Mr. Next

Think your Mr. Next has the potential to be Mr. Right? Before you leap without looking, take an honest inventory. See how many of the following five essential traits he possesses.

Dating Trait #1: He listens to you

The best way to know if Mr. Next is interested in (and worthy of) being a candidate for Mr. Right? He listens to you. You'll know he's listening when he shows genuine concern, consistently remembers things you've told him (your birthday, favorite food, best friend's name, etc.), and offers emotional support in honest and thoughtful ways.

Dating Trait #2: He connects with you easily

We've all been in those relationships that take W-O-R-K (and suck the life force out of us in the process). When a relationship works on its own, it feels effortless, easy, and fluid. You don't have to force anything, forgive anyone, or turn a blind eye to red flags or gut-twisters. Instead, you communicate and collaborate with comfort, compatibility, and undeniable chemistry. If and when you experience this kind of interaction, you are on to something really special.

Dating Trait #3: He wants the real you

So often, women feel the need to sacrifice some part of themselves to make a relationship work. In the right relationship, there's no need. You don't have to hide, tone down, or apologize for any aspect of you or your fabulous life. With the right partner, you're not only able to be yourself, but you're better able to be the best version of your most authentic self -- no compromises needed.

Dating Trait #4: He's trustworthy

A relationship without trust is doomed from the start. But a relationship with abundant trust? A fabulous foundation for real and lasting love! Built over time, trust is based on the simple belief system that your partner has your best interests at heart and will never intentionally hurt you (and vice versa). If and when you discover that Mr. Next is 100 percent trustworthy, you'll have no trouble giving your heart to him. In return, he'll most likely give you his heart and pave the way for a lasting, loving relationship to unfold

Dating Trait #5: He enriches your life

In the wrong relationship, your partner tears you to emotional shreds, brings you down, and in general drains your energy. In the right relationship, he enriches your life, inspires you to be your best self, and brings a sense of peace and possibility to you. You'll know Mr. Next is enriching your life if and when he encourages and supports you professionally, personally, and spiritually. And when he does, he may just be Mr. Right!

Conversations...

H: “Sana kaw ung magpabago ng simple kong buhay”

S: “Gawin nating wild?”

H: “Pwede rin! Hahaha!!!”

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S: “Araw-araw naman tayo nagkikita ah? Hindi pa ba enough yun?”

H: “Di nga kasi sa floor limited ung masolo kita”

S: “Masolo ka dyan! Bad ka hah!”

H: “Kasi gusto ko mawork out ung pagkatok ko sa puso mo…”

S: “Steady lang ha… Easy lang… Let’s not rock the boat too much…”

H: “Oo naman… Sana kaw ang maging partner ko sa buhay… Gawin ko lahat para maging karapat-dapat akong partner mo…”

S: “It’s going to be a long journey…”

H: “Ok lang…”

S: "We'll see..."

AFTER A WHILE (Veronica Shoftshall, 1971)

After a while you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up
and your eyes ahead
with the grace of woman,
not the grief of a child

And you learn to build
all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground
is too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way
of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn
that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone
to bring you flowers.

And you learn
that you really can endure
you really are strong
you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn
with every goodbye, you learn...

Then After "after a while" you change and build your hopes again. And pray that maybe this time it will be different. And you hold on to that hope because in the end that's all you really have..

AFTER "AFTER A WHILE"

After 'after a while'
You want to hold a hand
not to chain a soul but to enjoy its company,
and you want someone's lips to kiss,
not because you are lonely but because you are
happy, and you want to give presents
and you want to make promises.

After 'after a while'
You begin to accept your defeats like an adult,
but like a child, will want someone to listen and care,
and you want someone who will build roads with
you today so maybe you can pave the way for your
future together.

After 'after a while'
You want someone's sunshine and warmth,
but also accept the rain and the cold,
and you want to give flowers picked from your
own garden.

And when your garden is picture perfect,
you want it to be more than a picture
even if it means having to be imperfect
because you want someone in it to stay and to live.

Then you'll see that there is
such a thing as love...
and that you were made to live in someone else's
garden...
and you'll know that there is more to life than
yourself.

AND NOW...
You realize that no matter how tightly you hold,
if you're meant to let go, you can
And then you will understand that love
gives you reasons to understand
even the most complicated situations
And you will grow older believing that just
because you have convictions
doesn't mean you're always right

You will remember lips because of the smiles
that made your day,
the words that touched your soul, not only
because of the sweet kisses

And as you graciously accept defeat and absorb
the meaning of lessons learned,
You feel that you are finally being the person
you never thought you'd be

So, armed with courage, strength and confidence,
you will face the world
head on...
With or without an army behind you
Because you know your worth and that alone is an
armor

With more heartbreaks you will cry
But after every heartache, you will rise

Life is a garden ... it takes long to make it beautiful.
But it's always worth the wait..

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Thanks Hazel for posting this... I love every word of it.

Surprise! Surprise! Surprise!

Last day of shift, TL Red approached me with TL Tony from New England. They said they have to take my picture. I asked why and what for? And TL Red it has something to do with me being a top agent for our team for the month of February! Huwaaat!!!! Me?? Top agent for the month of February for our team! I was repeating every word he was saying… My Gad! I was really surprised and I didn’t expect it! And of all the days, they chose to take my picture today when I didn’t have any make up on and I had only 4 hours of sleep… Bummer! But I was happy… TL Red said I should feel proud because not everybody has the chance to be one. By Tuesday shift, my face will be plastered in all the plasma TV’s on the floor together with other team’s top agent!!! Whaaaaaa!!!

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Saturday night went to Dhezies house at around 11pm to have a drinking session with Ruby, Anthony and Mike, just the five of us. It was fun. Kwentuhan lang about our lives at makinig sa videoke night ng kapitbahay nila Dhez. Hehehe! After six bottles of Redhorse, as a celebration narin for being a top agent, I bought five more bottles of Redhorse. Unang sumuko si Ruby. Well actually she was not drinking much and she went home ahead of me na. Then last two bottles si Dhez naman ang sumuko na and went up and slept already… Hahaha! So for the remaining tagayan, it was only me, Mike and Anthony… Pasulpot-sulpot si Jev to check on us. Finally when I took the last shot na, sabi ko I have to go home na. Maliwanag na kaya! It’s 6am! Hahaha!!! They were convincing me to sleep over nalang.. Sabi ko naman my house is like less than 3 minutes away lang naman and besides Ate Lita will kill me if she learns I didn’t come home.

It was fun seeing Anthony again and meeting Mike.

And now lazy Sunday afternoon nursing a bad hang-over! God! Woke up with a splitting headache! The only part I hate about drinking too much is the next day and when I’m forced to throw up to get rid of the alcohol in my system. I hate it! As much as I could I don’t want to throw-up. I was planning pa naman to go to Cubao and have coffee sana and buy some stuff… Hay I was too lazy… Just spend the day with Edward nalang. Watching whatever on the TV…

Another weekend is gone… Another work week ahead… Hay!!!! Oh my gad! Mamaya na pala ung mga pictures namin makikita! Whaaaa!!!!! Parang ayokong pumasok! Hehehe!

A Dog Story

I just watched Hachiko, a Richard Gere movie based on a Japanese true story about a dog that waited for his master everyday at a train station even after his death; A story of loyalty and unconditional love.

I learned about this story when I was in highschool. I would always catch this show about Japan in channel 9 while I’m preparing for school and one day they feature this story of a bronze statue of a dog at a train station this caught my attention then years after a movie is made.

What really amazes me until now is the capacity of a dog to really love you unconditionally, to be loyal even though there are times when you’re not there to take care of them and when some times you’re too busy and yet they don’t mind and they still love you no matter what.

They will love you when you’re at your worse and be there at your best. No ifs or buts…

I love the movie… pero medyo bitin sya… Hehehe…

I love dog movies… they don’t fail to make me cry everytime…

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Let me tell you a story about one of my dogs Mandy that really surprised me.

She’s my first dog and the “ate” of all my dogs here. A little bit spoiled and maldita too but could be very malabing at times. She loves Ate Lita, one of my angels here at home. At night, if Mandy wants to go out and pee she would wake up Ate Lita with her distinct bark and Ate Lita would know that she wants to go out and would open the window and Mandy would do her thing. When Mandy wants to go out she would wake Ate Lita and only her.

But one night, Mandy went to the angel’s room and started barking at Jenelyn and when she woke up thinking that Mandy just wants to go out, she started for the window but then Mandy went the opposite way to where I slept. Jenelyn thinking that there must be something wrong followed her immediately and found Mandy sitting in front of my door and wagging her tail. Only then that Jenelyn realized I was still asleep and it was already 11:30pm and I was going to be late. Then Mandy started barking again and Jenelyn knocked on my door and when I answered only then did Mandy stopped barking.

How could she know that I was still sleeping? How could she know I was going to be late if I didn’t wake up anytime soon? That was the only incident that I almost over slept since I’ve been working. I can’t still believe she did that. Hehehe! When I’m off to work she’s the one who sees me leave and when I come home she’s the first one to greet me. Like as if she could hear or smell me miles away, and when I open the door she’ll be there wagging her tail ready to jump and lick my face.

She’s getting a little old now. I’m not counting the years though; I’m looking forward to having her beside me till I grow old hopefully.

That’s just one of those stories I have with my dogs. I love all of them. They make me happy. They comfort me. They’re there no matter what.

:)

ooohhh!!!

some'thing' is coming soon...

i can't hardly wait!!!!!

Empathy!!!

I had a coaching with my TL Red last Saturday. Actually it was a performance review as by March 7, we will be officially regularized by our company. (Yes! After months of hard work, everything paid off.)

I'm doing very well with my OPI, second highest for Team Red (as per February). My attendance for the first quarter of the year is okay. So far no absences and lates yet. Just have to maintain this till the end of March and I'll have that quarterly bonus! In our team, I'm the only one candidate for it. As far as performance wise, my documentation is 99%, AHT is below 600, my only problem is my QA. I always get a mark down for "empathy" as I'm always tamad making my empathy statements. But if only I could just get my heart into it, as per TL said "Think of what it could do to your OPI if you get high a score with your QA.. Think of it... You're in a good position na. Konting trabaho nalang sa empathy"... And as what my friend Mariel also told me, "Mars, baklain mo ang tawag mo!" Hahaha!

I promised myself beginning March I will do that. Empathy! Empathy! Empathy!

Seriously, I didn’t think that I’ll ever enjoy working in a call center. But I am. I didn’t even know I could excel in a job like this. When my TL asked me what my goal is, I didn’t tell him that I wanted to be trainer. One thing I’m sure of, I don’t want to be a TL because basing it from all the work loads my TL has everyday… Kakapagod kaya! Hahaha! Secretly, being a Trainer is what I really like to do someday.

But for the meantime, gain more knowledge and experiences. Do my job well, and make every call a good, quality call, maski buraot ang mga lintek na mga customer na yan… Hahaha!!! As what my philosophy is, all work stops when I leave the office. I don’t bring the stress and angst at home. I don’t want and will not be affected by bad calls. Ganun talaga… There are good days and there are bad days… Learn to separate yourself from all the calls you get. I’m not an irate agent… Too soft spoken pa nga daw. Hahaha! But when it’s called for, I do get a little authoritative with the customer…

Hay... Life nga naman… I’m doing good… I’m doing good…

Life is Good!

xoxox

(and cross my fingers na hindi na kami malipat ng State… Hopefully, it is final that we will stay with Michigan… rumors are circulating that in a few more months we’ll get transferred to Indiana or worse… I don’t know what to call it… worse or better… be super agents “daw”…. Whatever that means… that scares the heck out of me…)

Monday mornings...

I know we had the same work days and I know practically his schedule now… Hehehe!!! But what surprises me is that I see him much often now even though he should be on the floor but he’ll be in the pantry when it’s my lunch and I would find him in Hacienda when we’re about to go home. Crazy coincidence….

I don’t want to assume things because mahirap umasa diba? Hirap madisappoint… But I love seeing him around though… Hehehe… And trying to figure out what the heck is it tattooed on his neck! My friends can’t read it either… All the more curious I am…

I didn’t see him last Saturday and all my teammates were looking for him too… I learned from TL Jei-Ar that he came to work late - around 11am and I was home by then… Oh well… I’ll see him on later hopefully…

But then, Michigan people will have a different bay na… Huhuhu!!!

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Saturday night was Dhezie’s birthday dinner. Went there a little bit late because I woke up late and had a little bit of stomach ache too. Ako pa daw yung malapit lang ang house tapos ako pa daw ang late.. Hehehe!!! I was supposed to be there around 7am kaso I woke up at 7:30pm took time to get ready and finally when I’m all dressed up sumakit naman ang tiyan ko… Finally at 9:30pm I was bound to her place which is only a 5minute ride from my place… I arrived finding Ron and her husband already there, Kim and her girlfriend Joey, Benny and his boyfriend Jovan and Dhezie’s friends Joseph and Anthony… Nagiinuman na sila.. I brought with me some of the left over alcohol from our team building – 2 grand matador 1 liter each – which was consumed in less than an hour I think… Hay! Then Ruby came, Madam and TL Jei-Ar… Kwentuhan and more alcohol was bought.

Then TL and I got to talk about the guy I like. That’s when he told me he was late earlier kaya di ko sya nakita. Jei-Ar and another TL- JM calls him “angas factor” daw… Hindi daw sya ganun ka guapo… which I find true… hindi sya ganun ka guapo, pero may dating! Hehehe! May angas! We agreed that he speaks English really good and sounds even better… Some of my friends ang biruan namin tungkol sa kanya is that “parang di ka daw bubuhayin sa kama!” Hahaha!!! Syeet! He’s not that tall, pero maputi at malinis tingnan… I find him really nice to look at… Everytime na naiisip kong napapagod nako mag take ng calls, all I have to do is think about seeing him at 6:00am in the morning and all will be worth it na… Hahaha!!! Really.. minsan, naiisip ko lang na makikita ko na sya in a few more hours and everything will be well… Nakakalokah…

TL Jei-Ar said he would find a way to speak to him and find out his name… Ha! Para talagang highschool feeling ko.. May crush crush pang nalalaman ang gagah! Oh well.. He is one of the reasons why I love working though aside from having good friends and not having a boring weekend anymore…

Anyways, back to Dhezie’s birthday dinner. Love the kare-kare though… maski unti lang kinain ko dahil masakit parin ang tiyan ko… Got a chance to speak with Anthony and learned that he lives one street away from me lang pala… He was a bit drunk narin Hehehe…. Ang kulit kulit about Baliwag Lechon insisting that we owned the place.. Hahaha!!! Around 4am narin ako nakauwi… Didn’t drink that much though…

Sunday… woke up at around 8:30am… Spent the whole day with my Edward… Ang kulit kulit.. haba narin ng hair nya… Walang ginawa kundi mangulit at mangagat… Hay! Watched TV and DVD the whole day.. By 5:30pm I was asleep already and now… Woke up at 2:30am.. Nothing to do.. Hahaha!!! Edward’s gone… back to his cage.. Didn’t realized that Jenelyn took him na…

Hmmm… Need to go St Joseph later.. was not able to go last night… Hay….

Hahaha!!!

What is it like working in a call center? Well it is something that I didn’t expect that I would like and that I would enjoy. Honestly at first I was having a hard time adjusting with the work hours, especially when we got pulled out from our original account and was trained for five days – only! and was transferred to a different market and got a new schedule. It was one hell of transition. But in the end it was worth it… Why? Because I got to notice someone I would like on the floor... Hahaha!!! Actually it is not my priority at all. I discovered him by accident. I just used to see him every now and then but I was so occupied with my own work that I would think of him in passing. But right after our training, and we learned how petiks the new market was – at first, we had nothing to do at times, I found myself staring at him every chance I get. Hahaha! Parang highschool! Our bay was just next to theirs and I wouldn’t have a hard time finding him. Then, one day, during our petiks moment my friend, Dhez and I got to talk about him and Dhez started teasing me about him and when he passed by my station because at that time I was by the aisle. God! I was so embarrassed! I knew he heard Dhez because he looked at me. Para talagang highschool!!! Hahaha! Now, I don’t know if it’s by chance or whatever because I don’t want to give any meaning to it, he would seat where I’m facing. Shit talaga! Just like today, there are times that I would catch him staring at me and he would catch me staring at him and there was an instant that I was hiding behind my monitor and he would stand up, pretend to do something or whatever and I would catch him staring at me. Haaay! Ano ba un?! Hahaha!!! I’m not in love okay… I just like looking at him. At seven in the morning, he is someone I look forward to seeing everyday. He’s so yummy to look at… Hahaha!!!

Alex is another story. My teammate, actually I don’t know when it started, maybe during one of our drinking session. It began as a joke. I would tease him and everybody would tease us. Then during Jev’s birthday (Dhez’s husband), Alex and I became boyfriend and girlfriend for the night! Hahaha! Because RJ was teasing us and wouldn’t stop, until Alex told him yes we are an item and we held hands all night. But it was only because RJ wouldn’t stop and because of the alcohol.. Hahaha!!!! After the party, the whole team learned about that joke time we had and begun teasing us and Alex and I would pretend to be bf and gf on the floor.. Hahaha! It’s funny because he is not my type at all and I just find him very mabait and so serious with work. (We got to share our life story during one of the weekends we were forced to go to work and there was no call at that time.)

During our team building, we had this “honoring time” where in we talk about each other and saying only the positive things… When it was my turn and Alex was about to say something about me… the whole team erupted with laughter and kept teasing us. They called us Mommy and Daddy because we were the ones involved in the kitchen, while Alex was cooking our dinner, I was preparing our table. Hahaha! It was so fun… I kept asking Alex if he’s getting pikon na… And he would say no naman… Its all for fun though… Until now.. we would tease each other na kami na nga… and I would ask him “why sinagot mo na ba ako?” in which he would gladly say “matagal na kaya!” and the team would tease us endless… Dhez is the culprit though… She is pushing me towards Alex… Hahaha!!! Not yet Dhez.. I’m not ready for another relationship again… I want to enjoy every moment muna of being single.

I remember what one of my highschool buddy told me… “dyan nagsisimula yan.. sa tukso-tukso, one thing you know, kayo na pala….” Hahaha!!! Maybe, maybe not...

We’ll see…. Hahaha!!!

Is it really possible to be completely healed from a broken heart after just a few months?

In truth, yes it is possible because I have learned to forgive him and that is why now I can say that I have finally move on with my life. No more hoping and wishing for him to come back or to love me again. No more self pity no more this and that… No more regrets… Just a time to start loving myself and moving forward…

I never knew how wonderful it is to feel so free and liberated from all the angst of the past. I just woke up one day and felt no more loneliness or sadness of missing him or the bitterness of learning he found someone else. At first I felt betrayed, who wouldn’t be? But then again, it was a very slow process of healing and recovery and in the end I did survive it. What I learned from that experience, is that he was not the end of my life but the beginning of a new me and a new adventure.

It was a good start for the year 2010. Work is okay and I’m getting used to it now. The people I work with are great. We continue to know each other better and bond like a real family. Weekends now are spent either drinking session with them or just at home relaxing. Don’t have to worry about anything or anyone else but myself, my doggies and the people around me. I now have all the time in my life to do whatever I want and need. I never knew it could be this way, I thought a single person’s life is boring. Well, now I know why some people choose to be single. But of course I’m not closing my door to know someone someday and have a true partner in life not just a lover but somebody who would really go through life with me.

But for now, I’m pretty much content with what’s happening with my life. I couldn’t ask for more…

“Life is pretty simple…

If you ask for apples and you get lemons, make lemonade.

If you are on your way out and it starts to rain, at least you don’t have to water the plants.

It’s a matter of seeing things in perspective. The benefits may not be immediate or obvious,

but we have to know that there are problems and struggles.

Have faith. Enjoy life. Take it easy.

If today you’re picking the grapes, tomorrow you’ll be drinking the wine.”

You've Made Me Stronger

Is it hard to believe I'm okay
After all, it's been a while since you walked away
I'm way past crying over you finding someone new
You turned my days into night
But now I see the light
And this may be a big surprise to you

But you've made me stronger by breaking my heart
You ended my life and made a better one start
You've taught me everything from fallin' in love
To letting go of a lie
Yes, you've made me stronger,
By saying goodbye
If you'd rather believe I'm not over you
Go ahead - there's nothing wrong with making believe
I know 'cause I used to pretend you'd come back to me
But time has been such a friend
Brought me to my senses again
And I have you to thank for setting me free

Think again
Don't feel so sorry for me, my friend
Oh, don't you know
I'm not the one at the losing end

YOU MADE STRONGER BY SAYING GOODBYE...

(500) Days of Summer

"Look, i know you think that he was the one, but i don't.
Now, I think you're just remembering the good stuff.
Next time you look back,
I really think that you should look again..."

~nice movie... love it.. :)

On My Own

I'm wiser now
I'm not the foolish girl you used to know
So long ago
I'm stronger now
I've learned from my mistakes which way to go
And I should know
I put myself aside to do it your way
But now I need to do it all alone

And I am not afraid to try it on my own
I don't care if I'm right or wrong
I'll live my life the way I feel
No matter what I'll keep it real you know
Time for me to do it on my own
Yeah yeah, mmm, yeah yeah

It's over now
I can't go back to living through your eyes
Too many lines
And if you don't know by now
I can't go back to being someone else
Not anymore
I never had a chance to do things my way
So now it's time for me to take control

And I am not afraid to try it on my own
I don't care if I'm right or wrong
I'll live my life the way I feel
No matter what I'm gonna keep it real you know
Time for me to do it

Oh I start again go back to one
I'm running things in my way
Can't stop me now, I've just begun
Don't even think about it
There ain't no way about it
I'm taking names, the ones of mine
Yes I'm gonna take my turn
It's time for me to finally stand alone, stand alone

I am not afraid to try it on my own
And I don't care if I'm right or wrong
I'll live my life the way I feel
No matter what I'm gonna keep it real you know
It's time for me to do it
See I'm not afraid

In the infinity of life where I am, all is perfect,

whole, and complete, and yet life is ever changing.

There is no beginning and no end,

only a constant cycling and recycling

of substance and experiences.

Life is never stuck or static or stale,

for each moment is ever new and fresh.

I am one with the very Power that created me, and this Power

has given me the power to create my own circumstances.

I rejoice in the knowledge that I have the power

of my own mind to use in any way I choose.

Every moment of life is a new beginning point

as we move from the old. This moment is a new point

of beginning for me right here and right now.

All is well in my world.

We are each responsible for all of our experiences.

Every thought we think is creating our future.

The point of power is always in the present moment.

Everyone suffers from self-hatred and guilt.

The bottom line for everyone is,

“I’m not good enough.”

It’s only a thought, and a thought can be changed.

Resentment, criticism, and guilt

are the most damaging patterns.

Releasing resentment will dissolve even cancer.

When we really love ourselves, everything in our life works.

We must release the past and forgive everyone.

We must be willing to begin to learn to love ourselves.

Self-approval and self-acceptance in the now

are the keys to positive changes.

We create every so-called “illness” in our body.

Free At Last

I don’t know how to describe how I feel right now.

All I know is that I’ve never been this happy since the break-up three months ago. Should I say that I’ve already moved on? Or have let go of everything?

I believe so.

On the eve of my birthday he called me. Asking how I was, my dogs, even asking about my schedule. I was so surprised he called and I didn’t even recognize his voice (he was using a different number). He didn’t greet me though but he cried and said he was sorry for everything and congratulated me because I finally found work. Ok, I could accept the congratulatory greeting but not his apologies. Not yet. Maybe someday at the right time.

Before he called me, I was doing a little bit okay. There were times I would think of what happened. I would miss him and there would be the pain of missing him. After the call, I was left even more confused. Why would he call all of the sudden? When after breaking up with me, he wouldn’t even take my calls and wouldn’t answer my text messages. Why now when I thought I was doing okay and I thought I have moved on. Why?

I knew I had to find the answer to my question. I knew I had to end my suffering once and for all. I had to do something. Or else I would go insane and lose my job in the process.

I had an instinct. And I wanted to confirm it.

Two things came to my mind why this effing guy would call me. One, he’s guilty and he can’t moved on with his new life – new girlfriend and somehow saying sorry to me would heal all the pain he gave me (really?! Just like that?!) – Maybe that’s what he’s thinking… Two, he’s guilty and wants a second chance. Well… I chose the first one.

I sent a message to his sister. Confirmed what I know and got my answer. He has a girlfriend already.

That answered my question. My first choice was right. Bulls’ eye!

I felt relieved. I felt liberated. Suddenly I could breathe again! It felt like a heavy load was lifted from my chest and I could smell the air and feel the sun in my skin. I felt FREE.

Somehow, knowing the truth, made me accept the reason why he broke-up with me. It made accepting easier and letting go much easier. If only he was honest from the start. But as what Mariel said, it is hard to be honest because we know it would hurt. But nonetheless, it could have been better for both us if he was.

November 6th, three months after the break-up, for the first time, I had a smile on my face that day. Truly a sign that I’m over with the pain, with the holding on and thinking that one day he would come back to me. I was done. I was over it.

At least I know, I didn’t do anything wrong to him or to our relationship. It was not me who broke someone’s heart. And I could sleep at night without guilt in my soul.

Now, I will go to work with a new hope, new agenda, and a plan. A plan for my future. I look forward to each new day.

Before, I always say to myself that I could never love again. But after finding the truth and reading Re-Birth (and watching Notting Hill), I want to fall in love again. I want to love and be loved. I want to find that guy that would love me the way I am and accept me for who I am and really really take care of me not the other way around. And I’m excited for that. I’m excited to give my love to that someone who really deserves it.

I’m just happy that it’s over.

I’m happy and at peace with myself.

RE-BIRTH

"It isn't that we dare because things are difficult;
it is that we don't dare that they are difficult."

I lost a childhood toy... but have the memory of the person who gave me the gift with unconditional love.

I lost the privileges and fantasies of childhood... but had the opportunity of growing and living free.

I lost a lot of people whom I loved and still love... but had the affection and now have model from their lives.

I lost memories of life because I cried instead of smiling... but I discover that, it is from planting love that love is harvested.

I lost many things many times in my life. But in that "loss", today I aspire for the value of "gain"; ...because it is always possible to fight for that which we love; and because there is always time to start all over again.

It is not important the time of life when you tired. Important is that it is always possible and necessary to restart. Re-birthing is a new opportunity; it is renewing the hopes in life; and more importantly, it is believing in oneself.

Did you suffer greatly sometime?
... that was a time for learning.

Did you cry a lot?
... you were cleansing your soul.

Did you feel spiteful?
... it was a lesson on forgiveness.

At times, were you alone?
... it was because you closed your doors.

Were there times you believed everything was lost?
... it was simply the beginning of your improvement.

Did you feel lonely? Look around you and you will see people waiting for your smile, just to get closer to you.

RE-BIRTH

Today is an excellent day to start a new life project. Where do you want to go? Look higher, dream higher, desire the best, life brings us what we aspire.

If we think small; the small will come. If we think firmly on the best, on the positive and we strive for it; the best will come in our lives.

TODAY IS THE GREAT MENTAL CLEANSING DAY. THROW AWAY ALL THAT BINDS YOU TO THE PAST; ALL THAT HURTS YOU. DISCARD EVERYTHING INTO GARBAGE; CLEAN YOUR HEART; PREPARE IT FOR A NEW LIFE, AND FOR NEW LOVE, FOR WE ARE PASSIONATE. WE ARE CAPABLE OF LOVING MANY TIMES, BECAUSE WE ARE THE MANIFESTATION OF LOVE.

LIFE CALLS YOU; IT INVITES YOU TO A NEW ADVENTURE, A NEW JOURNEY, A NEW CHALLENGE. THIS DAY, PROMISE YOURSELF; THAT YOU WILL DO ANYTHING POSSIBLE TO ACHIEVE YOUR OBJECTIVES; TRUST IN LIFE, TRUST IN YOURSELF....

Breakup Recovery 101: Five Rules You Must Follow!

Whether or not you were together for two weeks, six months, or four years, breakups hurt. And they can be really hard to get over. If you listen to the wise words of Charlotte on Sex and The City , it takes half the time you were together to get over him. Here are a few more wise words to help make your next breakup a little easier.

Don't Talk to Him

The most crucial rule in breaking up is to not talk to the person you're breaking up with. Even if you think you can handle it and still get over the person, you can't. Don't kid yourself; feelings will get hurt. Take some time off, get over him, and maybe someday in the future you'll be friends. Until then, lick your wounds and recover any way you'd like; whether that be partying hard, staying in bed for days with pints of ice cream, or spending absurd amounts of money on clothes you don't need. No one will say a thing; we all heal in our own, weird ways.

>>My healing started when I found a job. It kept me busy, too busy and too tired to even think about him anymore. Although there are times that I miss him but the pain is not that intense anymore. I knew I was on my way to recovery.


Snap Out of It

Remember how things, like stupid songs and movies and that little spot in the park that you two went to on your first date used to be "yours"? Well, they're not anymore. Don't make a connection to platonic objects when there isn't one. Remind yourself that you like that spot in the park because of the good view, not because of anyone connected to it. There's no point losing more than you have to from a breakup, so don't get all sappy on yourself

>>Continue living your life... I know it's so hard but that's what I'm doing now.


Reconnect with Your Friends

No matter how much you say you're not going to be that girl who gives up her friends for her boyfriend; everyone gives up a little of their time to spend with their guy. Well, now is the time to make it up to them (and, you could use the girl talk). So, go out and have fun; grab your best wing woman, and remember how much fun being single really is.

>>When my friends learned about it, they all came to my rescue. Took me under their wings and let me cry my eyes out until I couldn't cry anymore. Made time from their busy schedule just to meet up with me and be with me when I felt sad or lonely. But I knew that there will come a time that I have to be alone and face the pain.


Take Some Time For Yourself

Amidst all of this trying not to talk to him, hanging out with friends, partying more and/or eating lots and lots of ice cream-you need to remember to sit back and actually work through your feelings. Understand why things went south, and why you're better off this way. And in no time you'll be back to your old self, and what's-his-name will be a thing of the past.

>>As what I've previously said, continue living your life. I still go to places where we used to frequently go because I enjoy going or hanging out there. It is my me time. My time to relax and unwind.


It's All About Rewards

And finally, do all of the little things that make you happy every day. Yep, being single means thinking about you, you, you. So, go and take that extra time after work and buy yourself that little ring you've been obsessing over. Or take a long walk and meet a friend for cupcakes because well, you can. Have fun spoiling yourself, because you deserve it after....wait, what? I'm forgetting already.

>>Thinking about my past relationships, I never really had anything longer than a month in between them. I guess I was eager enough to forget the ex that I jump into one relationship to another. Which I think now, was wrong. It didn't really gave me enough time to reflect why or what happened and didn't gave me enough time for myself. Right now, I just want to enjoy everything as a single girl. And now that I got a new job, I want to make plans for MY future and honestly speaking I already have a one-year plan and I'm all excited about it. All about myself.

Vacation Mode

Just a few more hours and I'm off to Coron, Palawan with Tet for a four day vacation... Yeepee!!!!!

See you soon blog! :p

What now?

Birth

When you open the book here, it signals new beginnings. Birth can be taken literally. Perhaps there is a baby on the way now, or very soon. Perhaps one has just been born. This is about fertility. The time is ripe for new life and new hope.

It can also signify the beginning of a new phase in your relationship, or even a new relationship. If you are hoping to fall in love you can afford to feel very optimistic. Something is gestating and in the near future it will manifest in your life and show itself. Right now you need to make sure that you keep your focus on your dreams and make the most of this period of potential. This is the time to encourage your creativity, to dust off those half-finished projects or start something new. You must admit to yourself what a new beginning would mean to you and then go after it. If you stay true to yourself, anything can be accomplished.

Birth provides you or your relationship with the opportunity of rebirth. You can start again in a new way. A fresh slate is being offered if you are willing to take it. But remember that infancy is the outcome of birth. It's a period of vulnerability and there is a strong need for nurturing and protection. You can't launch a new beginning and then neglect it and hope that all will turn out well. This is a time for focus and gentleness. Get support from those around you; new births don't flourish in solitude. Gather your clan around you and rejoice.