again. Explore his hometown…

A Letter

Today I received a letter from a former boyfriend. I was surprised and never was expecting it. Because the last time that we talked, we had this bad and ugly fight. Actually we were in speaking terms after we broke-up but when he went home last year from his job abroad, we did met several times but it ended bad… really bad. I came into conclusion that exes are not meant to be friends. Maybe after years and years of not seeing each other and getting really over the relationship – that’s when you could be friends.

Last year, when I met up with him it was all for the sake of what we had back as a couple. But what I didn’t see coming was he was only back for vengeance. Well, he did got what he came for. He hurt me and even Jet. We almost broke-up because of that event which I really regret until today.

When I read his letter, the only thing I could say was why. Why say sorry when you knew your motive in the first place? Conscience? Guilt?

I forgave him already, even before his letter. What’s the sense of hating him forever, it would only mean that I would carry him inside me forever too isn’t? So better let him go and all the hurtful things that we did to each other. Start living in the future with our own respective partners.

I told Jet about his letter. He immediately went home to talk to me about it. He was a little bit threaten again. Although he trusts me enough, he just doesn’t like the thought that my ex-boyfriend is starting to communicate with me. He was thinking of what could be his motive this time; maybe because he’ll be arriving soon, back for more vengeance. I hope not! We’re even now. If he still holds a grudge on me… Well that’s his problem not mine.

He wants to be friends that’s what he said before ending the letter. Why? What for? I don’t want to mess things up anymore. I don’t want to hurt Jet. I don’t want to hurt this relationship. I guess the time isn’t right yet. Last year’s event is still fresh. My main concern is Jet. Only him. I don’t want him to worry. If I was not in a relationship right now, I would let him be a friend. But for now, I can’t. I can’t take that chance and have my own relationship suffer. Although Jet never told me what to do, I could sense that he is restless about it and I’m so sorry to bring him that discomfort. Though he assured me that he wouldn’t give up our relationship because he loves me dearly and we have already invested so much to make it work, I’m just anxious what this ex-boyfriend of mine could bring to us. God knows I don’t want to hear Jet’s cold voice over the phone as I beg him to talk to me and to forgive me. I can’t bear not talking to him for more than a week or two. And I don’t want Jet to hate me that much.

I guess we have to keep our bond stronger. I have to assure him more. Even if he’s not asking for it I will show him that. Just ease all his worries. We’ll make it. This is just one trial that I know we’ll both overcome.

As for my ex, I hope he changed already. I hope that he’s happy with his relationship. I wish him well.

Seasons of Love

Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes,
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Moments so dear.
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes
How do you measure, measure a year?

In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights
In cups of coffee
In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife.

In five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes
How do you measure
A year in the life?

How about love?
How about love?
How about love?
Measure in love

Seasons of love. Seasons of love

Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes!
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Journeys to plan.

Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes
How do you measure the life
Of a woman or a man?

In truths that she learned,
Or in times that he cried.
In bridges he burned,
Or the way that she died.

It's time now to sing out,
Tho' the story never ends
Let's celebrate
Remember a year in the life of friends
Remember the love!
Remember the love!
Seasons of love!

Oh you got to got to remember the love! Remember the love, You Measure in love know that love is a gift from up above Seasons of love. Share love, give love spread love Measure measure you life in love.

Haaay....

Nakakaaliw kahapon. Hindi dapat kami magkikita ni Jet dahil sabi nya last Tuesday, may gagawin daw sya sa school. Voluntary work daw. So sabi ko sige Sunday nalang. Although I was a bit sadden by that news. Kasi it would mean five more days before I’ll see him pa. Pero dahil it has something to do with school, so okay lang. Gulat nga daw sya kasi before we would fight over our schedule at pahirapan daw talagang mag paalam sa akin. Pero ngayon ang dali ko daw kausapin… Hehehe!

Usually we don’t have work on a Friday kaya okay lang kung maglamyarda ako o gumising ng tanghali. Yesterday, I woke up a little late and I was contemplating of going to a spa and have a massage or go to Cubao to have a caffeine overload at Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf. Kaso katamaran ang napala ko. Tinamad akong maligo at umalis. I lazed in front of the TV until I dozed off again. I woke up at around 2:30pm had my late lunch.

Pag balik ko sa room ko, around 4:15pm, I had one sms message and Jet was calling. I cancelled his call and read the message first. It was from him. He said he’s on his way to school. The message was sent at around 3:00pm. During that time I was still downstairs. Then he called again and I answered it. Nagulat ako. Kasi sabi nya hintayin ko raw sya sa gate namin dahil malapit na raw syang dumating. Ha? Saan? Eh kakabasa ko lang ng message nya na papunta syang school tapos malapit na sya sa house namin?! Napraning ako dun ha. Gulo nyang kausap. So, ginawa ko nalang, bumaba nalang ako at hinintay sya sa garahe. I was still wondering and quite puzzled kung bakit ganun yung message nya… When he arrived and I saw him get down from the taxi. I noticed immediately yung new hair cut nya! Grabe!!! Nag iba nanaman ang mukha nya! Although the cut made him look like a totoy… Okay lang! As long as it’s short!





Hehehe!!! Paulit ulit nga nyang sinasabing napaglaruan daw sya ng lola nya. Hehehe! Buti nga sa kanya! Second to his new hair cut, I also saw the bouquet of flowers he was holding! Bwahahaha!





The crazy guy bought me flowers! Maski walang okasyon binilhan nya ako ng flowers. Grabe! He’s so sweet talaga. I mean, he seldom does that – give me flowers. Maski may okasyon, he never does. Kaya nakakagulat eh. Kung kelan wala naman okasyon tsaka sya namimigay. Hay! Si Be talaga! I couldn’t stop grinning and all he said was “kinikilig ang bruha!” Tapos when I asked him why he came to see me instead of going to school sabi nya hindi daw nya matiis na hindi ako makita kasi nasanay na daw sya sa routine namin… When I asked him about the flowers, sabi nya goddess daw nya ako…Yuck! Ang corny talaga! Ewan! Basta kinilig talaga ako! Hihihi!!!

After that, naligo ako and we went to Greenhills. Gusto daw nyang bumili ng cap na susuotin nya sa gig nila. I was happy enough to tag along as he search and search the tiangge for caps. Tapos bigla kong naisip sa Reginas sa Shoppersville! Maraming caps dun na hindi screaming ang design. And I was right! He bought two pieces. It was too early pa to go home so sabi ko punta nalang tayo sa Rockwell kasi I want to see the newly released Havaianas sa Aura Athletica – Embellished Edition. Grabe! Ang mamahal nila! I liked a few pairs… But was not really tempted to buy one. Until someone bought me one, the Wave in Gold. Hehehe! Grabe! Love them! Thank you!

After Rockwell, we went to Gateway to have coffee at where else?! Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf! We didn’t eat dinner that night kasi we were still full. I don’t know why maybe because of the fries we had earlier. Tapos we had a little chitchat about his first gig tonight. Medyo stress out ang lolo mo last week pa! Hehehe! I just told him to have fun. I wish I could be there though to support him kaso ang layo eh. And I don’t want to stress him more kung aalalahanin pa nya ako. At saka mapapagod sya kung hahatid pa nya ako at saka hindi rin naman pwedeng ako lang mag isa ang umuwi, bukod sa ayaw nya na ako lang ang byabyaheng magisa from Muntinlupa eh late na kasi matatapos yun. Anyways, there will always be a next time....

Yesterday was really fun… Love the surprise! Love you Be for being sooo sweet - sometimes! Hihihi! Love the Havaianas too!!! :p

Hehehe!

-Longest relationship:
-*- the relationship I’m in right now… be celebrating our two and a half years on the 22th.. yeepeey!

-Shortest relationship:
-*- roughly three months… I think…

-How many people have you broken up with?
-*- three

-How many times have you truly been in love?
-*- as in truly in love? Twice…

-How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they love you?
-*- all four of them…

-Have you ever thought that you were going to marry the person you were with?
-*- don’t we always feel that way when we’re in a relationship? Na parang sya na talaga at that moment kasi you feel soooo in love.

-Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt?
-*- of course I have… and I have hurt so many people also by loving that person…

-Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?
-*- yeah… and I’m not proud of that… feels so bad to hurt anyone diba? no matter what…

-Have you ever cried over a boyfriend or girlfriend?
-*- but of course! I cried for a few days… after that… okay na ulit! Hehehe!

-Are you happy being single or in relationships?
-*- I’ve been single for a long time before my first boyfriend came. Imagine I was 21 when I had my first relationship ever!… after that… I do get to be single for a few months in between relationships… Being single does have its highs and lows… But, I love being in a relationship… Mas fulfilling kasi… I don’t know… Hihihi! Feels good to have someone to share things with eh…

-Have you ever cheated on a boyfriend or girlfriend?
-*- hahaha! Next question please…

-Have you ever been cheated on?
-*- Maybe… woman’s instinct…

-What is the most important PART of being in a relationship?
-*- to love unconditionally.. COMPROMISING… when both parties mature within the relationship… you’ll see it as the relationship progresses…

-What is the worst part of being in a relationship?
-*- sometimes people tend to overdo a lot of things when they’re in a relationship… when you lose your own identity… I think that’s the worst part…

-Worst relationship?
-*- falling out of love with the person…. When the relationship becomes abusive na verbally or physically… when you stay in the relationship out of pity. Wag nang ipilit kung di na talaga pwepwede diba?

-Have you ever had your heart broken?
-*- so many times na…

-Have you ever broken someones heart?
-*- yeah… again… it is something that I’m not proud of but has to be done to save both of us from a more bigger pain… at least now, I think, both of us are happy with our respective relationships… which is really good.

-Do you talk to any of your exes?
-*- hhmm….I’m cool with that…it’s been years na… I’m over them already… so being civil to each other is the next best thing… if they talk to me first… hehehe!

-If you could go back in time and change things to where you could still be with one of your exes, would you?
-*- hhmm…. No, I won’t change a thing about my past because whatever it is that I did in the past led me to where and to whom I’m with right now. Which is with Jet, and I’m happy and very satisfied

Do you think any of your exes feel the same way?
-*- I don’t know…

-What is your ideal boyfriend or girlfriend?
-*- Basically, people have a tendency to build this “ideal” person, relationship and even love as they go with life. But when REALITY hits them… lahat naman ng idealism mo nawawala eh.. Even your “dream” boyfriend… Napapalitan kung ano yung nandyan sa harap mo at kung ano yung nararamdaman mo. Kaya yung mga taong masyadong mapili o pihikan… Well… they’re missing a big part of their life – being adventurous… Yung kaka what if what if mo eh… baka bumagsak ka sa wala….

-Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
-*- in most parts yes I am… but I know I have my own weirdness and wickedness that Jet totally hates… But I know I’m a good girlfriend all in all. Hekhek!

-Have you dated people who were not good to you?
-*- they’re all good naman pag date date palang diba? Pag tumagal dun mo nalang malalaman ang totoong ugali nila.

-Have you been in an abusive relationship?
-*- abusive not in a physical way… but verbally yes… and I don’t want that in my life again…

-Name your most memorable ex if you have had 1:
-*- memorable in what way??! All of them I guess… they all taught me lessons I will never forget.

-Have you dated someone older than you?
-*- yeah… like 15-20 years older! Hehehe! I was young and crazy then…

-Younger?
-*- yeah! And I’m still with him…. (six years younger!)

-What is one thing that all of your exes had in common?
-*- they all loved a crazy and wonderful woman (me)… hehehe!

-Who is the most attractive ex that you have had?
-*- hahaha!!! They’re all attractive in their own respective ways… one has a big personality pero babaero, one is good with his hands (meaning magaling magluto, create stuff) pero medyo… wag nalang baka mag react! Hehehe! Then one is intelligent… kaso magulo ang isip... seems to want and need something but don’t know what it is (considering his age). He seems lost… oh well…. What attracted me to them is not their physical attributes.. but their personality, humor and mind.

-Have you ever cried yourself to sleep over a boyfriend or girlfriend?
-*- the break ups… always during the break up… all I need to do is cry it all out… a day or two.. even in sleeps, after that okay na…manhid na..

-When is the last time that you were in a relationship?
-*- I am in right now for the last 2.5 years and still counting…

-Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
-*- depends… if the crime is about having a third party big time.. well… he deserves to rot in hell.. no second chance there…. EVER!

-Believe in love at first sight?
-*- attraction.. but never love.

-Ever dated two people at once?
-*- hahaha!!!

-Ever been given a promise ring?
-*- yeah… 3 out of my 4 relationship,, I had one.. but I love what I have now…

-Ever been given an Engagement ring?
-*- nope… but I hope someday…

-Do you want to get married?
-*- yeah why not… in the near future… if everything’s right…

-Do you have something to say to any of your exes?
-*- be happy and God bless…

-Ever stolen someone’s boyfriend or girlfriend?
-*- no! I’m not that bad.

-Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend?
-*- crush lang… hehehe!

-Do you believe in true love?
-*- OF COURSE!!!

-Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?
-*- Even worse! I can’t find the right words to describe it. But what is good about it is that, after all the pain, the most wonderful part is the feeling after it. Yung bang rising after you fall… Ay ewan! Basta yun na yun! :p

Buhay nga naman...

A few days ago I had a chance to talk to my sister who is based in Canada. And I learned a few things from her about what a “certain person” told her about me. Yes, I would be really honest about my reaction, I felt hurt and betrayed. Of course! What should I expect from that “certain person” who couldn’t careless to know the whole truth before judging me? Judging me. Yes. Judging me without knowing the whole story. It was unfair. But that’s reality. Some people claimed they are righteous. Righteous you say? How dare you say you’re righteous when you can’t forgive people who humbled themselves and people who accepted their mistakes and apologized for it? ANO YUN KAPLASTIKAN?!

Righteous – meaning moral, good, “just”, blameless, upright, honorable, HONEST. Do you understand that?

Maybe you are righteous in your “own” way or hope to believe you are. Mahirap sabihing righteous ka eh… Few people possess this virtue. I don’t believe there are many of them out there and I don’t think you’re one of them.

This question has been in my mind for quite some time now - “What lifestyle are you talking about?” You say you can’t believe the kind of lifestyle I have now. What lifestyle?! Pwede paki elaborate! Magsasalita ka nalang eh hindi mo pa sabihin ng deretso. Hindi mo pa sabihin sa harap ko!

Lifestyle – way of life, standard of living, existence, routine, daily life, everyday life, means.

Ano ba gusto mong maging lifestyle ko? Base sa lifestyle mo? Or “gusto” mong maging lifestyle?
Ano bang problema mo?! Ilang taon ka na nga ba? Ilang taon na ako?! Babae ka ba? Babae ba ako?! Pareho ba tayo ng generation? Nandyan ka ba nung early teenage life ko to support me? Nandyan ka ba when I felt depressed prior to the event when I learned I was adopted? Nandyan ka ba when I felt lost? WALA. Because you have your own family to take care of. Occasionally you make yourself available, yes and I’m grateful for that. Pero iba pa rin kung babae sa babae o magulang sa anak.

We grew up in a family that isn’t close. We don’t show emotions that well. Heck! We don’t even say how we love each other out in the open. Why? I don’t know, but that’s just the way how we were brought up. Tahimik. We all have our “own” lives and we live it separately. But we know how our parents supported us and tried to give us a good future. Pero kung ano man tayo ngayon eh sariling desisyon na natin yun.

Yes, I do have a different lifestyle from all of you. I smoke. I drink. Pero I don’t smoke in front of you, out of respect. I go out with my friends and have fun but CLEAN FUN! God! I’ve known them half of my life. There are times when I feel, they know me better than all of you.

How dare you say “my kind of lifestyle” when you don’t even know me! How dare you accuse me of things without knowing the truth. How dare you to judge me without knowing my side. HOW DARE YOU!

And then what?! You’ll suddenly say “hindi kasi kadugo kaya ganyan ang ugali.” Yun lang ba? Yun lang ba ang basehan nyo? Purkit ampon ako at walang bahid ng dugo ng Lopez at Medalla kaya ganun ka sama ang ugali ko?! Well… Excuse me! I might not be a perfect person, pero hindi ako naninira ng relasyon ng mga magkakapatid dahil lang sa pera, kasakiman at ambisyon tulad ng “ibang” tao dyan. Alam ko kung saan ako lulugar. Hindi ako nangangagaw ng hindi akin. Hindi ako pumapapel para mapansin. At hindi ako plastic! If I don’t like you, I show it. Hindi ako ngiting asong haharap sayo. I don’t kiss people’s asses just to get their approval. It’s either you like me or hate me, nothing in between.

My lifestyle is not based on what the society dictates. I do my own thing. The things I love and like. The things I dream and hope about. I’m not arrogant. Hindi ako madamot at higit sa lahat hindi ako pretentious. I live this lifestyle dahil kaya kong panindigan ito. Kung may pera eh di meron kung wala eh di wala. Ganun ka simple yun.

If I continue to do the things you think I shouldn’t be doing just because I’m just being me and you think I don’t have the right, you better think again. There is no way I would give up what I’m doing now because I know how to support my own LUHO. I can do things that would make me happy without spending. And I know how to adjust to people and the things around me. I’m not a spoilt brat! Tanong lang, are you the only one who deserves to be happy? To go out and have fun, go on vacation, go shopping, to eat in a good restaurant, kayo lang ba?

Funny you know, you say so many things about me and as if kayo wala kayong kamalian sa buhay nyo. Tama ba yung pagtaguan mo mga kapatid mo o pamilya mo about what’s going on with your life. Why? Are you afraid to be questioned about it? To be judged? To be envied? O pakialaman? Hindi ko makita logic dun… Pero kayo dami nyong nakikita sa ibang tao pero takot naman kayo masilip. Gulo nyo! Bakit ayaw nyong malaman at makita kung anong lifestyle meron kayo pero ibang tao pinanggigilan nyo. Kasi takot kayo at ayaw nyo may nangengealam sa buhay nyo pero kayo gagaling nyong magsalita. Puro salita.

Sana lang noh… Sa dinami-dami nyo ring alam tungkol sa buhay ko at sa dinami-dami nyo ring masasabi tungkol sa pagkatao ko… Sana alam nyo rin ang mga salitang RESPETO. KAPATAWARAN at BUKAS NA ISIP. Sana lang talaga…dahil may mga pinag-aralan naman kayo. Put it into good use… Yun lang.


(I didn’t write this and make it public to hurt the people concern. I know in some ways, they might read this entry. These are my reactions, my feelings, emotions and MY OWN OPINION. I’m just being honest. This is my open journal. Sometimes… the truth hurts.)

Cafe Ten Titas Part 2

Spanish Sardines Pasta

Fish 'N Chips Earl's Style

Tokwa't Baboy Reduxe

Breakfast In Vigan

SINFULLY YUMMY!!!

Dog or Cat?

You Are: 50% Dog, 50% Cat

You are a nice blend of cat and dog.You're playful but not too needy. And you're friendly but careful.And while you have your moody moments, you're too happy to stay upset for long.

Are you more Dog or Cat?

Hair Day

Yesterday I had a hair spa and a perm. Oh yes! A perm! I don't know what the hell I was thinking and why in the world did I ever do it. Hoping against hope that what I did would turn out to be a good decision for me. Alas! According to my friends and my angel’s the new hairstyle fits me well. I hope they’re not saying it because they don’t want to hurt my feelings… Hehehe!

It’s been over a decade since I had my hair perm. Since then, it’s been always either hot oil, color or a simple cut for me. Never perm. But last night, maybe it was out of boredom or the bad spirits possessing me. Jet and I just finished watching Nacho Libre – maybe it was Jack Blacks curly hair that inspired me unconsciously! – And we were walking around Megamall when I saw the Ricky Reyes hair salon. I’ve been contemplating about getting my hair fix. As in FIX talaga. Because it’s been hanging there limp and dry and I’m so sick of tying it up all the time. I wanted something new. Drastically new. Like a new haircut or something. But curls won me over. Suddenly I found myself being fixed with the curlers and soon the same old scent of the curling solution engulfed me. I was excited and at the same time skeptical about the end product. Questions came flying from no where. Will it fit me well? Will it go with my personality? How will I care for it? Will Jet like it? Won’t I look like a bimbo? Won’t I look stupid with it? What the fuck am I doing here!!!??? Whaaaa!!!! But I want a new change in my life right? New me right? Kaya panindigan mo yan bruha! Bwahahaha!!! :p

Jet walked around the mall the first 30 minutes I was there. When he got tired he went back to the salon and just sat there beside me. Imagine he sat there for three hours! And He was behaved the whole time – no fidgeting or whatsoever, maybe because of the people around him. Poor Jet, he was suffering but couldn’t do anything about it. Ika nga, napasubo na raw sya. Mas gusto daw nya dun sa Tip’s N’ Toes kasi mas nakakausap nya mga tao. Kabiruan kasi nya yung nail tech ko eh. Close na sila. Kalokah!

The result, I liked it actually - which is good. But it would take time for me to get used to it. I look different I guess. I don’t comb my hair that much – which I love. Hehehe! Though I need to find a good product for curly hair. The next good thing about having my hair done at Ricky Reyes is the 50% discount I got because after all they’re our client! Thank you to my brother who made it possible.

We left Megamall around 9pm already, way pass the color coding. Jet was tired and I was still high with my curls.

The last message I got from Jet before going to bed was, “Be, d2 nko bhay! Gudnyt…Iloveyou! Ndi nko sama syo ricky reyes! Waaaa!” Don’t worry be, hindi na kita isasama dun ulit! But thank you thank you talaga for being so nice and so good to me. Imagine, you did stay with me and never once complained for three hours. I LOVE YOU more for that! Hehehe!