Sunday, February 13, 2011

Sunday Treat


I asked Love what he would cook for our Sunday lunch. He said he wanted something with ginataan -again! Anything with coconut milk he can cook it (being a Bicolano). Ginataang Tulingan. Soooo delicious! For snack we cooked the Banana Fritters.

Another week starts tomorrow. Back to work after six days of paid leave. Hay! Lazy to go back but have too. Kalimutan ko na ata mag-english! Hahaha!!! "Thank you for calling - - - -. Ina speaking, how may I help you?" Whhhaaaa!!!! Ayoko pa pumasok! :)

Meanwhile, movie marathon...

Saturday, February 12, 2011

FB


CitiVille, my own city! :)

Emergency/Vacation Leave since Tuesday gave me enough time to recover and do a lot of things on FB... Game that is. Last year I created a second account to be my real account and the first account became my gaming account; as I am so hooked with FarmVille, Mafia Wars, FrontierVille, Farm Town and most recently CityVille. I know, so childish! But it is so addictive! But now, I'm down to two games, FarmVille and CitiVille. Hehehe!!!

Boyce Avenue

Love & Edward

Love them both.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Love

Thank you so much Love for being there.

Thank you for being my strength when I needed it most.

Thank you for all the understanding, comfort and love.

I couldn't ask for more. You are truly wonderful.

Thank you for holding my hand while I sleep.

Love you so much.

I miss you already.

Tomorrow feels a century. Can't wait to be in your arms again...

Wednesday, February 09, 2011

Bad Luck

Pak shit! Kung minamalas ka nga naman oh! PAK SHIT TALAGA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tsaka na kwento.... Hay!!!!!!

Monday, February 07, 2011

Love


"Sometimes the things you want the most don't happen and what you least expect happens. You meet thousands of people and none of them really touch you. And then you meet that ONE PERSON and your life is changed "- -Love and other Drugs.

Sunday, February 06, 2011

Weekend

Went to Bacoor, Cavite to see our TL. It was nice seeing him again.

Then off to Tagaytay with the gang. It was fun and so tiring. Loving the cool weather! Of course had bulalo for lunch. Got to try Rowena's at last! Bought Buko Pie which was really good, not too sweet, just right! Chocolate and Blueberry Tart - YUMMY!!! and Sylvannas - i really love it when it is room temperature and it just melts in your mouth.



Sunday Treat: Love cooked sinigang na baboy. Sinfully yummy!!!
Look at that fat! My gad! Hypertension here I come! Hahaha!!!

Wednesday, February 02, 2011

A Miracle


A picture began circulating in November. It should be "The Picture of the Year,"... or perhaps, "Picture of the Decade." It won't be. In fact, unless you obtained a copy of the U.S. paper which published it, you probably would never have seen it.

The picture is that of a 21-week-old unborn baby named Samuel Alexander Armas, who is being operated on by surgeon named Joseph Bruner. The baby was diagnosed with spina bifida and would not survive if removed from his mother's womb. Little Samuel's mother, Julie Armas, is an obstetrics nurse in Atlanta. She knew of Dr. Bruner's remarkable surgical procedure. Practicing at Vanderbilt University Medical Center in Nashville, he performs these special operations while the baby is still in the womb.

During the procedure, the doctor removes the uterus via C-section and makes a small incision to operate on the baby. As Dr. Bruner completed the surgery on Samuel, the little guy reached his tiny, but fully developed hand through the incision and firmly grasped the surgeon's finger. Dr. Bruner was reported as saying that when his finger was grasped, it was the most emotional moment of his life, and that for an instant during the procedure he was just frozen, totally immobile.

The photograph captures this amazing event with perfect clarity. The editors titled the picture, "Hand of Hope." The text explaining the picture begins, "The tiny hand of 21-week-old fetus Samuel Alexander Armas emerges from the mother's uterus to grasp the finger of Dr. Joseph Bruner as if thanking the doctor for the gift of life."

Little Samuel's mother said they "wept for days" when they saw the picture. She said, "The photo reminds us pregnancy isn't about disability or an illness, it's about a little person" Samuel was born in perfect health, the operation 100% successful. Now see the actual picture, and it is awesome...incredible....and hey, pass it on! The world needs to see this one!

Tuesday, February 01, 2011

Sad News


I just received a text message from my supervisor today (who was on paternal leave since last week). His son, who was born January 27, died last Saturday night and the body was cremated thereafter. We still don't know the cause of death. But I knew, together with his wife, they did what they could to have a safe pregnancy. They never missed a doctor's appointment and this is their second child already - first boy supposedly.

My heartfelt condolences to the Yerro Family. I know this is not easy and things will get rough. Be strong. My prayer's with you.

For little Jaden Dominic, may you rest in peace. You are now an angel to seat beside our Lord. In your short time here on earth, you are loved by many.




Monday, January 31, 2011

Weekend

Spent the weekend at home loved the cool weather.
Was able to washed Mandy after 3 hours of pleading and bargaining.
Movie marathon since Saturday night.



And while Love cooked the Ginataang bilo-bilo for our Sunday treat,
the angels sung their heart out with their new found hobby - Magic Sing.

A new week awaits.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Yey!

Happy Sunday morning!!!

Friday, January 28, 2011

TGIF


Yey! Week's almost done. Last day tonight! Down to the last five days of abay... Hay! Almost there though... Have to past the last test and we are certified! Yahooo!!!

Last Monday was really ngarag day! Felt like giving up with all the hard calls we got. Almost cried in front of my monitor. Hahaha! But as the days go by, everything became clear and with all the support from our Trainer and our very nice TL (both from our North America offices) well, we are surviving and excelling beyond what they expected from us...

Got a good news today also. Finally Team Red is the top team for the 4th quarter and TL Red is the top Team Lead (who by the way is now a Senior Team Lead)... Way to go TEAM RED!!! Very proud of what our team have accomplished. We left Collections with a big bang! Now, trying to get our feet wet with Billing... Hopefully everything will fall into place and we all get what we want - to be successful for this new campaign and prove to our North America counter part that we can do it! Aja!

Sixteen months in a call center and I have pioneered three major campaigns! Hay! I'm still enjoying my stay and my work. New challenge to face yet again. Still proving ground. Waiting for the right time... :)

Weekend's here! QT with Love... Missed him so much! Can't wait to cook something for our Sunday Treat!

Monday, January 24, 2011

Late Post

Last January 6th as a celebration of our 9th month together (1.4.2011), we decided to try this restaurant in Tiendesitas - Bistro Mateo. Loved the clam chowder, tasted just right. Pasta Ysabel was good also but Love did not like it, he said it tasted bland (he likes his food salty kasi) and Pasta Stroganoff was "nakakaumay" because of too much oil. Nachos was plain and simple, which I surprisingly liked, not your typical pulutan na nachos. Love, ordered Calamansi with honey - it was forgettable! Hehehe! Will try another restaurant for the 10th monthsary! :)

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Sunday Lunch


Lab cooked one of my favorite viand - Ginataang kalabaasa with shirmps! So yummy! While Ate Lita grilled some Bangus... Had lunch with the rest of the angels and Rey... After that, videokokak to the max! Hahaha! Off to the mall today... Shopping shopping shopping! :)

Friday, January 21, 2011

Thoughts

Last day of training! Final exam! Graduation! Weekend! Yey!

Finally! Our two-week training ends tonight. What have I learned? Rate Codes! Doc I.D.'s! Promos! And all the nitty gritty stuff about billing! Hopefully I will pass our final test. Huhuhu! Shame if I don't! Hahaha!!! :p

What I'm most excited about is our graduation breakfast with the whole MI30 gang and our trainer after our shift and of course spending weekend with Love...

What I'm NOT excited about is the start of our Abay this coming Monday! Whhaaa!!!!

HAPPY WEEKEND EVERYONE!!!

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Love...


I miss you so terribly... I wish it's weekend already... :(

Monday, January 17, 2011

Random Craziness


*photos taken 11.16.2010

Friday, January 14, 2011

On Love

When we fall seriously in love...
we always wish that the feeling would mutually grow and stay forever...
but sometimes no matter how perfect a relationship may seem...
how many months or years you have been together...
"people just change and forget their promises of forever"...

Monday, January 10, 2011

Hay....

I'm having a separation anxiety! Hay! Kakatamad talagang pumasok!

Friday, January 07, 2011

Instant Scary Admirer

I don't even remember the last time I rode a jeep. I always take a cab wherever I go, for convenience and faster travel. Never did I thought that I will be bothered in riding one, until now.

I know a few people who does not want to ride a taxi alone, but my philosophy, "kung malas ka, malas ka" - with regards to holdappers and whatnot.

For more than a year now, I've been taking a cab in going to work and going home. The longest time it took me to travel from my house to Tiendesitas was 45minutes because of the holiday traffic and the shortest one was 10minutes. So, on average it will take me 12 to 15 minutes. Which I really love because I'm not stressed; I could leave the house 30 minutes before logging in and still have time to lit a cig. And going home is not a problem either. No traffic, no hassle, no stress.

Taxi drivers.... Well, kung malas ka, malas ka talaga. Hahaha!

Most of them are silent during the ride. A few will start telling stories (may it be their life or how they feel about the government) or engage me in a conversation because most of the time I look half asleep, disinterested, or I would just laugh or say nothing at all. I'm not very keen in conversing with them unless they are half asleep! Some of them would sing (this one I love, especially when I still have a Tues to Sat shift and I would go home Sunday morning and they have oldies but goodies playing in the background), some would ask personal questions like how old I was, or if I'm married already. Conversation will stop with the third question. Some would start to flirt with me and usually it will end me saying that I already have three kids and is happily married.

But, yesterday was a different story.

I left for work a little early because I was meeting Love at Tiendesitas, we wanted to have dinner before going to work. By the time I was hailing a cab, he was already there waiting for me.

So, just a typical taxi, typical taxi driver. Two minutes of travel, I could feel him looking at me from his rear-view mirror and when I caught his eyes, he smiled. I averted my eyes as if I didn't see anything.

Then the questions begun.

Taxi Driver: "mam ilang taon na po kayo"

Me: "30"

Taxi Driver: "mother nyo po ba yung kasama nyo maghintay?"

Me: "lola"

TD: "mam, may asawa na po ba kayo?"

Silence. Usually conversation stops here. I do my disinterested look and they usually stop asking question.

TD: "mam! ano mam, may asawa na po ba kayo?"

Me: "oo kuya!"

TD: "may anak na po ba kayo?"

Me: "magkakaron palang!"

TD: "mam, swerte ng asawa nyo...."

Me: "at bakit naman?"

TD: "kasi ang ganda-ganda nyo po eh"

Me: "ah okay salamat kuya"

Silence. I was not smiling throughout this conversation, I was looking at my watch and kept looking at the window. But, he was really persistent. And I notice that he was driving really slow and some cars were overtaking us. Hhhmm.... He was taking his time!

And I could still feel him looking at me. God! I was thinking of going down and hail another cab but then I was really running a little late. So I did my best to ignore him.

TD: "mam pano kung may magkagusto sa inyo, ok lang po ba?"

Silence.

TD: "mam ano ho? pano kung may magkagusto sa inyo? ok lang po ba?"

Silence.

TD: "mam..."

He turned to look at me while driving with his manyak grin. This is along Eastwood Libis already, as if waiting for my reply. I was scared we would hit something I quickly answered.

Me: "di na pwede kuya may asawa na ako, seloso un."

TD: "pwede naman nyang di malaman eh. mam, pwede po bang mahingi ang number nyo?"

Silence.

At this time I was feeling really really really scared. I was even thinking to jump off the cab. I was praying he would hurry up but he was even going slower by the minute. We were along Hinduja and approaching the intersection of C5 and Ortigas and he was driving 20miles per minute! God! I wanted to scream. My feet started to feel so cold and I was shaking. I wanted to call Love but I felt numb, I couldn't move. I was frozen.

TD: "mam number ko nalang po kunin nyo tapos text text tayo. ano mam? sige na mam. kunin nyo na."

He was really persistent and I was thinking if I won't get his number maybe he won't let me off his taxi, and I was paranoid that he will kidnap me or rape me! I was in the verge of crying.

Me: "ako nalang po kukuha ng number mo kuya."

I quickly wrote it down in a piece of tissue paper and almost missed my turn.

Me: "kuya kanan tayo dyan!"

Me: "kuya sa tabi nalang."

I quickly got my money and paid him, almost dropping the money cause I was in a hurry to go down. I didn't want our hands to touch.

He turned to me and said...

TD: "mam text mo ako ha tapos kita tayo ha."

Eeeeww!!!! Imagine him saying that with a sultry voice! He wanted to grab my hand but I quickly went down from the taxi, crossed the street from Transcom to Tiendesitas. But I could still feel his eyes on me and I could see him from my peripheral that he did not drove away but waited where I was going.

Finally I was able to see Love from the distance and I finally released the tears I was holding back. I was scared. I felt trapped. I felt the world grew very small inside that taxi, with that 20minute ride. I felt stupid that I did not handled the situation well. I felt I made him feel comfortable conversing with me, which is a big NO NO NO.


~to be continued~

Wednesday, January 05, 2011

Answered Prayer

Thank you so much Lord!
Can't wait for Jan. 10 to start!
So excited!

Saturday, January 01, 2011

New Year

Hello 1.1.11!!!

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Paulo Coelho

Never give up.

When your heart becomes tired,

just walk with your legs - but move on.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Thoughts

MI 30 or Soft-Disco MI???

Decisions... decisions... decisions...

What am I to do???

Friday, December 17, 2010

Thoughts

I don't know if I should feel flattered or scared. Flattered that I was hand-picked from so many agents or be scared because it is totally a new ball game - again.

I don't know... I'll think about it when January comes. For the meantime, enjoy what's left of 2010! :)

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Paulo Coelho

Love perseveres. It’s people who change.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Thoughts

"Fate brings you together, but its still up to you to make it happen. We may meet someone by chance, but keeping that someone
is still a choice."



And I'm definitely keeping you. Love you...

For My Love...

The greatest thing in life is finding someone who knows all of your mistakes and weaknesses and still finds you completely amazing and will never walk away...

On Love

If we lose love, we lose it for a reason. The reason may be hard to understand, but know that God takes away when He has something better to give.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Gifts




Thank you for all the gifts Love...
Really really loooveee them all :) :) :)

Hhmmmm........


cno itey??? girlaloo o boylaloo? secret walang clue! HAHAHA!!!!

Sunday, November 07, 2010

Laying All The Cards Down

What's the difference between loving someone and being in love with someone?

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I couldn't sleep for the past few days. It was like I was carrying something heavy and I was irritable.

Every little thing he does makes me angry or hate him.

I knew I had to tell him something about how I really felt deep inside. In truth it was me that I hated. It was not him. I was just projecting how I felt about myself. It was a constant battle inside me. I was mad. I was angry. I was frustrated.

Guilt.

Guilty for not feeling the same way he felt about me. For not giving the same way he is giving himself to me.

And I wanted to cry out every time I felt the pressure.

I asked him to come by at our house at 2 in the morning. I really felt the need to speak to him no matter what the time was. Whether he was sleeping or not, I felt I needed to see him. Good thing he couldn't sleep too.

I told him everything I needed to tell him without fear of rejection. I owe him that. The truth.

He felt a little bit hurt. But he said it doesn't make him love me any less. He said he is willing to wait.

Ever since then, I felt free. I feel no pressure.

At least now I don't have to pretend. I don't need to pressure myself and it felt liberating.

I feel I'm learning to fall IN love again.

Little by little.

I'm enjoying and appreciating all the things he shows and gives me. His little lambing and being open with our relationship. And I'm not pressured to do the same.

He said, "In your own time."

It felt good.

It feels good.

Thank you love... Thank you for everything...

Thank you for coming into my life.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Hahaha!

"The hypothalamus is one of the most important parts of the brain, involved in many kinds of motivation, among other functions. The hypothalamus controls the "Four F's": fighting, fleeing, feeding, and mating."
~Unknown psychology professor in neuropsychology course

Thoughts

"I believe that we are solely responsible for our choices, and we have to accept the consequences of every deed, word, and thought throughout our lifetime."
- Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Love...


Thank you for making the day special and for all the gifts. You really know how to spoil me. Love them all! Hihihi!!!

Had a very tiring day but everything was worth it. Mega kanta ako maski I don't like singing. Once I started you couldn't take the mic away, maski sintunado na. Hahaha!

Love you!!! Mwah! Mwah!

Later another celebration with my girlies. Miss them so much...

Friday, October 29, 2010

Whaaaa!!!

Can't wait for later... I'm so freaking excited! Finally, it's Friday.

Keeping my fingers cross for something hopefully nice later...

Hmmm... Just hoping he did got my subtle hints... *wink* *wink* *wink*

:) :) :)

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Sunday, October 24, 2010

The Way Love Goes by Lemar

i never thought that i would ever love again
i might be wrong cos i can feel it happening
a little scared but i am not petrified
i love forever, i promise to stay by your side
heart broken, my first and never spoken
i waited to hear and i gave it a year
so i stopped holding on and then you came along
and then you came along
i’m gonna, i’m i’m i’m gonna

i hold you, i love you the best that i can
until you understand that i need you
and i can’t dance alone cos the beat’s just too slow
that’s just the way love goes,
that’s just the way love goes (uh uh)

i used to think that i would never get to be
in love again cos that was the only one for me
and now i feel that you have come and saved me
this heart of mine awoken by your smile
heart broken, my first and never spoken
i waited to hear and i gave it a year
so i stopped holding on and then you came along
and then you came along
i’m gonna, i’m i’m i’m gonna

i hold you, i love you the best that i can
until you understand that i need you
and i can’t dance alone cos the beat’s just too slow
that’s just the way love goes,
that’s just the way love goes

i hold you, i love you the best that i can
until you understand that i need you
and i can’t dance alone cos the beat’s just too slow
that’s just the way love goes,
that’s just the way love goes

(gotta get strong, keep moving on)

someone’s coming to save me
someone’s coming to save me
save me, save me, save me

i hold you, i love you the best that i can
until you understand that i need you
and i can’t dance alone cos the beat’s just too slow
that’s just the way love goes,
that’s just the way love goes

i hold you, i love you the best that i can
until you understand that i need you
and i can’t dance alone cos the beat’s just too slow
that’s just the way love goes,
that’s just the way love goes

Saturday, October 23, 2010

One More Chance

"Siguro kaya tayo iniiwanan ng mga mahal natin dahil may darating pang ibang mas magmamahal sa'tin - 'yung hindi tayo sasaktan at paasahin... 'yung magtatama ng lahat ng mali sa buhay natin." :)

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Us



Soft-Disconnect 1st Anniversary
October 17, 2010
Elbow Room, Metrowalk

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Excited!

Celebrating our First Anniversary!

Comcast Soft-Disconnect

Elbow Room, Metrowalk
October 17, 2010 8:00pm

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Thoughts

I was checking my other FB account when my cousin started chatting with me.

The usually how are you. How's everybody blah blah blah...

And then out of the blue she asked me if I'm already married (as if they won't know if I was). Told her I was busy with work that marriage is out of the question. Then she said "YOU'RE OLD NA AH?" Thank you very much my dearest cousin. I started forgetting my age when I hit twenty-seven. I stopped counting. Sometimes when people ask how old i was I seemed stuck with that number. And mindfully say, twenty-seven!

I know! I'm turing 33 in about... exactly 11 days from now. But! what I know, I don't look my age! Hehehe! I fooled a lot of people from the office. They think I was in my mid-twenties. It feels good to be old and not look your age. Hahaha!!!

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Honestly, I really want to be married. I want a church wedding but sometimes I just want to elope and escape all the preparations and stuff. But I know, it is every girls dream to be married in a church. I'm not in a hurry. Not now. Not yet.

A friend of mine is getting married next year. I'm happy for her. So, in my barkada 6 are married and 4 remain single. Who will be next???

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One experience changed my perspective about marriage. I don't know why. Maybe the experience was too painful and at this point I'm just being careful and a little bit pessimistic. I can't help it! You were led to believe that it is the relationship that would lead to that and all of the sudden it was over. It broke my heart and changed my life.

No, I was not married before and got separated.

I was in a long-term relationship and it ended badly.

Why a change of heart with marriage when it was only a girlfriend-boyfriend relationship?

I don't know.

My five cents, no matter how much you love a person, it will never be enough. It will never be enough to secure the relationship. It will never be enough to bind you together. It will never be enough to make him happy. So what does a piece paper guarantee you? When separation and annulment is a piece of cake now a days.

I'm sorry. I'm being grumpy. I don't intend to burst any bubbles out there.

BOTTOM LINE, I believe, is that I'm so scared. So scared to give my all and be disappointed in the end. To be hurt again and to experience that kind of loneliness and sadness I thought I almost died.

I did died...

I lost a part of me that day and I never saw her again.

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Don't get me wrong. I love him. I do love him (that someone in my life right now). Although at times he would look at me and ask me why he's feeling that I'm not giving my all. That sometimes I'm so far and he couldn't get to me. One thread is not connecting no matter how much he tries to reach for me. In which I reply his imagination is running wild again. In truth, I'm scared to give him my all and fail in the end. Traumatize? Yes I was.

Sometimes, when I look at him, I see myself. The way he loves, the way he unselfishly give his all without question and the jealousy part! My goodness! Hands down! Hahaha! I'm scared for him sometimes, but one thing is for sure. I've been there and as much as possible I don't want him to feel how painful it was to lose someone you loved with all your heart and soul.

I know, it will take time for me to give my all but I know I'll get there. Sometimes it is just hard to pretend or rather be as happy or excited as he is whenever he talks about our future. He's doing all the planning and he is expecting that I'll be doing my part by next year. That I don't know. A part of me is excited to be getting married and living with him and a part of me is uncertain.

What I'm sure of, is that I want to be whole when we do decide to bind it. Not out of utang na loob, not out of kahihiyan or awa, not because I'm old. I did it because I believe and feel I'm IN LOVE with the person I'm going to spend my whole life with.

Right now, I'm not forcing anything. I just don't want to be rushed. And I just hope that he'll give me time and space sometimes.... :(

Friday, October 15, 2010

Hehehe!

Dahil sick leave ka, sick leave rin ako... :p

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Differences

It is so hard to argue with someone who does not want to argue back. Who keeps calm when you are in the verge of losing it. Who keeps quiet when you're trying to make a point and would just nod and look at you as if you are a mad woman.

GAD! Why do you have to be quiet and calm, when all I want you to do is be mad as hell and shout back. But no, you have to be - - - you. Simply you. The one who is willing to take all the wrath and analyze things before you open your mouth.

I hate it.

It makes me hate myself more.

I know I was just trying to make you lose it. In the end it was me who suffered my own doing. Maybe you are just testing me or maybe someday you'll lose it too and be as crazy as me...

Maybe. Maybe not.

Monday, October 04, 2010

:(

Contemplating something really big.

I could almost hear my Nanay's payo, "when in doubt, don't."

What am I to do... Think. Think. Think.

:(

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Conversations

I: Tl, I would like to request for VL on October 7 and 8 please...

R: Ok. Later... (busy sa stats ng team, parang walang narinig! hehehe!)

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R: Ina, are you sure VL for October 7 and 8, I'll be sending a tandim na.

I: Yes Tl!

R: Wait! what about Alex?

A: Yes Tl me too!

I: Huh? Ako lang! Di sya kasama tl!

R: What Alex? Are you sure?

A: Yes Tl!!!!

I: Ano ba! Bakit kelangan pati sya? Di naman magkadugtong mga bituka namin ah? Pag nakaleave ako dapat sya rin????

R: (deadma)

A: Bleh!!! Sama ako syempre!

I: Hay nako!!!!!! Kaasar!

:P

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R: Ina, Alex, Ron your VL's approve na!

Monday, September 20, 2010

Haay...

Sick yet again with colds...

Can't smell and can't taste a single thing. Whaaa!!! I'm hungry but too lazy to cook anything. Craving for something I don't know what.

Spent time with Edward this whole weekend. Missed him so much. Almost two months din kami hindi nagkasama during my off. Hay... So kulit and so harot parin.

Monday, September 13, 2010

All in a week's work.

What a week!

And the weekend is already over. Hayz... :(

Got the final stats from August.

Good news: We are the top team.

Bad news: September stats will be the ONLY basis for our next shift bid. Effing shit! So effing unfair! TARGET: 4x11 for the Christmas Holiday!

Good news: I placed 4th in the over all RPC standing of the whole Michigan and my best buddy Ron got first! Yahoo! And my AHT is less than 400sec. Finally, TL stopped bugging me. Been hitting all three goals perfectly. Wala na syang reklamo. Hehehe!

Bad news: Feeling the STRESS and PRESSURE as we begin the month of September! Whaaa!!! Been monitoring my stats. I know I'm okay for the last two weeks. Hopefully for the rest of the team too. Ika nga ni TL, pukpukan na! And even in my dreams I could still hear him "AHT guys! AHT!!!" Hay!!!

Good News: I know, TEAM RED will be the top team for September! Sobrang positive thinking yan! Sana lang talaga. Huhuhu! Will be getting our jacket soon! This week or next week! I'm so excited with that also. Just in time for our 1 year anniversary with Soft-Disco. Sana lang okay ang party this October.

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Got paranoid last Wednesday after shift. I felt sick and had chills. I felt I was floating. When I got home my temp was already 38 and I thought I had dengue na. Buti nalang naagapan ng bioflu, vitamins and rest. Was not able to go to work on Thursday.

Friday, it's a double pay pala. Yahoo! Buti nalang pumasok ako! Hehehe! After shift, went to Banchetto again - sans the pam-pam girls. Food trip and people watch with Love. Got to talk about a text and a call he received. At ayun na nga yun. Was too tired to argue about it and I didn't want to ruin the day. But it really bothered me a lot.

Although, I really trust him and I do know and feels that he really loves me. But having an ex call and text him out of the blue and with that kind of request, hhmm... parang iba na ata yun diba? I just told him, you decide but keep in mind what my opinions are. A day after, everything's okay na. End of story. End of her. Hehehe!

~~~~

Sunday, was supposed to watch UAAP with Ron and Choi but I canceled at the last minute I didn't feel like going and Love had an RDOT so, sabi ko rest nalang muna tayo this weekend. Wala munang gimik. Although last minute din nag-aya syang magdinner kahit 2hours lang daw sa Metrolane. Tried the Mang Inasal. Yummy!

Di rin talaga (nya) matiis na di magkita kahit isang araw lang... Hay! :p At nagpupumilit pang dun ako matulog sa kanya. Sabi ko nalang, "paalam ko lang sa bahay magdidinner lang tayo dito sa Metrolane, para bang nautusan lang akong bumili ng toyo tapos di na umuwi!" in which he said "kamo di toyo nabili mo, SAGING!" muntik ko na mabuga ung halo-halo sa mukha nya! Hahaha!

~~~~

Sept 7, 2010 marked my 1st year anniversary working in a call center. Wow! 1 year have passed already and I didn't even notice it. It is true, time flies so fast when you're enjoying what you're doing.

I could still remember our first day with Sir George Caluaug, our ESL instructor. Grabe! I was so so so nervous but excited at the same time. From 24 agents, now 6 are left from our training team. Buti nalang all six of us are still under one team and we love each other terribly maski minsan may mga conflict. Di naman maiiwasan yun lalo na kung puro babae kayo. :)

At first, I thought I will not survive this kind of working environment. But then I realized kaya ko pala na baliktad ang mundo ko and honestly mas gusto ko ng gabi. Obviously, even if it is my rest day, I'm still wide awake at this hour. Siguro dahil din, ok ang mga ka-team ko and my supervisor. And even if sometimes stressful ang work, once I'm logged out or sometimes kahit sa break lang, ok nako. Hindi kasi ganun ka grabe ang mga customer. Collection is easier than billing or DTA. Collect ka lang ng collect ng bayad! Hahaha! I enjoy meeting a lot of different people and I love the friendly competition. And at this point, I know I'm enjoying everything work-wise.

Plus, somebody came into my life unexpectedly.

It started one time when we were in NE pa. When I asked you to talk to me and to seat beside me. Tapos nasundan ni Dhez na pasimuno. Nung birthday ni Jev na holding hands daw... Na hindi na binitiwan ni loko nag kamay ko at kung mahihiwalay man agad-agad namang kukunin! Hahaha! (Lasing ka na nun! Di mo na siguro maalala! Ungas ka eh!) Yun pala matagal mo na gusto hawakan kamay ko at kung bakit lagi kitang nahuhuling nakatingin sa akin wala pa akong clue nun! Hahaha!

We started na para bang urong sulong. Not sure kung itutuloy o hindi. I was a bit hesitant but then in the end naging makulit ka rin and you stand firm even if I was pushing you away.

And you are one of the reasons why I love going to work and why I want to strive hard too.

And I believe that everything happens for a reason.

And looking back and looking where I'm at right now, I've come full circle. I'm happy. :)

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Okay fine. Sige taon na rin ang pinagsamahan nyo. Pero it doesn't mean kelangan nyo ring maging super duper bestfriend after the relationship ends.

Friends can be lovers but lovers becoming friends? Duh?!

Bakit sya nagpaparamadam? Dahil the EX just recently broken up with her boyfriend so kelangan nya ng a shoulder to lean on?

And why the sudden interest to apply in the same company that we work in? And why the hell did the EX even said kung pwedeng makitira sayo while applying in our company??? Bakit pa sya lalayo eh ang daming call center sa North! Haller!!!! The nerve naman!

At mabuti naman sinabi mong hindi sya pwedeng tumira sayo dahil sa akin. Pero hindi ko gusto yung sinabi mong okay lang na magwork sya with us. I mean, under one roof! At magiging casual nalang pag nakita - if ever. No way! Ayoko!

I will not be comfortable knowing the EX is just a few floors or a few bay away from us. Sa tingin mo hanggang casual lang yun. I doubt it!

Basta alam mo na opinion ko. Period!!!!

Ayoko ng complication at ayoko ng gulo.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Hay Nako!!!

Bakit kasi kelangan pang gawing bestfriend (kuno) ang ex! EX na nga eh!

PAST IS PAST sabi mo!

Eh bakit di pa ibaon sa limot ang nakaraan.

They just complicate things!

Kung kelan naman ok na tayo tsaka naman may umeeksana!

Hay! You got a lot of explaining to do. For now, I'll let you rest muna. May RDOT ka pa mamaya eh. Mamaya na ang world war III. Hehehe!!! Maghanda ka! Hmmp!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, August 30, 2010

Message

LOVE YOU SO MUCH..

You are the reason of my smile everyday.

My strength to strive hard everyday.

You'll be my wife (soon) and my love forever.

All I want is to be with you all the time....

~~~~

Someone is being emo again. Hehehe!!! Love you too! Sleep na!

Banchetto, 8.28.2010

Last day of shift, we were supposed to have our breakfast at McDonalds as we usually do but then we decided to go to Banchetto for a change.

Before lunch actually we were planning to go to Banchetto already but then Armie and Jane asked us to join them at Tiende for our lunch, medyo sawa na sa pantry food. Hehehe!!! For just 75.00 you have a 1pc bbq, a cup of rice and a generous serving of sisig, medyo nabusog na kami and decided to cancel Banchetto na. But then, I said maki-usi lang tayo though he's been there before and it's my first time, I just want to see the food.

From a far, you could see the smoke na and smell the food. Sa amoy palang medyo na umay na ako. Hehehe! Daming food! I love the barbecue! The crowd's mostly from call centers and a few foreigners here and there and people dressed in their pajamas.

Still full from our lunch, we just tried a couple of sticks of isaw and tenga and shared a monster(?) burger. Na medyo he didn't like and honestly I didn't like too. Medyo bland ang taste and the bread was mostly hangin. I don't know why people are falling in line sa medyo over rated na burger. I miss Bite Club! I'll take him there one of these days. Love the mango melon juice though, taste just right.

While waiting for our burger that took like 30mins to cook, saw mharz, cat and mildred who didn't stop teasing us to death! Kalerky!!! Cat who couldn't stop taking our pictures. Pampam na sa floor hanggang sa labas pampam parin! Anoh bah! :p

Before sunrise we went home na. I still want to go back and try some pasta and mouth watering viands and cakes. Hay!

Monday, August 23, 2010

Hay...

Jovani and Benny


I can't believe the weekend is gone already. Another work week ahead though I didn't go to work today as I feel so tired and my whole body aches. I'm wondering why... hhmm... :p

After last Thursday shift, I stayed at his place and went to work together for Friday shift and I went home Saturday morning.

It was nice. It was not planned. Had to buy clothes at Tiendesitas and had to endure my co-workers jokes about my clothes not ironed out. Buti nalang I have extra undies! Hahaha!!!

Sunday, met with him in Cubao to buy his shoes and while having coffee at Starbucks, I called Benny to just say hi. At ayun nag-aya magtwo buckets daw. At kahit he's in Makati, sugod ang lola mo sa Cubao with his jowa. Saya naman... Ester came too as she's in Farmers lang daw. Ayun... biglaang inuman session. Masaya talaga pag di planned eh. Mga tipong biglaan lang.

Ordered two buckets of San Mig, Sisig Kilaw (everbody loved it), Sisig tuna, French Fries, Gerry's Fried Chicken and Mango Juice for Ester.

After Gerry's went to his place and I went home around 4am today.

So tired but happy. He went to work and I didn't. Hehehe!!!


love the new phone ester!




Sunday, August 22, 2010

For You....

Love is not blind - It sees more and not less,but because it sees more it is willing to see less.

Within you I lose myself. Without you I find myself wanting to be lost again.

At any rate, let us love for a while, for a year or so, you and me. That's a form of divine drunkenness that we can all try.

If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you've made me smile, the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand.

We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that doesn't diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives.

And you learn that love, true love, Always has joys and sorrow, Seems ever present, Yet is never quite the same, Becoming more than love and less than love, So difficult to define. And you learn that through it all, You really can endure, That you really are strong, That you do have value.

The most eloquent silence; that of two mouths meeting in a kiss.

Love knows no reasons,love knows no lies. Love defies all reasons, love has no eyes. But love is not blind, love sees but doesn't mind.

To the world you may be one person,but to one person you may be the world.

Love is always bestowed as a gift -- freely, willingly, and without expectation.... We don't love to be loved; we love to love.

Find the person who will love you because of your differences and not in spite of them and you have found a lover for life.

Love doesn't make the world go round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile.

The most wonderful of all things in life, I believe, is the discovery of another human being with whom ones relationship has a glowing depth, beauty, and joy as the years increase. This inner progressiveness of love between two human beings is a most marvelous thing, it cannot be found by looking for it or by passionately wishing for it. It is a sort of Divine accident.

Love is not just looking at each other, its looking in the same direction.

The Grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for.

With love and patience, nothing is impossible.

~~~

Thank you for everything.

For being patient with me, for all the understanding and pangungulit. You make me happy and make me feel so loved and I really do appreciate all the things you do for me.

Thank you for loving me.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Go Home Early to Tiendesitas

August 9 to 13 was Skip Week and our second week being in the opening shift. Love the shift, all the payment comes in around this time. The teams RPC is doing soooo good! Hehehe!

Last night our team was offered a GHE. Well its been offered for the past four days but nobody was interested because it is the middle of the week and everybody was lazy to go home, still eager to get our RPC higher. But then, last night being a Friday - gimik night, Armie said if ever it gets offered again she and Jane will take it and will go to Tiende for a little bit of drinking and asked if anybody would like to come along. I immediately said I'm game! I have already hit my quota and I'm good to go for this weeks stat and Alex agreed to do the same. Happy!

True enough, after a few minutes 4 slots were offered first and then followed by 5 more. Dell, Ester, Cath, Mars, and Jo took it while Ron, Mommy Ria and Jaime stayed behind to finish the shift. Nagpapayaman! :p

Friday night, Tiendes activity area was packed. Luckily we found a good table. It was fun! Listened to some bands performance. We had some good laughs and enjoyed every moment. Ruby who's 4x11 and didn't have a shift that night, came also.

Next week, serious mode na ulit. No more GHE anytime soon... :(

Wednesday, August 04, 2010

Bob Ong Quotes

Just some of the things i liked:

"Lahat naman ng tao sumeseryoso pagtinamaan ng pagmamahal. Yun nga lang,
hindi lahat matibay para sa temptasyon."

"Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang taong malapit sayo. Gamitin ang utak
para alagaan ang sarili mo."

"Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawakan ng iba."

"Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang."

"Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."

"Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na
araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."

"Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi
pagkukusa."

"Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin
na di mo mahal pero mahal ka. Kaya quits lang."

"Wag magmadali sa pag-aasawa. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon sa hinaharap,
mag-iiba pa ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong di pala tamang pumili ng
kapareha dahil lang sa kaboses niya si Debbie Gibson o magaling
mag-breakdance. Totoong mas importante ang kalooban ng tao higit anuman. Sa
paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan sa eskwelahan e
nagmumukha ring pandesal. Maniwala ka."

"ayokong nasasanay sa mga bagay na pwede namang wala sa buhay ko "

"hindi dahil sa hindi mo naiintindihan ang isang bagay ay
kasinungalingan na ito. at hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay
katotohanan. "

"Mangarap ka at abutin mo. Wag mong sisihin ang sira mong pamilya,
palpak mong syota, pilay mong tuta, o mga lumilipad na ipis. Kung may
pagkukulang sa'yo mga magulang mo, pwde kang manisi at maging rebelde.
Tumigil ka sa pag-aaral, mag-asawa ka, mag-drugs ka, magpakulay ka ng buhok
sa kili-kili. Sa bandang huli, ikaw din ang biktima. Rebeldeng walang
napatunayan at bait sa sarili."

SShhh....

Why do you have to complicate things?

When everything is going smoothly you had to ask me that question over and over and over again.

Stop pressuring me! I hate it when you start doing it.

Burnout? This early? Hhhmm....

Hay... Too much information.

I need some time off. I'm tired. So tired. Physically and mentally tired.

Love is complicated.

Life is complicated.

Monday, July 26, 2010

Sunday Night

After our APE yesterday, together with Choi and Ron, Love and I went to Yoohoo! for a couples night out. It was fun. Last minute gimik. Originally Love and I just planned to have a quiet evening at his place. But then, bonding with another couple is much better.

Went there and the place was packed had to wait for at least 10minutes to get a table. Ordered Sisig, inihaw na tenga (very yummy!), bbq (the best!), inihaw na pwet ng manok for Ron, and fries for me, had two orders of them, been craving for it for the past few days and 3 buckets of Red Horse. Wonderful night!

We planned to go out of town as we celebrate out first year in our job. I'm excited! Hopefully matuloy sya. :P

After Yoohoo! went to his place.

Now, I'm home at last. Missed my room, missed my bed. Alone at last after one week... :)

Awat muna sa kulitan at minsang pikunan at away. Hehehe!

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Thank you...

It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light

Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes when I couldn't see for
Parting my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue

Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes when I couldn't see
For parting my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me, yeah

Lock the doors
Leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes oh, when I couldn't see
You parted my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
Oh for loving me

Monday, July 19, 2010

It's alright...

"Could we move our weekend get-away by August?"

I heard him asked me nervously as I ate my charbroiled burger at Tiendesita's - our meeting place before going to work.

"Why naman? We've planned it na diba?"

"I was thinking coz of the transition and stuff. Baka pwede ma-move?"

"No problem!"

Hahaha! He was really nervous while asking me. Para namang kakainin ko sya ng buhay.

"Don't look so surprise Love. Honestly, okay lang. Although I was really looking forward to it pero kung di pwede, ok lang talaga."

"Promise, I'll make it up to you."

~~~~

That was last Friday before work. Saturday morning, we had breakfast at our favorite Pares before going to my place because the day before, he planned to sleep over - again. And he said sabay na kaming pumasok come Saturday shift. As usual, we were not able to sleep not until around 12noon because of the harutan and stuff. I was tired and so sleepy. I woke up around 5:30pm and was trying to wake him up. Had our dinner then around 6:30pm he said tinatamad daw syang pumasok.

"Really? Are you serious? Ikaw tinatamad pumasok?"

Sabay bigyan lang ako ng naughty smile nya.

"Okay fine! Sickline nalang."

~~~~

We ended up not going to work. We were laughing of what Ron might think because she knew Love was going to sleep at my place and we were supposed to go to work. Pero dahil sa tinamad sya naginuman nalang kami.

He told me his sentiments about our relationship - again. How until now he still feels I'm not really in love with him and how he feels I'm not taking everything seriously. He said he's not blaming me if I felt traumatized by my last relationship. But he said, he's a totally different person. He's not like my ex daw he kept telling me over and over and over again. I told him, I'm not "not serious" about the relationship, it is just that, I've learned to take it easy. I've learned that, by loving someone and believing that person loves you too, is not enough to make all things go smoothly. Dapat talaga, conscious effort by two person to make it work.

He wants me to believe in love daw. He learned to accept na ganun talaga na ako ngayon, pero what he wants to happen is that kahit na I'm not thinking about the future - our future, he wants may plans parin kami. He kept bugging me about living in together. But I can't not now. Not yet. I have so many things pa to take care of before I could leave. Plus the fact na he's not into dogs din kasi. He's not a dog person. And we need to find a place that could accommodate 5 dogs! Hahahaha! Just the thought of it, ayaw na nya. Well except si Mandy na medyo nakakasundo na nya. She's used to him. Di na nya kinakahulan at gustong makipaglaro sa kanya, kaso nga he can't. Due to a childhood experience. Hahaha!!!

~~~~

Seriously, I love every moment that we have. We do work together and we see each other everyday. He would sometimes sleep here at home and I would sometimes sleep at his place. And it feels nice na he wants to live with me na. That would be a chance for me to take care of him more better. But then, something is not right. I feel it. As what my mother used to say "when in doubt, don't." I'm not in a hurry about what's going on between me and him. I'm not jumping right at the opportunity just because I know I'm not getting any younger or whatever. But I have a gut feel not to hurry things up. In the right time maybe, I would feel na it's time na. I would feel na he's the one na talaga.

I'm just enjoying every attention I get from him and my chance to take care of him and our moments together. What I know is that, when I feel down and when I feel tired at work, all I had to do is look at him and when I see him smile at me, nawawala na pagod ko. And sometimes when I'm too lazy to go to work, the thought of being with him and seeing him is enough encourage me to go to work.

Ron said I am in love and is just afraid to admit it. Maybe I am. Maybe.

All I know is that I'm happy now and the people around me are happy to know that I'm happy. Daming nag react sa change status ko sa Facebook ah... Hahahaha!!!

~~~~

We started drinking at 10pm and finished at around 4am! Can you believe that... Kwentuhan at walang kamatayang kwentuhan lang... We finished off by eating at this Tapsilogan near my house. I didn't like it though. Hehehe!

Then we slept until 4pm Sunday. Had early dinner before he went home. Later naman at around 3pm my turn to go to his place. I'm cooking spaghetti! Yummy!

Tuesday, July 06, 2010

...

Apologizing does not mean
that you are wrong and the other person is right...
It just means that you value your relationship more that your ego...

Thursday, July 01, 2010

...

So looking forward to our weekend get-away. You promised! Few more weeks... Hehehe!

Monday, June 28, 2010

Sick again...

Ever since flu season started, I got sick na.

Friday shift, I started sneezing. I knew I was going down with something. True enough, by the end of the shift I was teary eyed and with a runny nose.

By the time I got home I was having a splitting headache and my nose is already clogged. Was not able to get a decent sleep and plus the fact that Love and I was having a slight tampuhan because of me being cold lately over him and he felt I was not taking the relationship seriously and he ignored me for a couple of days. The nerve! Hahaha! Actually, I was. I was a bit cold intentionally. But that's another story.

Anyways, I was not able to report to work for Saturday shift. I was dead tired.

Sunday, Love surprised me by coming over. Maski ang lakas lakas ng ulan, sugod ang gago. He wants to take care of me daw.

Hhmm.. Ano kayang take care iyon??? HAhaha!!! Nagdala ng kung ano-anong food na hindi ko naman malasahan dahil sa barado kong ilong. He ended up eating all the junkfoods, cake and chicken. Did nothing but watched TV and DVD until I fell asleep.

Woke up, tulog na rin ang gago sa tabi ko. Pero syempre.. May konting QT narin! Nabitin ata ako este!! Nabinat ata ako! Hahaha!!!

Hay nako! He can be sweet really, at times. Pero pag dating sa work. Work lang talaga. He's very strict. Palibhasa POC kasi. Madalas mainit ang ulo. Walang love love sa floor. Pero nauutusan ko naman! Hahaha!

Thanks Love for looking after me this weekend. Making an effort to spend time with me and to clear things out. It meant a lot.

Mwah! Mwah! Mwah!

Basta steady lang...

Monday, June 21, 2010

Tatay

I dreamt of my dearest Tatay last night. We were celebrating his birthday. A lot of relatives came and from my own family, aside from my Tatay, me and my two older sisters were the only ones there.

Funny thing is, Ate Cindy played the organ while Tatay and I danced and my Ate Jean sung.

In reality, when I was a little girl, whenever Ate Jean plays the organ, Tatay would grab me and spun me around and around. We would dance until I was dizzy. Those were some of my fondest memory of my dear Tatay.

He loves to dance and sing. He would laugh his heart out and enjoy every moment.

I still miss him. I would tell stories of him to my closest friends and would still shed some tears whenever I remember all the happy moments we had.

It's been 11 years now since he died and still it feels like it was only yesterday when he left us.

He's not a perfect father but he tried his best to provide and give us the life he never had when he was young. He's pretty proud of what he's become and what he had achieved and by God, he deserves everything he had accomplished. He may be not the kind of father that would make lambing or would say I love you, but I know he loved us. He gave all he had for our family.

Wherever you are my Tatay, you are always in heart and in my prayers. Thank you for everything.

I LOVE YOU!

I still miss you so much...

...

I used to wish for the same thing - - -
someone to love and who'll love me back.

But today,

I think I'm going to wish for something else - - -
the wisdom and maturity to realize that I won't find
what I want by looking for it...

That I shouldn't expect someone else to give me
what I never gave to myself.

That I'm NOT a half,
waiting to be made whole.

And even if that special person never comes along,
I'll be just fine... :)

...

Live life fully while you're here.
Experience everything.
Take care of yourself and your friends.
Have fun, be crazy, be weird.
Go out and screw up!
You're going to anyway,
so you might as well enjoy the process.

Take the opportunity to learn from your mistakes:
find the cause of your problem and eliminate it.

Don't try to be perfect;
just be an EXCELLENT example of being human...

Appointments

Went to my ob-gyne last Friday, had my scheduled Pap-smear. Will get the result by next Saturday. Crossing my fingers everything is all well down there. Hhmm...

The next six days would be something to look forward to. Bring all the pain now! Doc said take it easy with the pain killers, if I can handle it, don't drink anymore. So I'll be a masochist even for a week. Hahaha! Embrace the pain!

Seriously, I hope everything will be okay. I'm having some cramps and back pains. But I know it will be all worth it. Preparing for something special in the near future. But I'm really having second thoughts. Kung pwede naman ipagpaliban pa, why not. It will all depend on the circumstances. Pero as much as possible, ayoko pa sana. I know someone who is so eager to volunteer! Hahaha! Ganun lang ba yun!? At hanggnag dun lang ba yun? Coz' if you're going to ask me, gusto ko hanggang dun lang yun. Kaso it doesn't look like you'll be contented na maging hanggang dun lang yun. No strings attach please. :p

Hay! Decisions decisions decisions!

My back is killing me! I need a rub! Whaaaa!!!!

Love It!

I'm loving the new Template Designer by Blogspot... Inspiring me to post more... Hehehe!!!

Saturday, June 05, 2010

...

Still feeling a little bit down. Didn't go to work yesterday and tonight. Need to rest and sleep a little bit longer. Will need a lot of energy to survive this illness. Good thing it is my rest day tomorrow til Monday. Plenty of time to rest.

I miss working. It gets a little bit boring staying here at home almost half of the day doing nothing but sleep. Been to my doctor twice now and still waiting for the results, hope its going to be good news by the end of my medication. And then more test, test and test.

I hate hospitals. I don't want to stay there any longer than having a check-up. But there's nothing I can do.

Buti nalang may nangungulit every now and then... :)

4:00am

H: "u awake?"

S: "yup!"

H: "bakit?"

S: "eh nagtext ka eh! istorbo! joke! I slept almost half of the day na eh... woke up early tuloy"

H: "ano sabi ng doctor, how was ur check-up?"

S: "ayun! more test pa daw. u on break?"

H: "yeah... pasok na ko. miss you! mwah!"

S: "okies... "

H: "love you... "

S: "......"

H: "cge na nga.... basta love you!"

~~~~

6:45pm

H: "Gising kana Love? Musta check-up?"

S: "Yeah... Okay naman. More medications lang then be back for more test."

H: "Are you going to work na tonight?"

S: "Not yet... Total rest daw eh... Be back Tuesday night."

H: "Miss you na..."

S: "Pano mo naman ako namimiss? One day palang tayo di nagkikita..."

H: "Basta, di kita nakikita at nakakasama..."

S: "Cheesy!!! Hahaha!"

H: "Eh di wag! Wag kang maniwala."

S: "Asus! Tampo ang baby ko.... Hehehe!"

H: "Wag nalang nga...."


Hahahaha!!!! :p

Do you two have chemistry?

Sweaty palms? Sort of. A pounding heart? A bit. Even so, you’re still not completely sure there are sparks between you. Understandable: While it’d be nice to think that the earth moves and the angels sing when you’ve found The One, sometimes the signals that you two are truly meant for each other are much more subtle than that. Here are seven dead giveaways that singles often miss — know that if you spot one or more of them on your next date, that’s good news.

Subtle sign #1: You turn into a total klutz
So far, you’ve dropped your fork and knocked over your water glass…and that’s before the entrées have arrived. While embarrassing, these gaffes are actually a good sign. “When you have serious chemistry, your body produces elevated levels of the neurotransmitter norepinephrine,” says Helen Fisher, Ph.D., research professor of anthropology at Rutgers University. This, in turn, can make you jittery, uncoordinated, and a little accident-prone. And if you’re embarrassed by your klutziness, that’s a good sign too! Because if you don’t care what your date thinks of you, you probably don’t think much of your date.

Subtle sign #2: You notice a tiny dent in your date’s pinkie nail
Or that your date’s hair flips up on the left but under on the right. You’ve never noticed something like that about a person before, so why now? Because when there’s true chemistry, the body’s levels of the chemical dopamine rise and lead to “imprinting,” a theory of attachment discovered by German ethologist and Nobel Prize winner Niko Tinbergen. This imprinting makes you focus on this one person more clearly and notice the tiniest, most insignificant details about a person — including possessions. Says Dr. Fisher, “Your date’s car in the parking lot looks different. His or her backpack looks different. That person’s coat on the coat rack stands out. Everything is special, novel, unique.” CHECK!!!

Subtle sign #3: You agree to split the spinach dip appetizer — and you don’t even like spinach dip!
True chemistry makes us more mellow than usual — so don’t be surprised if you find yourself being agreeable with your date in ways you might not with anyone else: You don’t mind walking 10 blocks with your date from your parking spot. You’re suddenly up for seeing a Rob Schneider movie. And even though you’re not a fan of Indian food, what the heck, you’ll give it another shot. “When you’re falling in love, you more easily surrender your boundaries because of a strong desire to merge with that person,” explains Harville Hendrix, Ph.D., author of Keeping the Love You Find. CHECK!!!

Subtle sign #4: The room you’re in seems brighter than usual
Did someone nudge up the dimmer switch? Perhaps. But it could also mean you’re smitten, thanks to a physiological reaction discovered by University of Chicago biopsychologist Eckhard Hess, a pioneer in the area of “pupillometrics.” In short, Hess found that when people look at something or someone that causes positive feelings or sparks interest, their pupils dilate in an attempt to take in more of it, also letting in more light as well. CHECK!!!

Subtle sign #5: You’re more fidgety during the date
If you find yourself stroking your own arm, tapping your leg, or otherwise fidgeting during the date, rest assured: Whether you fully know it or not, you like this person. “These are ‘displacement gestures’ — what you do when you’re trying to decide what to do with yourself,” explains Dr. Fisher. “If someone is smiling at you and you can’t decide if you should smile back or look away, you play with your hair. Or you run your tongue along your teeth.” This happens because your brain is over-stimulated, leading you to vent the extra energy with a little self-grooming. Some experts even argue that stroking your own arm or leg indicates a subconscious desire to reach out and touch the person you’re with.

Subtle sign #6: You keep forgetting there’s food on the table
When you’re out with someone who doesn’t float your boat, boy, do those garlic mashed potatoes taste good. But if you’re feeling a chemical attraction to someone, the food being served is the last thing on your mind — and not just because you’re nervous. Blame this on elevated levels of the neurotransmitter dopamine, which fuels feelings of desire. Higher levels of dopamine, according to Dr. Fisher, “give you a feeling of lightness, increased energy and a feeling of minor ecstasy. And you’re definitely not hungry!” So if your date seems disappointed that you only ate four bites of your steak, you can clear it up later by explaining what a five-star sign it really is.

Subtle sign #7: You feel more “familiar” with your date than “lusty”
Sure, most people think it’s a good sign when they want to jump over the table and rip their date’s clothes off. But let’s be honest—there are plenty of acquaintances you’ve wanted to do that to, and there was no deeper, underlying chemistry there. A stronger sign is that instead of feeling lust for your date, you’re overwhelmed by a feeling of familiarity — a sense of, “Gosh, I feel like I’ve known you before.” The chemistry at work, says Dr. Hendrix, “is due to the emotional center in your brain’s limbic system recognizing qualities in the person that resemble qualities about the caretakers we had during childhood.” For example, a man might recognize a feeling of being at ease and nurtured the way his mother made him feel. A woman might feel comfortable with the dry humor of her date, similar to the way her father interacted with her. “This intense familiarity triggers the release of dopamine, which can lead to that ‘Wow’ feeling,” explains Dr. Hendrix. Oh, and by this point, it’s also definitely OK to want to jump over the table and rip your date’s clothes off! CHECK!!!

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4 out of 7... Hmm... not bad... HAHAHA!!!

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Party Time


COMCAST Soft-Disco
Michigan and New England - TEAM JON CAB

STOP LIGHT PARTY

Moomba, Mo. Ignacia St., Quezon City
May 30, 2010 / 8:00pm



wear red top if you're taken, yellow if its complicated
and green if you're single and ready to mingle...

Monday, May 17, 2010

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Lazy Monday morning.

Tired but happy.

Thanks Love for a nice Sunday night. Hehehe! :p

Saturday, May 15, 2010

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Woke up late... Didn't go to work. Hehehe! Spending time with my baby instead. :p

Monday, May 10, 2010

Surprise Surprise!!!

Last Friday night, I was on my way to work when I saw my good old brother. The second from the eldest. He said he has a gift for me. Advance birthday gift. I laughed when I heard him say that. I didn't believe him until he gave me a small box. WTF! A new cellphone! Hahaha!!! Is this for real?? I kept asking him. "So what's the catch?" He said nothing. Just a gift. Talk about surprises.

Well actually, he bought the phone for himself. Over excited kasi. He didn't test if he'll be comfortable using that kind of unit. But then, good thing he didn't like it! I was there for the hand-me-down! Love it!

Although at first, I had a hard time navigating, it will take some time to get used to it. It's fun! Plus Kuya had a 4gig (expandable till 8gig) memory card thrown with it. Can't wait to load all those nice songs I got from a friend.

Samsung GT-S3653W and my other phone E63 (both black) has a new partner now. New cellphones, new numbers. Out with the old, in with the new! Hehehe!!!

Thanks brother dearest! :)


Monday, May 03, 2010

Someday i'll find my Way Back In To Love..

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh


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Sometimes in life, we must know when to quit.

Accept that no matter how hard we try to make things work, when you know it’s not going to work, it will never work.

We must learn to admit when things are not meant to be, it will never be whatever you do.

The hardest part is, telling it to someone who doesn’t want to give up. I know he’ll hate me and I don’t know if he’ll speak to me ever again.

But then again, I know it is the most dignified thing to do. Saving that person from all the heartaches. Face the consequences.

It all boils down to being honest with what you feel. Hoping that someday that person would find in his heart to forgive you. Hoping that he’ll understand why you have to do it.

It is all about taking full responsibility and moving forward without worrying that you’ve hurt someone from your past because you choose to face the problem head-on than hide behind all the same old shit of “it’s-not-you-it’s-me” reason. Face the music . Have the balls. Have the guts. Have the nerve to tell it to his face that it’s not working.

This is going to be one difficult week for me.

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He has persistently asked me of how I feel for almost a month now.

I tried.

I really did.

But my whole heart is not into it.

I still tried, but when things started to change, as days go by, between my heart and what his intentions were...

I knew, I have to let go... I have to tell him.

I do love the attention. I like the affection he shows but to be in a relationship again? I’m not sure if I’m ready with all my heart – with all of me.

Let’s put it this way, being in a relationship, I do miss the feeling. I do miss having someone beside me, caring for someone and all that bruhaha, but thinking about all the freedom and choices I have as a single person, it is beyond what I could put into words. This is the first time in my whole life, since I had my first boyfriend, that I’m without a boyfriend for more than four months. It’s been almost nine months now, I do get lonely sometimes but then, looking at all of my options and adventures and besides I’m not really looking for someone just yet, I’m just enjoying the ride until I can. And I know, when the right person comes along, I know the universe will have it’s own way of letting me know that he is the one for me.

But at this point, I don't think so.